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Thursday, June 19, 2003
07:37 p.m.
gawdd.............CRAZY days.....left the house at 6:45am on wedensday to be in queens by 9:30 for a conference/motion. Enjoyed a papaya shake though at that deli :D and also submitted one of my resumes and a cover letter to a judge. This morning I went to NY Supreme on a conference and met a nice attorney. Both yesterday and today attorneys told me to get out of a specialized area of law NOW while you can before - you're pigeonholed. A new associate from work took me out for lunch today, her treat :) She's so nice! I;m so glad she joined our firm. I'm reading The Career Novelist and working on my book.....I have a major case of writer's block and can't seem to make anything I write...perfect! The scenes and everything...everything sounds so swkward, amateurish....I'm going to spend tonight writing.
I FINALLY got my issue of Cosmopolitan. I had been wondering why it was late even though I saw it on newstands everywhere and I wrote complaining and they extended my issue :D Same went for Vogue too! But I still have received the June Vogue. I've reorganized my finances and budgeted myself accordingly. It feels really good when you're in control of your finances feels like you're really in control of your life.
I need to get writing. I got sent out to court again today EVEN THOUGH the associate whose file it was could have gone. She instead came in at 11am saying she was late because she worked out last night and was sore she couldn't get up. *ugh* I hate lazy people. She should have gone on her own case. Why did she make me go? I think she has it in for me. I'm slowly starting to dislike her.
- Nishi
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Tuesday, June 17, 2003
07:54 p.m. EST
WHEW! I'm HOME but lord - being out in court and at depositions every day is leaving a TON of stuff undone on my desk. How am I going to get everything done before my L.A. vacation? No choice - I HAVE to somehow make sure it's done! I spent an hour last night looking up the court addresses and names of judges to send resumes to. Wish me luck guys - I'm going to try my best to get a new job closer to home and with solid 9-5 hours and zero court/deposition traveling work.
I slept at 9:30pm last night cause I was so exhausted! Woke up this morning with cramps. Sheesh. Headed out to Queens for my deposition - the guy being deposed (getting his sworn testimony taken) is chinese and speaks mandarin. I want to learn Mandarin and Cantonese! Add that to my list of languages I wanna learn!
This place on Sutphin Blvd in Queens, across from the Queens Civil Court - it's this Deli - makes Papaya and Banana Shakes for $3. THEY'RE SOOO YUMMY! I have to go back to Queens tomorrow but on my way back to the office, before I get on the subway, I'm getting a papaya or banana shake!
Jamie I don't think you understand. Images I put on my site with my logo were either scanned in by me, snapped with a videophone by me, are on my site with permission, or used as part of a graphics/design layout the design/layout of which is mine. If an image is scanned or snapped by me or the scan is given to me and I want others to be able to view the image but not have them steal it, I put my name on it. Everyone has a perfect right to do that on the net to their images regardless of where it came from. Now if you print out someone's art and make it into merchandise like t-shirts or books, cups etc and SELL them, THAT is illegal because you're using someone else's copyrighted materials for PROFIT without any of the proceeds going to the original copyright owner. I've put Nishi's A Dream I Dream on every image that I don't want anyone to steal from my site because the image is either unique and showcases something I OWN or because the image is part of a layout I used and I don't want the layout being stolen. However, it is ONLY ON THE NET.
Janeen my friend Rebecca gave me that Bride Usagi plush doll as a gift when I saw her for the 1st time in L.A. this past December :) It hangs above my bed! :D I'm still looking for the Mamoru bride. Miyu-chan I never had homemade chinese cooking :( No fair - ur lucky! But then again, I get my mom's yummy indian cooking so nyaahhh! ;) *HUG* :)
It's almost 8pm and I need to work on resumes and cover letters. *sigh* I'll see you guys later!
- Nishi
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Monday, June 16, 2003
09:36 a.m.
Updated at 10:45 a.m. BELOW - Yes an update an hour later ;) LOL!
I get this feeling that I won't have to work at this litigation firm for much longer. When I walked onto 42nd and Madison today from GCT I got that feeling I sometimes get.....kinda like the premonitions in dreams I get - where I know things will be different soon. I had decided this morning on the train to apply to every Judge in every court in Westchester, Putnam, Queens, Bronx and New York counties. I don't think I'll be walking this regular Madison Avenue route for much longer...maybe only a few more months at the most. Things will only change if I change them so I'm going to be very proactive in getting a 9-5 court attorney job I'll be happier in. If my feeling is correct, then I should be at a new job by August - September.
Last night, I took my cousin Mahima to a Japanese restaurant near her home called OSHO's as a birthday present (sweet 16). It was expensive as heck but very good food. I had seafood u-dong and shrimp tempura (I love tempura) but I decided it's not really Japanese food I love so much as it is authentic chinese, thai and malayasian. I love curry sushi though! :D
I came home and spent a while digging out my boxes of books and stuff in storage (broke a nail in the process - just jammed the thing hard into a box and it hurt like a f---er!) and found my Marmalade Boy manga 1 & 2 and Kodocha 1 and TA DA - every story and dream I had ever written down from the age of 13 on. I found a load of my stories I wrote in college and DAMN - these stories were good. I can't believe I had the ability to write like this and didn't pursue it. Instead my creative writing is stifled working as a lawyer.
I spent the night reading to Ricky some of my stories and entries from an old high school and college diary. I was SO SO SO freaking boy crazy! My mind revolved around boys. GOOD LORD! I can't believe I was like that! HAHAHAHA :D It's true what they say about keeping all your diaries from way back and reading them years later - I found stuff I had completely forgotten ever happened. I've really grown up.
I've gotta get stuff done this morning before going to a conference at the NY Supreme Court. I'll write tonight :) Have a great day everyone! and Callie congrats to the Spurs although I have no clue who they are :D but I have heard of the Nets.
Updated at 10:45 a.m.
I hate this work, I hate this work, I swear to God I am going to go insane doing this work. I only hope I get a job at a courthouse as a court attorney and that working there is less demanding and tedious. Same damn responses, phonecalls with other arrogant attorneys, motions for summary judgment galore, so much freaking work I hate doing, and it never ends. Never ENDS. I'm just counting the minutes, counting down to the end of the work day, each work day......ah L.A you're just a week and 4 days away....but even when I'm there with Ricky, it'll go by so fast and it's only temporary. I need permanent relief from this lifestyle. God help me please! I can't keep living my days, living only for the hours between 7-10pm and living only for Friday night - Sunday nights. This is no life! I want to be happy. I want to make my dreams come true. Please God, only You can help make this happen for me and I promise, in return I won't waste it. I'll do good with my life - I'll work for human rights and charity, and help people and move effective policy. I won't take your blessings for granted. Just please, please help me and I swear I'll do my best.
- Nishi
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Sunday, June 15, 2003
12:00 NOON EST
I just finished washing some of my delicate clothing and carefully followed the instructions on which to lay flat to dry and which to line-dry and which to dry-clean or hand wash. I've suddenly become SO very careful in taking care of my clothing cause these damn things have cost me a fortune! Plus....weirdly, I actually kind of find it fun to take care of my clothing. HAH! Whoda thunk it ;) Guess that's what happens when you shop a lot and buy things you love and are devastated when washing or drying it wrongly ruins them as I, sadly, did with a few of my favorite pieces. No more though! I'm a changed girl!
I got my new issue of SHAPE Magazine yesterday and it motivated me to get back on the treadmill after 5 months! Since I started working in February, the only exercise I ever got was when I went to L.A. and rollerbladed or biked there. Jogging yesterday - I could only do 1.5 miles and walk another 1.5 which shows how not exercising for 5 months decreased my abilities. I hit the weights and toned my arms and did like a million crunches. WHEW! I'm going to get back to jogging 3 miles and reach my weight goal!
My folks are going to CAPE COD for 3 days. My mom gets to have a manicure and pedicure and a massage and my dad is getting a massage and facial (that's the only "manly" package that was left for him ;) hahaah) cause it's part of this free company perk my dad gets for being a big mortgage producer.
I'm taking my cousin Mahima out this afternoon ANYWHERE she wants cause her 16th Birthday (Sweet 16 party) is on July 6th but I'll be in L.A. then so will miss it. She was so happy on the phone when I told her - she's really cute! :)
I ACTUALLY REALLY, for the first time since I started working, enjoyed my weekend here at home. I slept past 8/9am yesterday, got to do the things I loved except for spending saturday morning/afternoon fighting with my mom and ricky (It's all fine now), got to read SHAPE, slept for 2 hours in the late afternoon, woke up from my Saturday nap to hear the rain POURING down like CRAZY, stayed up all night looking at auctions, and woke up today to a beautiful Sunday. I'm still sad that work starts all over again tomorrow but am looking fwd to the next week when at the end of that week I get to go to L.A. for 10 days of rest and relaxation! :D This time, *I* am going to a SPA! I wanna get a massage and facial and stuff! :D
Christine-chan hi there :) I'm glad you like my blog and sites! I have cousins who live in Houston! I love it there and you should be happy to be living in San Antonio! :) Glad you love SailorMoon as much as I do! Have you collected a lot of stuff too? Usagi hi and thank you :) hahaha you read about the bozo huh? ;) I hope I don't run into him again too! The card thing is the cheesiest pick up line i EVER heard!
I need to go put away clothes now and shower and get ready to pick my cousin up. See ya guys later :D
- Nishi
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Friday, June 13, 2003
10:16 p.m. EST
You guys don't know how MUCH i've been dying to write in here and I had to wait till Friday night before I'd get a good length of free time to just sit and write.
how should i begin and what should I say....so much's happened! I don't wanna go day by day....
And Happy Friday the 13th everyone! I totally forgot and didn't realize it till now! Nothing spooky happened but we got a letter in our mailbox yesterday that there was a PROWLER who was caught videotaping a bedroom at 11pm in our neighborhood on June 10th! The letter didn't say who's house and who the letter was by but told us to call the police if we saw anything suspicious. This PROWLER when confronted made a quick escape - he was VERY familiar with our neighborhood. Worries me deeply.
But on to lighter topics......BRACE yourself for a LLLOOOONNNGGGGGGG entry. Replies to Messages in the Comment Box are at the end of this entry.
WRITING
I've been reading The Forest For The Trees a book for writers by this editor. It's an EXCELLENT book and for those writers out there - GET IT!! I got mine from amazon.com. The author used to work for the best publishing houses here in NYC and she tells everything - the publishing process, what editors want, what publishers want....and her understanding of authors is so good...I identified with the top of pg. 5 or 6 right away.
It's made me ITCH to get started on my book(s). But I also realized what a LONG process getting published was and how, even when you're published, there's no guarantee anyone will buy your books or even care. Every writer holds this dear wish to make it big...to be that best seller...to get those movie deals. I have those dreams too. All we can do is work our best to share what we have created. The rest will have to work itself out. For me, I have to try because this has always been a dream of mine, and even more so since law is so unfulfilling for me...and I get so much more fulfillment and happiness from writing creative fantasy fiction.
MY UNFULFILLING LAW CAREER AND EVENTS FROM IT
Today I went to NY Supreme Court to check on a motion. The NY Supreme court on 60 Centre Street is nice - the ceiling has beautiful art - roman I think. When I finished with my job there and left, passing the long line of people using the public entrance - I saw people staring at me in my suit. I must've looked all-important or something ;) Little did they know how I wished to be like them - not a lawyer but a free being. In fact, the only thing I liked about being a lawyer this morning is the beautiful Express jacket I wore with my pants! :) I like dressing up :)
I took the #6 train uptown back to work cause I wanted to be able to write in my writing pad and when I got out at 42nd Street/Grand Central Terminal (GCT) I heard this GORGEOUS MUSIC - which is normal because you always hear groups playing beautiful music at that area by all the subway entrances in GCT. Today this instrumental group named Agua Clara (Clear Water) was playing and I was SOOOO moved by this one instrumental song I heard....it sounded JUST like the tune you would hear in a movie when someone is about to change their life - quit a job/career and start fresh - a brand new life. It was upbeat, haunting, moving, touching, and lovely. I grabbed my writing pad and stayed there for 5 minutes writing all these lyrics that popped into my head and changing the tune. As i left and walked up Park Avenue, I came up with a beautiful song. :)
I went and got a manicure and pedicure and then hit work. I found that a motion for summary judgment I had worked on had been granted! We won! :) That was a very nice feeling. :) I thought for a second - JUST a second - "Law can be nice when you win so maybe it's ok?" Then, "Naahh" it's still not worth it to me to practice every day for the rest of my life.
NYC
It's surprising how much you notice when you have the time. As i walked leisurely down Park Avenue by 101 CityFoodCafe where Ricky and I had once stopped so confused as to where we were 2 years ago (I laugh to think of it now that I know the city like the back of my hand ;) - well on the sidewalk there are these beautiful plaques molded into the cement of art of the buildings most prominent in NYC. If any of you get a chance, make sure to walk by there - Park Avenue right after 42nd street, behind Pershing Square cafe.
MY SONG-WRITING
I wonder if people, if they ever hear this song I composed today, will ask "I wonder what she was going through when she wrote this?" hahahahaha I'll laugh so hard! The lyrics I wrote to fit the tune I heard are somewhat.....what's the right word....gothic? Will they think I have "gothic blood" in me? ;) LOL! I like to write dark songs sometimes because it's fun! I don't really carry such dark emotions inside of me. I'm generally a very optimistic and happy person and have been only depressed twice from losing my 1st love twice. So because of that, I know of pain and anguish and suffering and can write on it. Of course, I've been sad and hurt as any other normal person, aside from break ups, has and those emotions go into my songs too. However, in writing the songs, I exaggerate the emotions - take it to an extreme - because I think such pain in a song is moving and needs to be exaggerated to really be powerfully moving. I've never really had extreme emotions such as those I write about but when I decide to write them, I imagine in my head what it would be like and feel like to have such feelings - how it must hurt and ache inside and I force myself to call upon my saddest moments and come up with beautiful lyrics to express an extreme exaggerated dark sadness - I also draw the inspiration for such lyrics from having seen such emotions in others, read about it, watched it on tv, and heard it in other songs. So a dark song I come up with - it's not necessarily cause I'm what the song is about inside or anything like that - that's only probably 10%-25% about me - but it's written the way it is because such darkness SHOULD be written and sung about. It's a part of life and many people out there have been through it - I want to reach those people. I have an imagination that allows me to feel things beyond what I have actually felt. And that's how I think I can write songs so believingly that a listener/reader thinks it's about me.
When I write a song....first I come up with a tune....and then I come up with emotions that fit the tune....and then I write about those emotions. Often, as I said above, those emotions AREN'T mine! Like that guy on the plane, who after reading my songs I showed him, told me I must be denying things about myself - he was mistaken and no amount of telling him that it wasn't about me would convince him. What Forest For The Trees made me realize about my writing and song-writing, is that I write my songs to touch people...to move them....and my stories to take people's imaginations somewhere they've never been.
People wonder about STEPHEN KING. He writes such scary stories and think there must be something wrong with him ;) The truth is, he's just got an amazing imagination and ability to write. I guess that's what I'll tell the next person who I show my song book too. I've got an imagination and I write songs from it.
Back to my career I wish I could magically change
I don't know how much longer I have to work as a lawyer at insurance defense litigation. On Wednesday night I drove all the way to Queens, through pouring thunderstorms, to go to Queens County Small Claims court. I argued in front of the judge against this woman who was bringing a harassing claim against my firm's client. It went fine. We'll have a trial on July 15th which I'll go to and which will dismiss her claims cause she has no proof - no receipts of expenses she's claiming. Across the street from this court, there's a BAGEL CAFE which makes the BEST damn banana milkshake I ever tasted! Being back in Queens made me MISS my law school life so much. I saw the 99cent store I always bought stuff from, the subway stop I went to for my fun trips to the city.....*sigh*....it was just a year ago.....
On Thursday ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE! I had 2 motions to appear on at the Kings County Civil Court on Thursday morning. Kings County is where Brooklyn is. Well, silly girl I am who doesn't know the burroughs of Bronx or Kings all that well....saw 'Civil Court' and thought 'Bronx' and went to the Bronx and arrived wondering where my adversaries were and why the room number wasn't right.....when I finally called plaintiff's attorneys on both cases and learned I was in the wrong courthouse - 45 minutes away and would be LATE for the motions BIG TIME - I practically nearly panicked and lost a liver. Luckily, in 30 seconds I calmed down, got the first motion adjourned to September 26, and told the secretary for the other firm that I was COMING TO BROOKLYN!
With tears somewhere lurking behind my eyes I go into an elevator and meet a nice attorney to whom I explain what happened. He and this other nice guy I met at Brooklyn both told me how they had gone to the wrong courts when they started out. :) They made me laugh and feel SO much better. I got on the subway and pulled out FOREST FOR THE TREES and just READING about writing and my future dreams of being published and out of law made me feel 100% better. I had phoned ricky and left a msg telling him what happened. He later told me he laughed hearing my message - HAH - to him, me messing up the courts I was to go on was funny ;) I made it to the 2nd motion, argued in front of the judge, and everything went fine. WHEW. BAck at work, I feared for my life! Who would yell at me? Nobody did. They were fine and understood and it wasn't OUR motions. We were just defense on the motion so nothing really to lose. WHEW. SAVED!
That running from Bronx Civil to Brooklyn Civil and the panic about a MOTION made it clear to me - as if there were any doubts before? ;) - that litigation - going to court every day - was SOOOOOOOO NOT for me. Once in a while...once or twice a month - ok.....but NOT every day.
Fin
I'd written a lot more in my yellow legal pad all week but the above sums up a lot of it all. I go to court again on Monday, another next Friday and probably more in the middle. And in 2 weeks I GO TO L.A.!!!! GOOD BYE HUMID NEW YORK and HELLO SUNNY SO. CAL!
This weekend, I'm going to write write WRITE.
REPLIES TO MESSAGES
Janeen-chan *HUG* first HAPPY BIRTHDAY and 2, any MB goodie I get that I don't want will be a bday gift for you! :) Clara aww thank you and you're welcome! What career do you want to change from? Jamie I put Nishi's A Dream I Dream on pictures of merchandise because they are ALL UNIQUE IMAGES that BELONG TO ME so nobody can steal them. D-chan you want the Meiko plushie? AWWWW! Ok you and Janeen decide who wants the mini-meiko and who wants the big meiko. Crystal awww *HUG* I'm glad you understand. Leave UTAH and come to NY :D hahahah :) Goddess thank you! Yeah I've had this journal for a while but didn't link it on MiakaandTamahome.com for a year after I owned it. I'm glad you came through my site though and happy to meet another M&T lover :) Serenity K-La don't worry about it! :) We're all busy! Stop and say hi when you can! *HUG* But PLEASE tell me what's NEW :D
I'm off now to go talk to my Ricky. Night everyone!
- Nishi 
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Monday, June 9, 2003
09:36 a.m.
Updated at 10:00 p.m. WAY BELOW :)
Updated at 2:30pm BELOW
If I lose motivation or become complacent and comfortable and get lazy in my desire to move on from insurance defense - all I need to remind me is waking up every morning and that horrible "oh god I don't want to get up and go to work" thought. It runs through my head every morning and all I can think about after that is "look fwd to saturday when you can sleep in late."
*note I am speaking to myself here* NISHI!!! MAKE SURE YOU MAKE SOMETHING OF YOURSELF AND USE THE TALENTS GOD BLESSED YOU WITH TO ACHIEVE YOUR DREAMS because you are unhappy working for other people and the STRESS of getting up in the mornings to work for something you don't care about. REMEMBER how you want to wake up at 7:30-9am, start your morning slowly, and be able to sit down inside or outside or travel to a library or a park to write...create...read and plan...REMEMBER how you need and want freedom to learn and grow. REMEMBER how you want to work for something meaningful - something that EFFECTS CHANGE. REMEMBER human rights and policy. REMEMBER HOW YOU WANT TO SING AND RECORD YOUR SONGS!!! DO NOT ignore your creative side, your need to sing and write and draw. REMEMBER ALL OF THIS every day.
If I don't keep reminding myself of this every day, every moment I get, with this journal, I'll be lazy and complacent and won't do anything about my situation I'm unhappy in.
Ok END NOTE.
Caroline OH MY GOD I am SOOOOOOOO glad you understand!! I thought I was alone on feeling so annoyed by the beginning of Finding Nemo and Doreen. YAAAY I'm not abnormal ;) hahahaha my sisters and shelly all thought it was so great. It WAS great and FUNNY but just not the beginning. Anywayz, *HUG* and Miyu-chan you're the only Miyu I like :) It's ok if I don't like the Miyu series so much, I think the art is gorgeous and I adore Larva :) AIIISSHAAA lord it's been long! How is your band and everything? I wish I could seeyou guys perform! My boyfriend, although he's from Singapore, doesn't want me to come visiting with him to Singapore. HMPH. FINE I'll go by myself and meet up with you! :D
It's another gray, dismal, and probably rainy day here in New York. And it's a Monday too. *sigh* WHEN will the weather improve and BE SUMMER-like every day???? We got like ONE nice day last week.
Sunny los angeles with your beaches and waters......I'll be there in 3 weeks. JUST 3 WEEKS and at Anime EXPO too!!
GOAL - work on my novel all 3 weeks before L.A......I submitted one story last weekend which I got an email back saying they were considering using it in their publication but it had to be approved. So I'm crossing my fingers. I might get money for it! :) MUST GET PUBLISHED!
Must start the work day now. *sigh* bye everyone. I'll update throughout the day and tonight.
Updated at 2:30pm
I just got back from my lunch hour break - I went to try and get a technician to fix my sprint phone cause of all the dropped calls but their line was a mile long! I'll come back tomorrow morning. I found the most DELICIOUS-pizza making place on 42nd and 6th avenue called Presto's or Pronto's..mmm right by Bryant Park. I talked on the phone with Ricky while I people-watched, wanting to dream up stories of the people that I saw. I HAVE to make my dreams come true so I can do things like walk around the city and sit at Bryant Park and write and hang out!
My friends from law school, Nitz, Pete, and Robin are taking bar exam review courses in the city. I have to contact them and try to get together with them for lunch during the weekdays! It would make the day so much happier for me!
I won these Marmalade Boy plush dolls - big and small ones and also this Miki and Yuu model kit! I'm so excited! I'll put up pictures of them tonight from home! Ok I have 2.5 hours before I go home! See ya guys later!
Updated at 10:00 p.m.
10p.m. - this is my bed time now cause of work. But I stayed up just to write. The day became so beautiful - bright and sunny and warm - I went to Duane Reade for munchies at 3:30 and WISHED I was back in college or law school when class was over at 2:40 and I'd head to the city to shop for fun and hang out at 3:30 ;)
I aqcuired the following 2 ADORABLE Marmalade Boy plushies sets! The first is a KIT with one doll unused and 5 already completed :D It's just like in the anime where Miki gives Yuu the present of them two all plush-like :D The second is of actual plush dolls of Meiko, Miki, Yuu, the robot and Katchan/kappachan and big dolls of yuu and meiko. Just need Miki now!
I came home a little after 7pm and washed dishes, then had rice with delicious tomato curry and then watched Relic Hunter and then showered....and here I am. Short night. The nights and weekends go by too fast and I spend the days looking at the clock to get work over with. HOw do people do this all their lives? Working 9-5 - at least when it's not really something they want to do with their lives. Sheesh.
I need to go blow dry my hair and go talk to my ricky. Good night everyone! Miyu-chan you think there's a Larva fan listing? ;) Should take a hint from Danielle (queen of fanlists) and make one before she does ;) LOL! I love D-chan! :)
- Nishi
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Sunday, June 8, 2003
12:59 p.m.
Updated at 7:30pm BELOW
I just got back from HKT this anime store in the South Hills Mall in Wappingers/Poughkeepsie. In the past they had a ton of Sailor Moon plush dolls and lots of Rayearth plushies but today barely any :( I didn't buy anything. On the way back on 84East I hit 100mph :) I didn't even FEEL like it was 100 cause the highway was so wide and empty and no cops! WOO HOO :D hahahaha
I went shopping at the mall yesterday with Mekha and Shelly and we had fun! I got a makeover at the Estee Lauder counter and FINALLY I FOUND THE PERFECT FOUNDATION and make up for me! My foundation is COPPER, and I got a lip liner in mocha and a lip gloss in PRALINE, and eye shadows in soft pinks and an eyeliner in plum wood :) The lady who helped me - I'm going to contact whenever I need special make up done - her name was Lucy! I was just testing the Estee Lauder perfumes - I think I like Tuscany and Beautiful perfumes and will buy some - when I asked if I could have a make over - it was FUN :D
I bought this gorgeous black dress-jacket from EXPRESS - original price $128 but I got it for $51 with tax :) YAAY! Finally a nice jacket/blazer to wear with my pants to court! It looks amazing and was the last size 1/2 left. WHEW. Hit Weathervane and picked up some great pieces and then got the most expensive chocolate shake I'll never buy again from the smoothie store at the mall.
Finally came back home and watched RELIC HUNTER! :) The show's basis in ancient studies reminded me about researching the AZTEC EMPIRE for my book.
I had searched firms practicing International Law last night and while talking to Ricky realized I'm better off searching for firms practicing Employment Discrimination Law and/or Civil Rights because although I love international law and int'l affairs, the firms practicing "int'l law" are focusing on corporations and practice internationally for things like immigration, customs, and other stuff I'm not interested in. If my MAIN GOAL is Human Rights and Policy, AND to be happy working at a law firm with material I'm interested in RIGHT NOW, then that's best achieved by employment discrimination and civil rights. The cases I've worked on so far with one of the attorneys at my current firm - he does employment discrimination cases - and I REALLY liked it! The cases were interesting and not the same old boring insurance defense litigation stuff of autombile accidents, trip and falls, and premise liability. BLECH! I've so far worked on age discrimination, race discrimination, and sexual harassment cases under this senior attorney! WAY more interesting!
I had spoken to him about working ONLY under him but he said it probably wouldn't go over so well with everyone else but he'd see what he could do :) Either way, I'm going to search for employment law firms or civil rights firms this week or next weekend!
I'm going to still pursue international law and human rights by now having joined the City Bar Association of New York. I'm joining their human rights committees and Council of International Affairs. They do cool things like host this HUGE dinner banquet for the legal representatives of the member states of the United Nations!
Ailinon-chan *HUG* :) I sometimes like dark and gothic things too...I LOVED Vampire Hunter D and Buffy and such things, but Vampire Princess Miyu lacked any hope in my eyes...and contained so much suffering and death....it wasn't enjoyable but I DO like Rice's vampire novels! :) Janeen-chan!! *HUG* Marmalade Boy 7 is GREAT! I'm so ad it's ending at volume 8 though :( Karen Pitas is a free diary service. Just go to www.pitas.com and set it up. :) Bart thanks!! :) Seraph Thank you :) I'm hoping for that too! What about you? Where are you going to start preacticing? Jenny you can get the marmalade boy dvds on ebay or amazon.com :) Emelda I don't mind....but I really rather only people I know or have gotten to know link my journal as I post such private things. Bookmark it instead please. I know people find this journal through search engines which I can do nothing about now, but would rather people only find my journal through firend's pages.
We're going to see Finding Nemo I think today :) Maybe go to this new Japanese restaurant called Izumi that opened up this past month. Maybe. I heard you have to have reservations. UGH.
Updated at 7:30pm BELOW
My sisters and Shelly and I all went to a chinese restaurant for lunch this afternoon and afterwards saw Finding Nemo. I am probably one of the very few people in the U.S. who thought it was SUCH an annoying movie in the beginning. That Doreen character and everything in I'd say the first 30 minutes ANNOYED ME LIKE CRAZY! Was it the way they talked? The slowness of the material, the movie, the talking? I don't KNOW....I was just seriously annoyed. Overall though, it was a good movie. Everybody clapped at the end. Too many kids in the audience making noise though :) I didn't know I'd be so annoyed with the movie or the characters - definitely not worth the $17 I coughed up for most of us. I loved Monsters Inc. though! :D
We went to Friendly's for ice cream afterwards (think hot apple pie with ice cream and a huge chocolate sundae! We just came home a little while ago. I'm catching up on news now. I'm sad cause the weekend is over. It's always over just like that. Sunday night comes too fast. I really, REALLY have to make my dreams come true if I want to be happy the way I wish - which is to have each day free to do as I please - sing, work on cases if I want (rarely ;)), write stories and work on my books and write articles (political and social commentary and legal articles), and also work on my anime/manga websites.....
I worked out a whole 2-column thingie on what I want to be happy in life and how to achieve it. I'm gonna carry it with me everywhere so I always have it to look at and make sure I'm moving in that direction. I'm off now. See ya guys later! Ailinon-chan are you interested in Vampire Princess Miyu cels or merchandise? I see stuff for it all the time on Yahoo! Japan and Ebay auctions!
- Nishi
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Friday, June 6, 2003
11:00 p.m.
guess what!!!!!!!!!! I'M GOING TO ANIME EXPO!!!!!!!!! It's in Anaheim, California and on the week/weekend that I visit RICKY! I'm going for the 1st real day when the dealer's room opens on the 3rd! I spoke to my friend Tracey of PrincessSerenity.net and she told me about it and we're going to get together there! I hope Ricky will come!
It's my first anime con! I can't wait!! DEALER's ROOM! LOTS of RARE GOODIES! YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :)
Miyu-chan - I hate Vampire Princess Miyu manga. It is freaking depressing and so twisted and dark I can't stand it. It made me cry when learning how Miyu became a vampire and the other stories...people just losing lives pointlessly....ugh! I didn't like the anime - first 4 eps I watched at ALL but hoped the manga was better - for me, it isn't a fave. But the ART is beautiful! :)
I'm disappointed with LaLa and HanaToYume. No Fruits basket in HanaToYume but I got GORGEOUS stickers of Tohru and Yuki and kyo :) And LaLa had LAST month's issue of Kare Kano! At least I got to see Arima's dad Reji!
What the HECK is going on with Full Moon wo Sagashite and Max Lovely???
Today I went to Bronx SUpreme Court on a Petition to Stay Arbitration and a Status COnference. Met nice people. My adversary in the Status COnference was cool :) He only got admitted in January and graduated last year from New York Law school :) Before that I was talking to this old guy who seemed to not be happy with all the women entering law schools and colleges and stuff. Talked about how he aged after getting married and that after his divorce, decided he woulda been better off marrying a nice indian girl like me! Umm....err....yah....ANYWAY - I went to pick up one of the paralegals something for his birthday tomorrow and stopped into a Hallmark and this guy tried to hit on me.
Guess what witty, inventive line he used?
HIM: "Hi. DO you know if they sell a 'I Just Fell in Love with You' card?"
ME: Umm...no I don't know if they make that
HIM: How about a 'I just fell in love with you and want your name and number' card?
ME: No they don't sell that
HIM: How about a "I saw you shopping and fell in love with you and want your name and number" card.
ME: THEY DEFINITELY DON"T SELL THAT CARD!!!!!!!!!!
I then walked away, bought my freaking happy birthday card and when I tried to leave, the BOZO was outside. "Can I get your name and number?" I looked at him squarely and said NO and walked on.
I think it was cause I wore a skirt today. Jeez.
I spent the evening helping mummy cut up pork and washing dishes so I could have Saturday free to do my stuff. It's almost 11pm now. YIKES.
The paralegal loved my present - I got him a leather journal - freaking expensive from Hallmark. Wish I had gone to Barnes and Noble!
Anyway! I'm off to sleep! Night everyone!!!!!!!!
- Nishi
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Thursday, June 5, 2003
09:57 a.m.
Updated from this morning's entry at 9:57am at 3:00pm EST BELOW
morning everyone. I wish I coulda journaled yesterday cause I wrote a lot of stuff in my yellow legal pad on the train so instead I'm copying it all here.
yesterday morning as I got ready to leave home, I looked at my bedroom - I'd spent 5 minutes tidying it up for Papa in case people came to the see the house who wanted to buy it. I saw my little bookshelf with my KODOCHA books in it - my room looked so inviting and the thought of curling up on my bed and relaxing reading Kodocha just CALLED me so MUCH! I ached to have the freedom again to wake up and stay in bed and do whatever I wanted. On the weekends, I can't seem to relax cause Saturday and Sunday are the only days I have to get everything done which I can't on weekdays, i.e. run errands, post office, groceries, shop, family & social obligations, cleaning bathrooms, mopping, washing cars and other chores, plus going to church on sunday morning and getting up at 6:30am to do so. So my weekends aren't really mine unless I can plan in advance to have them free (which only happens when I go to L.A. to be with Ricky).
The thought of relaxing yesterday morning - a rainy morning in New York...in my bed with Kodocha....*sigh*.......then at the train station, the rain was falling lightly and reminded me of the day RIcky and I went to the Guggenheim on the train. I missed Ricky and wished I could be free - free to stay home, to see him, to go out places, to write, to sing, to work at something I loved and enjoyed. I want...I NEED to be free. No one calling on my time except me. I don't want to work - esp. not at insurance defense. It'd be different it was writing for a cause or working for international law, human rights, and peace policy.....to be free to do all this...I need to be rich....to be rich...I need to be successful. I can be a success using my talents and education.
Simone at work gave me copyright information yesterday on how to copyright my writings and songs. That got me excited to submit my works. TO DO: (1) Work on novel (2) meet with Neil to record songs
One thing I realized while writing yesterday. The real world I'm in now - with its lawyers, cases, trips & falls, autombile accidents, its motions and arguments - this is not the world for me and not something I want to face every day. I'm a girl who loves fantasy, who loves to dream. I'm a girl who's still glued to anime and cartoons and shows like Relic Hunter and Xena. I want to get back to my simplistic, child-like days when I was free - to dream, to grow, to learn. As an adult, you become so bogged down by responsibilities, you lose the opportunities or even the ability to dream, grow, and be free. I REFUSE to let that happen to me! On my part, I will work for human rights and international peace, but I refuse to give up on the freedom of days to myself to dream, write, learn, sing, and grow. I NEED THAT. Without that, I'd be miserable.
I gotta work now. See you guys later.
Updated at 3:00pm EST BELOW
I just got back from my lunch break. I went to Tiffany's at 56th Street and 5th to pick up my silver bracelet Ricky had given me for our 3 month anniversary 2 years ago. The clasp had broke. I felt like Reese Witherspoon in Sweet Home Alabama when I stepped into Tiffany's yesterday and again today and stood in that entrance with all those glass cases with shining jewelery! :D hahahaa :D
Afterwards, I rushed to Kinokuniya's by Rockefellar Plaza and picked up HanaToYume for Fruits Basket and LaLa for Kare Kano and Ribon for Full Moon wo Sagashite and Max Lovely. And ALSO GOT MARMALADE BOY #7 and Vampire Princess Miyu - ORIGINS! I'm going to have fun reading manga :)
The sun FINALLY came out and I'm overheated from wearing a sweater. While I was out there I kept thinking how soon, months, maybe a year or two from now, I wouldn't need to be in the city to work. I'd be able to visit whenever I want and be like all the other visitors and city dwellers - shopping on 5th...and traveling all over the city for fun! :) heheh I'll make it come true! I need to get back to work now. See ya guys later!
- Nishi
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Tuesday, June 3, 2003
12:39 p.m.
Updated at 8:30 pm EST BELOW
I went to the Bronx Civil Court this morning. Got off at Harlem 125th street and I can't believe that's supposed to be a bad neighborhood - people look so friendly and it's full of life. I took the subway up to 161st Street/Yankee Stadium and found the Court....I was early - 9am - supposed to start 9:30...and I waited an hour and 15 minutes before the judge called cases - this guy didn't start until 10:15!
The highlight of the morning was seeing my friend Peter from Law School :) He is also doing insurance defense litigation and, like me, doesn't think it's all that great. It was so nice to see a familiar face. I felt that same way when I saw my cousin Mat (Juni Chati) yesterday morning on the subway on the way to QUeens Supreme Court.
I argued my motion to vacate the plaintiff's notice of trial on the grounds that discovery wasn't complete and we still needed depositions and the motion was granted but only to the extent that we were made a party to a stipulation saying that defendant would be produced 90 days before trial which is stupid. Whatever. We went to a status conference after that.
After court, I gave some change to a homeless man and walked back to the subway. It is FIRM in my mind that I DO NOT want to be an attorney who has to go to court every morning and deal heavily with motion practice. I don't like arguing cases, although I do a pretty good job. *sigh* I saw the court attorneys working there...they'd address me as counsel...felt good :) But I'd rather be in their position. Cushy job - 9-5...show up at 9:30....all holidays off, no working late, tons of gov't benefits.
Tonight I'm going to research firms which practice in international law or who focus on civil and human rights, and also look up every court I want to work at. I'll prepare my resumes and cover letters then later this week to send out on Saturday.
I decided that as much as I want to write full-time, I'm better of making money now as an attorney and continue writing on the side till I make a name for myself and don't have to work at law.
I'm still going to send resumes and writing samples to magazines and newspapers I'd want to write for but all I'm going to seek is a freelance or part-time staff writer position.
It's going to take hard work to make my dreams of success in singing and writing come true but I'll do it.
This is one girl who's definitely going to go beyond just law.
Updated at 8:30 pm EST BELOW
I looked up firms in New York who say they practice international law and found 500 law firms. I've got to narrow that down to just the counties I want to work in. Not all are really international law - some are int'l business or trade. Not interested in that. I'm so exhausted though (keep falling asleep on the train too) that I just can't go through it all tonight. I'll leave the search to Friday or Saturday.
I finally own a Marmalade Boy poster and 2 Kare Kano manga posters! :) I got these from auctions in Japan. Also bought another Serenity and Endymion poster and the 2 GORGEOUS manga posters below from Sailor Moon.
 
 
Very happy to add these to my poster collections :)
- Nishi
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Monday, June 2, 2003
12:04 p.m. EST
Updated at 8:06 pm EST - BELOW
Updated at 2:40 pm EST - BELOW
I just got back from a morning at the Queens Supreme Court. I hate going to court every day sometimes for 2 or 3 appearances, sometimes court in the mornng and afternoon, sometimes late in the evening at 6:30. THIS SUCKS. And I come back to nothing but motions and tons of paper work.
Do you guys know what exactly a lawyer like I am has to do? I get up at 6/6:30am and leave the house by 7:05am to catch a train that arrives at Grand Central Terminal at 8:51 and from there catch a subway uptown, transfer to another subway uptown to Queens, and after a LONG ride, arrive at Queens Supreme where I wait around yelling out my case's name amidst a BUNCH of other attorneys also yelling out their case names - it's a wonder how anyone can find anyone in this mess of a system.
FInally after half an hour, I find my adversary and we do the preliminary conference order, submit it, and WHOOSH I'm out at 10:41am and back on the subway. I don't get back into the city till 11:30 and call up my baby Ricky and vent to him how I hate practicing as an attorney in this type of practice and arrive at work at 11:43 and here I am venting away in my journal.
I now have an entire afternoon and evening's worth of work in front of me - motions to draft, motions to be sent out, AND I get the lovely job of appearing for 2 things at the BRONX Civil Court TOMORROW morning exactly at 9:30 which means I have to leave the house VERY early to make it there by 9:30. *SIGH*
This is not what I wanted when I dreamed of being a lawyer. Not at all.
I had no idea what it meant to be a lawyer.
Just blindly decided and didn't do any further research into the field. Did law school, thought I liked it, thought practicing law would be similar to what we learned about - it's not.
I would've been better off doing investigative work as a newspaper or magazine journalist. The investigative stuff is what I was intrigued about in law.
I wonder if it's too late to go into investigative journalism.
Investigative journalism, international law, human rights, policy research and analysis, music, writing......how can I do all this? The stuff I REALLY want to? GOD I wish someone could lead me down the right path.
See ya guys later. And ShahRukh good luck with the business :) I hope I find my niche as you did.
Updated at 2:40 pm EST
I spoke to a friend here at work and she suggested I pursue law once more - give it one more try - but in another field like international law or employment discrimination or human rights......trouble is...how to find jobs like that at a law firm....she also said I would probably be better of in a research and analysis position - like that with a judge or at a corporate firm (corp law is NOT something I'd like) but there are jobs which do 9-5 research. Still.....I don't know if I'd be happy doing legal research 5 days a week....I'd have to try and find out....and if I hate it, then I know I have to be working for an organization doing writing and research work on strictly the topics I love - human rights and int'l law. We'll see.....
Updated at 8:06 pm EST - BELOW
I looked up a bunch of jobs for attorney positions with heavy research and writing and looked up jobs at Time and Turner and other places. Lydia true...there's no way to know if investigative journalism will be exactly what I hope it is but I'd rather try that than keep living with law practice and being unhappy in it. I know I want to write and I know I have the talent, education and skill for it.
I'm going to pour over the stuff I printed out and see what I can send resumes for. I booked my flight to L.A. - I leave Thurs, June 26th and come back early Monday July 7th morning. A Week in LA! WHEEEEEEEEE :D
- Nishi
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Sunday, June 1, 2003
02:36 p.m.
I just finished ordering the following books from Amazon.com all about writing. My friend Danielle/D-Chan had me write her friend Charise/Momoka who then contacted me and gave me GREAT advice on writing :) She recommended the books below and I found the legal books on my own :)
- The Career Novelist : A Literary Agent Offers Strategies for Success Donald Maass; $11.17
- The Writer's Legal Companion: The Complete Handbook for the Working Writer Brad Bunnin; $14.00
- Negotiating a Book Contract: A Guide for Authors, Agents and Lawyers Mark L. Levine; $10.36
- The Forest for the Trees: An Editor's Advice to Writers Betsy Lerner; $10.40
- 2003 Guide to Literary Agents: 600+ Agents Who Sell What You Write (Guide to Literary Agents, 2003) Rachel Vater; $16.79
She gave me great advice in that to always think of myself as a writer and that would get me through everything :)
Miyu-chan and Rachel ok ok I'll make the boutique/store only for 5ft 5" and below! :) And only shoes size 5 to 6.5! HMPH! Everybody else can go to big-people's stores! and Miyu-chan I love that truck!
I'm going to Manisha's bday party today! I have to go shower and get ready. I worked for a little bit on my novel last night. Sunday....I can't seem to enjoy this Sunday cause I have work tomorrow! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I saw 2 Week's Notice last night and it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO good! I laughed and cried! GREAT MOVIE - GO RENT IT! :)
See ya guys later.
- Nishi
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Saturday, May 31, 2003
8:15 p.m.
mmm homeeeeeeeeee.....it's my off dayyyyyy :) I'm listening to 3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone and eating chappati with my mom's pork stir-fry curry and a tall cold glass of Pepsi. I spent the morning cleaning and by the time I left I couldn't catch the post office. *sigh* I have stuff waiting to be mailed out and it keeps being pushed to the next weekend. I am GETTING this stuff mailed out next Saturday!!! I hit the mall and went shopping for shoes - it's next to impossible to find shoes at department stores and boutiques in size 5 and 5 1/2. If I knew anything about shoes I'd open a little people's boutique! Nothing but shoes and clothes for short people! Nobody over 5 ft 4 enter! I finally found a pair of black shoes to wear with my suit pants and bought a new skirt-suit in this very dark navy blue. I look so professional it scared me ;) Funny, I don't want to dress up in suits anymore - it's associated with work I don't enjoy. ARGH. ANYWAYZ, I got my new Marmalade Boy Cel of Miki from Episode 1 below and the seller ALSO included a neat cel of YUU!! I gotta figure out which episode this is from!! I'll take a snap of it soon and post it here. If anyone has the cel of Yuu sitting down and eating at that 1st dinner where he and Miki meet, please consider selling it to me? :D I swear, it's my collecting, anime, and tv hobbies that keep me happy throughout stressful times.
I rented 2 Week's Notice with Sandra Bullock and am going to watch it tonight. My sisters are gone to Long Island for Mekha to rehearse for this Indian dance thing taking place next January. We're going to my little cousin Manisha's birthday party tomorrow afternoon/evening. She's turning 4 so in I bought her a BARBIE DOLL :) It's the "Enchanting Entrance" Barbie. Hope she likes. It's gorgeous!
Seraph *HUGGGGGGGGG* I am SOOOO happy you passed the bar! CONGRATS!!! It should take anywhere from 2-4 months depending on what department you're getting admitted through and how quick or slow the people you send affidavits to are in filling it out and mailing it back to you. It took me about a month to get everything together and then it still got delayed cause one of my employers had provided my moral affidavit and the rep from the committee said they couldn't take that so I had to get someone else. But all in all it went fine. Hope you enjoy the practice more than I do!
Callie and Rachel thank you both! My dad had complaints of chest pains before but it's cause he has a clogged artery. He's being treated though and is on medication.....we hope he'll stay fine and that it doesn't come down to surgery.
Saturday's over now....*sigh* I slept till 9am today....god it felt great.......cleaned my room, washed dishes, tidied the house....I go to court in Queens on Monday and then court in the Bronx on Tuesday. And for now, W-F looks ok but who knows, once the work week starts, they start sending you out to court with only 24 hours notice. I hope I find another job.
Good night everyone. *HUGS*
- Nishi
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Friday, May 30, 2003
4:00 p.m.
I hate what I do. I hate what I do. I hate what I do. I'm working on another Reply Affirmation (foreign term to you guys but don't worry about it) and just finished one this morning. Oy veh. I have a preliminary conference to go to at the Queens Supreme Court on Monday and I went to turn in a stipulation at the Kings Supreme in Brooklyn this morning. It's started - my days of running around to courts and coming back to lots of paper work that has to go out. Oy oy OY veh.
One of my friends when I said oy veh asked me if I was jewish ;) hahahaha - I dunno where I picked up that expression but it suits me sometimes.
The front receptionist and I talk a lot about our goals and dreams and how what we do now (she receptionist and me attorney) is all just temporary - something to do now while we travel on our road to bigger and better dreams and success.
arrgghhhhhh - it's only 4pm!! *sigh* Back to work. I hope I can get out by 5pm.
- Nishi
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Thursday, May 29, 2003
09:35 a.m.
Updated BELOW Periodicially
GOOD NEWS: I got admitted to the New York State Bar yesterday! BAD NEWS: My dad had a cardiac catheter done on Monday and had been in the hospital - he's fine now - he had some chest pain - but because of that procedure (puts a probe thing in through his thigh's artery into your heart) he can't walk around outside or climb up and down stairs so he's homebound for a few days. Mummy stayed with him so they couldn't come to my admittance :(
Nithi was at UCONN, so Mekha and Mili and I drove to Brooklyn and they attended my admittance. It was a nice ceremony and afterwards, we went to lunch at Nyonya's in soho/little italy. Even though it was my day, I spent for everything ;) My wallet's got a hole in it I think!
I fell asleep on the train this morning - so gosh darn tired and when I woke up the sun was on my face and I thought I was in L.A.
My heart just turned inside me and I wished SO HARD that I could be in L.A. with Ricky. I'm so happy there with him.
I came in to work and you should see my desk - it had LOTS of files.....I have a rush motion that has to go out by tomorrow, 1 brand new file to do work on, and another new one I got on Tuesday.
More and more each day I am wondering if I'm really meant to be practicing as an attorney at law - esp. at ins. def. litigation......this probably is NOT where I should be. I'd rather be stepping out of grand central terminal to go submit a manuscript of something I've written, or to be meeting people for work and discussions on something complicated we're trying to accomplish - that MEANS something to me....
*sigh* all I can do is pray to God and hang on for now.
Must get to work now. I can't wait to get home tonight. Hope I can still leave at 5pm and be home by 7:15.....with this motion having to go out though....I worry I may not get home till 8 or 9pm tonight. I'm going to quickly hate this work lifestyle.
Being admitted as an attorney to the New York Bar means nothing if you're unable to do what you love with law - in my case - research and/or policy work for international law, human rights and/or environmental issues - heck even trusts and estates!
UPDATED AT: 10:33 a.m. EST
I'm going to frequently update throughout today just to keep some level of sanity. I phoned the former Surrogate's Court Judge I interned for a few summers ago. Going to ask him about the Judge I am applying to work for at that court attorney position. He's going to call me back hopefully.
I hate what I do. I hate what I do. This is mindless crappy work that I can't believe I went through 3 years of law, the bar exam, and got admitted yesterday for. I love this firm but I want a career in writing, singing, and human rights/int'l law. And the only thing keeping me going right now is repeating those statements every day in this journal until I make it come true and looking forward to trips to see Ricky in L.A.
Updated 2:23pm EST
Oh god, so many new files....and I go to court tomorrow morning...so much to get done today...so MUCH....oh I don't like this. Definitely don't like this. Got a call from Ricky which brightened my day and Patrick, a senior associate in this office who was a Judge and so many other cool things, brought me yellow roses in congratulations of getting admitted.
- Nishi
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Tuesday, May 27, 2003
07:28 a.m.
I'm back from L.A. and sitting in my office. My stupid cabby I usually use was a half hour late this morning picking me up from Jet Blue and THEN also doesn't GET it when I tell him where I need to be dropped off and takes me all the way to the West Side of Manhattan. Idiot. I still wound up tipping him even though I didn't want to because I had 2 $20 bills and no change.
I love Ricky and L.A. so so so so much. I am missing it like crazy right now. Next to me on the flight was this guy who had a boyfriend in L.A. too. He was telling me how he sees his bf every weekend or every other weekend. I came in on a red-eye flight and it arrived at 5:40am. My stomach feels all queasy and I dunno why.
Ricky and I went to Universal Studios Hollywood yesterday all day. We rode on every ride - the Jurassic Park one was so much fun and we got our picture printed out from the ride :) I'm hanging on for dear life to the handrail and Ricky's got his mouth wide open yelling happily :) He and I got SOAKED at this "super blast" or something like that water thing at the Nickelodeon part of the theme park. We wound up having to buy new clothes - expensive!! I ate for the first time at the HARD ROCK CAFE!! I love their drink "Blue Hawaiian" and their Jumbo Combo appetizer is awesome.
I'm going to go back to see Ricky end of June - June 27th through the 4th of July weekend. If I can't do it then then I'll go end of July for this Birthday on Aug 1. Maybe I'll go both! It'll be so great to spend a week there with him.
Saturday we spent the day in Santa Monica - we saw MATRIX RELOADED - I LOVED IT. Can't wait for the 3rd movie! Sunday we spent the day driving in Malibu - GOD - the hills, the ocean........I dunno why I ever loved NY or NYC so much anymore. When we drove through the hills and stood on the cliffs overlooking the ocean, Ricky kept saying "What did you say about NY again?" and I was like "New York? What's New York?" ;)
L.A....Southern California is the place for me...it's got everything....the warm sun year-round, the mountains, the hills, the beach and ocean, skiing, EVERYTHING. NYC may have the "city" and that pumping beat life thing but it's not everything to me anymore. I'll love NYC always but I've fallen in love with Southern CA more and I've been feeling this way more and more for 2 years now.
On Saturday also we spent the night driving through L.A.'s Sunset Blvd. with Ricky's friend Ab. HI AB!! And Ab's MOM! :) I found out Ab learned about my journal and even showed his mom!! He told me how easy it is to find this through google and it comes up like the 2nd entry on so many search words. Lord. I saw Mann's Chinese Theatre - next time I wanna see this stuff up close. Saw the Hollywood WALK OF FAME! Sunday night we drove to AB's home in Anaheim which is so pretty and peaceful and we watched "Catch Me if You Can" and his mom made us DELICIOUS Indian food. Nothing like home-cooked Indian food! I felt bad because I couldn't eat everything - I was full from a Jamba Juice and an earlier meal - Ab's mom made us "Jaat" (I think that's how you spell it) and because Ricky and I are south indian, made us "idly and sambar" and chutney. How sweet is she? :) It was so nice.
I'm working on another motion for summary judgment. My feeling about work hasn't changed. In fact, while we were in Malibu, Ricky and I were at this park and we laid on the ground looking up at the sky and it was so freakin' peaceful - kids were playing....Pepperdine University was right across the roadway...Malibu Beach just right on the other side...Santa Monica just 5 minutes away. I stood looking at the sky wondering why I spent so long studying law to be working at insurance defense. It's not even remotely related to international law........my goal now is to become a successful writer and singer/songwriter and also go into international law and political/social commentary.
I get admitted to the New York State Bar tomorrow (wednesday) - later this week, I'm going to start my membership at the City Bar Association of New York and join their international law and human rights committees. As much as I like this firm and the partners and the people in it, the practice of insurance defense is making me unhappy and I'll need to leave it soon.
One thing I've always known - don't stay in an unhappy situation/job if you can do better. I'm here cause I need money and experience. But I can do better now. I won't settle.
Ricky I miss you. I love you so freaking much. I'm so happy I'm with you. SO many things changed in my life in the past 3 years. I thought things had been so awful at one point but here I am with someone I love so much and my life filled with inspiration to better myself and everything around me. I'm going to make my dreams come true....I'm going to sing....I'm going to write....I'm going to get into an area of law I love. I'm going to be happy.
- Nishi
P.S. And I'm going to go home early cause I feel dizzy from barely any sleep and working on this motion is making my eyes swim. LOL! :)
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Saturday, May 24, 2003
02:01 p.m. PST
I'm in L.A.!!!!!! The flight was great last night - left the pouring rain and muddled traffic of NYC behind. On the plane I sat next to this older gentleman named Jeff who's from Garden Grove, California and was visiting Rochester, New York. Turned out he wrote and had recorded music and written his own material and done a lot of music work when he was young.
I showed him my music book with my songs and he liked the music a lot and said I was talented. However, he drew a lot of wrong conclusions about me from the lyrics I wrote. He thought that there was a lot of stuff I wasn't admitting to myself and I was like, huh? Some of the music was written based on a break up from my first love and some from my current relationship with Ricky, and yet others aren't even about me at all but me writing and expressing emotions I'm inspired by in anime or from things I hear and see and decide to make a song out of. Some of the lyrics were dark and were written in a 1st person since I'd be singing them but they weren't about me!! And he thought it was! He thought I was denying it to myself. Is this what people are going to think if these songs ever become published and known? Will they all misinterpret my songs and draw illogical conclusions? He was even saying stuff like maybe it's cultural and I couldn't talk to my parents - and I was like HUH??? My folks know how sensitive I am and we're so close and I talk to them about everything. He thinks artists shouldn't care how the audience interprets the meaning of songs but I do care! If people are trying to understand me and the songs they should listen to what I say. If I say "no that song doesn't mean I have emotional problems" don't say back "yes it does." I wrote that as pure fiction! Good lord! It bugs me when people act like they know what a person is all about just cause they read their works or listen to their songs. It's even like this with these blogs/journals online these days. People read a journal like mine and think they KNOW me based on what I *choose* to write and express. You don't know what else is in my head or that maybe I'm thinking the opposite of what I write or that I haven't finished what was on my mind. People need to chill when they listen to or read other people's things. Just take it for what it is and listen to the author/artist when he/she explains it. /end vent! :)
Anywayz, I hope you're all well!! Adrianne *HUG* thank you! And Good luck with yours!!!!!
I'm out!
- Nishi
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Thursday, May 22, 2003
09:50 p.m.
I'm all packed for L.A. (almost). Need to wash the dishes for my folks and then go to sleep.
I went to my first real preliminary conference and compliance conference at the Supreme Court in Brooklyn and saw where I'll be getting admitted next Wednesday. The area is so pretty - it's right there in Brooklyn Heights! I saw an acquaintance from law school, Pat, in the court room today - he'd been working as an attorney in medical mal practice for a while now in Long Island and he likes it but told me the going to court part gets old real fast ;) hahaa :)
I didn't mind going to court but I can predict how taxing it must be to be in court every morning or out at EBTs and then come back to SO MUCH motion work to send out. No wonder they're there late and why this has become their life and career.
I don't want law to become my life or career - just a part of it.
It's almost 10pm - must wash dishes and sleep. See you guys from LA!!!!!!! :)
- Nishi
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Wednesday, May 21, 2003
08:40 p.m.
made it through another day of work! Wasn't so bad today - I'm thinking a lot of my unhappiness was magnified because of hormones from my "time of month" - but the truth remains that I don't want to live my life as a practicing attorney in insurance defense litigation - it involves too many court appearances and too much motion work.
I'm going to court tomorrow - Supreme Court in Brooklyn with one of the other associates for some preliminary conferences. It's so I'll get a hang of how to get there so when I'm admitted next wednesday I can start heading out to my own PC's.
I started packing tonight for L.A. - cannot WAIT!
My sisters are all going to Nithi's UCONN for the weekend. :) I'd rather be in L.A.! :) I packed shorts and short-sleeves - weather's supposed to be in the 70's and 80's :) WOO HOO!
We're all watching American Idol now to see if Rueben or Clay wins. I honestly dunno WHO I want to win.
I got my new KODOCHA Book 7 and Kare Kano Book 3 and I LOVE THOSE SERIES SO MUCH!!! Kodocha Book 7 was so freaking good! I still laughed at so many places but was more moved in a lot. Miho Obana is a great author. Kare Kano had me cracking up a lot - I love Miyazwa and Arima - in the latest issues in Japan we get to see Arima's father at long last. I hate his mother - beaattchh!
Anywayz, LISAAAAAAAAAAAAA I left you a voice mail yesterday at lunch! *HUG* I'll try to call you tonight or tomorrow after 9pm EST! ShaRukh yeah Fushgi Yuugi is one of the anime I love most! Miaka and Tamahome are the main pair in that :) Go watch it!!! But watch it subtitled. :) Reena *HUG* thank you :) *big big hug* :) Lady thank you too. I hope so. I desperately hope so!
I got a haircut on my lunch hour today :) Got it all relayered in long layers and angled around my face and the lady did a great job! :) Hair salon right next to my office. Love it :)
Ok I'm off. Night everyone!
- Nishi
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Tuesday, May 20, 2003
01:45 p.m.
Updated 8:40 pm below
HAPPY 2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY RICKY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait to see you this weekend :) Sunny L.A. is the only thing getting me through this week!
I called my friend Neil on my lunch break just now and had a nice time catching up with him. He, too, told me how many people are working at jobs they're unhappy in and pursuing other directions. We're going to talk next week and schedule when to meet on weekends to record my music.
I was praying to God on the train this morning - telling him how I have talents (singing, writing, web designing) but I'm not using any of them at work. And when I got to work I got really angry as I was working on a motion for summary judgment - I was like "This is a waste of my time, talent, and abilities."
I have to do something you guys. I have to. I'm going to be miserable if I stay a lawyer all my life and never make something more meaninful and fullfilling out of myself!
Updated 8:40pm
I just spent the past 20 minutes searching online and found over 29 pages worth of magazines which pay for articles :) I guess that's somewhere to start. I also found this professor's page at Columbia University listing the contact addresses for Newsday and other newspapers in California and New York. Am going to try and send them a resume and writing sample.
It's a huge long shot but it's worth a try. And while I'm at work tomorrow, my little twin sisters are going to go through my employer directory I used to land the current job I have and pick out the law firms practicing trusts and estates so I can re-send out resumes to them. At least with trusts and estates law the hours are generally 9-5 or 9-6 and you're hardly EVER in court.
I'm gonna keep trying and giving it everything I've got. I can't accept the situation as it is and resign myself to coming home late at night and returning to hectic days of court and motions......
- Nishi
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Monday, May 19, 2003
07:56 p.m.
I talked to one of the partners today to make sure about being able to leave at 5pm for my other committments at night and I can do it but it won't be often because law as a career is going to take up a lot of my life M-F....he said something important, decide if law as a career is what you want. We all know the answer to that now - nope - it's not what I want. So tonight I'm starting a job hunt. And I booked the flight to L.A. I'm going to need some fun in the sun before the court appearances etc rack up. I did a search now for "work at home" jobs involving writing.....it's going to be so hard to find such a job....either way, I know I can't work at a job that will take over so much of my life...whether law or anything.....the partner I spoke to is so great.....I wish it wasn't insurance defense litigation...wish it was an easy type of law (like trusts and estates) which wasn't so stressful on deadlines and appearances but then again 90% of law is the stressful kind. So I'm on a new job search. And I'm going to keep working on my book and my music. Something's got to give.
- Nishi
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Monday, May 19, 2003
09:53 a.m.
I really cannot believe how miserable I am.....coming to work today I was just....no other word for it - miserable. I'm trying to understand why and how when all I do right now is come to work in an office and work on motion papers to file in court.....I'm just not happy....maybe it's the office, maybe it's the type of work, maybe it's being far from home, - it's definitely knowing that I'll be going to court a lot and then still having to meet all the motion work.......it's a combination of everything.....
Why did I go to law school? I should've gone to journalism school and went to work for a magazine, journal, or newspaper. I would've been happier writing.
I called my law school to receive their career newsletters again. I've got to do something about my situation before it's too late. I can't sit here on the verge of tears each day and each week and keep being miserable each weekend dreading work the next week.
I'm so thankful for what I have....but at the same time so unhappy.
Miyu-chan I tried Hotwire and on Sunday I could get $487 with it but NO guarantee on what times I would fly and for that much money I can't miss work on Friday nor lose a Saturday to flight time and also Monday to flight time. At least with JetBlue and CheapTickets.com and Expedia, you see what times you can fly. I tried Orbitz too but it was hugely expensive.
Serenity K-la hi :) don't worry about it! Stop in when you can and update me on your life! I hope all is well.
I've got to do something about my own life. When will it all work out?
God only knows.
I'm going to talk to one of the partners today about how I need to leave at 5pm to meet my evening committments this summer, especially when I move to New Rochelle. Gotta work out a way to go to court, and finish all the motion work and still be out in the evenings to attend classes, karate, and tennis and everything else I have planned (writing my book and more)!
God please help!
- Nishi
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Sunday, May 18, 2003
12:38 p.m.
Updated 5pm below
Nith's graduation yesterday was great but boy do I hate grad ceremonies! They're almost always LONG and BORING. But yesterday's speaker was this guy named LES PAYNE who received his doctorate and joked he was now "Dr. Payne" ;) get it? ;) Anywayz, the things he had to say were so hard hitting - best grad speech I ever heard - never to settle on your jobs, leave an unhappy one, in this economy take the less than ideal job until something better comes along. Never stop learning. He said so many great things I wish I had the transcript. This guy was and is a journalist for Newsday for 40+ years and interviewed people like Nelson Mandela and so many other people he rattled off with such familiarity.
Inspirational.
Uh...Beep? I *am* Indian. No maybe's about it. :) Hi from NY, USA! :) Rachel *HUG* you sound like you have a great collection right now! :) Steave thanks! :) and I have cable :) Callie I like Charlie but ur right - her with ross....joey with rachel...ugh ugh ugh! Janeen-chan ok agree with you there - asking Yuu (or telling Yuu in his case) that he's taking Miki - well honorable in at least he's telling him that's what he's going to do but I understood why Yuu would give Miki to Kei - Kei's a good person in Yuu's eyes and Miki needs support and companionship which Yuu can't give from America so in that case, giving Miki up to Kei is the most loving thing he could do - but so so so so so glad when they reuinite :) NOTHING can come between TRUE LOVE :D EEE :D I'm corny.
Today's a beautiful sunny day and I plan to spend it sunning on the deck! I'd wanted to go to SOHO but my sisters and I'll do another weekend. I'm thinking of going to L.A. for Memorial Day weekend! I REALLY wanna have some fun there before I'm admitted to the bar on the 28th and thereafter am always out and about and so busy I may never see the rays of the summer sun this summer. I'll catch you guys later!
Updated 5pm
Well forget L.A. over Memorial Day Weekend....tickets are $600+ for the times best for me. *sigh* so much for fun in the sun on the beaches before I get clobbered with this court and that court appearances. Phooey. $600....jeez....and that's with Jet Blue.....I could get cheaper...like oh....$487 but that's if youbuy it at that price with no guarantee on what time you're flying and I don't want to take any days off from work since i took days off already last month and once this. Maybe I'll save up for a big vacation in July? :) I'll talk to Ricky.
I got this catalogue called VenusSwimwear and I LOVE IT. They have jewelry for $8, pants for $19, tops for anywhere from $12-$22! I bought a few summer things. Also shopped Victoria's Secret and got some sandals for cheap! I need to buy some more professional atire for when I go to court now...more jackets...dresses etc. Oy veh.
Finished eating "Crepelli de Mare" - italian for salmon in crepes with all this shrimp and mussels and other stuff in this yummy creamy sauce. It's leftovers from Nithi's graduation dinner at the "Macaroni Grill" in Hartford, Connecticut we went to yeseterday. I thought what I had was great but everyone else hated what they got! HAHAHA :) Only my family ;)
I'm bummed that the weekend is over...and tomorrow's work again....it's not a good sign when you wake up on Sunday morning depressed cause you have work the next day. Not good at all.
- Nishi
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Friday, May 16, 2003
11:02 p.m.
I'm so sleepy I could fall asleep sitting up. Last night, my little twin sisters were in a tight spot having to check out of their college dorms by Friday at 9pm and no way any of us could get them before 9pm Friday so I wound up driving to Long Island at 8:45pm and not coming home until 12 midnight and Mek and I didn't fall asleep till after 1:30pm and got up at god forsaken hour of 6:30am this morning.
My Ricky graduated today! He called me at work so I could hear his name being called! He graduated from USC at the SHRINE AUDITORIUM in Los Angeles (The Shrine is where they held the OSCARS) and I was so excited for him!
Everyone's home now - other little sister Nithi just made us chicken fajitas - yummyy! We're going for Nithi's graduation tomorrow....my sister is graduating from college! How time flies! Speaking of graduations, SARAH BETH HAPPY GRADUATION ON SUNDAY! Make sure you go h ome soon and get the treat I sent you!!! Make sure your folks don't open it up! :D heheheeh :)
I'm trying to get my twin sisters to come shopping in Soho with me on Sunday - I wanna get bags and jewelery! (I know I'll come home with much more ;)) I got to meet Mekh's ex-boyfriend Bill last night - he's this cute Indian guy - hope sparks fly between them again soon!
Hemal I hate using MSN and barely talk to my closest friends online anymore cause I never have time. Just drop me an email or a msg on this journal :) I still read your journal on weekends so I'm caught up! :)
Janeen holy heck you actually LIKE Kei? BLECH! I didn't think he was honorable! He kept Miki's medallion, lied to her and Yuu, told Yuu Miki didn't want it anymore, basically acted like an ass and only the anime redeemed him and made him grow up but I still can't stand his face! And I REALLY don't get how he just all of a sudden fell in love with Miki. It's as unbelievable as the crazy "feelings" Joey and Rachel have had/are having for each in turn on FRIENDS. BLECH to it all! I didn't like that Miki gave up on Yuu either but when they finally get back, it makes up for everything :) I'm just glad Miki wasn't anything like that in the manga - she's just AWESOME in the manga - love her :)
Rachel I know right? It's so freaking hard to get - I've been after it for 3 years! D-chan :) yeah Guggenheim was great but did you know there're MORE than 1 Guggenheim? I didn't! Come to New York and we'll go!!! EmElda aww thank you! I like your diaryland diary too! :) Jeni wow thank you! *HUGS* I'm really speechless but thankful you feel that way! I hope I can continue to make great pages and inspirational things for you and continue to be an inspiration for both you and myself! :D You be a great inspiration too ok? :)
I'm off to sleep you guys. Good night *HUGGGGGGGGGG*
- Nishi
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Wednesday, May 14, 2003
9:02 p.m.
so much to tell you guys..........on Thurs, Ricky came and I met him at Grand Central and I actually got to ride home with him on the train :) It was sooo nice cause I'd always wished to be with him on the train! It was his first time on a train in the U.S. so it was fun for him :) We went to a diner when we got home and picked up food and watched tv and rested! On Friday, he dropped me to work and met me at work a little before 5pm :) He was all dressed up, as was I, for PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!! :) I introduced him to the partners and all the associates :) It was kind of embarassing introducing your bf to everyone where you work! hahaha :) We then walked along 42nd as we'd wanted to go to this brazilian restaurant called Ipanema but it was empty when we looked in and we'd rather be in a more livelier place, so we walked along and stopped at Times Square where Ricky made a star sighting - he's a CNBC fan and he saw CNBC's van with BERTHA COOMBS(?) hahaha he was star struck ;) Now if only he could've seen CNBC's Maria Barteromo (or whatever he name is) ;)
We found a mexican place somewhere on 44th or 45th and ate to our stomach's content - I got tipsy with a margarita ;) We then went to see PHANTOM! Lemme tell you - 1st half was a dissapointment. I was expecting SO MUCH! It didn't do the book justice and the production just lacked...lacked...everything....certain scenes were great - my favorite "sing to me" song was great. The second half was better but still - overall, this production could've been grander & better written. If this is how the Phanton of the Opera story is told as a musical - it's an insult to the book! Phantom's character is ONE OF MY MOST FAVORITE characters in all fiction! He's so tragic and just wanted and needed love from the beginning.
I found a comic shop on 8th avenue and somewhere in the 40's - Midtown Comics? I forget - they actually had manga comics of Kodocha and Marmalade Boy! :) After Phantom, we went to Grand Central and hung out there - waiting for the train - we tried to explore the terminal's upper levels but they wouldn't let anyone up! HMPH! We didn't get home till after 1am but with Ricky there, I was happy :)
My sister came home with a friend on Friday night so they were still up when we came home. The next morning, Saturday, I took them all for breakfast at this family-owned diner/restaurant I love in our little town, which overlooks the lake here. Yummy beglian waffled with whip cream, strawberries and bananas and maple syrup :) After that, we went hiking in the woods where I showed my sis and her bf the lake and ricky loves hiking ;) We found a beachball and are keeping it on the deck!
I then took Ricky to our new home we're building and that was fun :) He, like me though, thinks our current house/property is better because we're surrounded by woods and everything is peaceful - over there, we're close to the other house next to us and you can hear cars on the roadway. Oh well. We went for ice cream at Carvel and came home and I forget how we all spend Sat evening.
Sunday, we went into the city in the morning and went to the GUGGENHEIM and saw the Cremaster special - weird, abstract art......I didn't get it but ur not supposed to get it....it's abstract...just experience it and think about it.....ok. Afterwards, we went down to Battery Park and walked around for a while before getting frappuchinos from Starbucks and heading to Wall Street and checking out the NY STock Exchange.
Monday RIcky met me for lunch at an Italian place and while I worked, he went and saw the United Nations :) After work, we headed down to Soho for nothing :) and then headed back home where we watched MATRIX - GREAT MOVIE!!! I can't wait to see Matrix 2! We spent the rest of Ricky's time going to see the INTREPID SPACE and AIR MUSEUM and we even rode in one of the SIMULATORS where we got tossed around as we flew! haahhaah coins in ricky's pocket flew out and hit him on the head - we laughed our heads off. Being on the aircraft of the USS INTREPID was great! We saw all of the hudson river from there. After that, we headed back to Battery Park where we missed the very last ferry to Ellis Island and Statute of Libery at 3:30 but caught the 4:15 Harbor Cruise which we saw EVERYTHING! We got pictures of us on the boat in front of the statute and saw the whole NY HARBOR! It was breathtaking! (THOUGH COLD!) We went back to the NY STOCK EXCHANGE and Wall Street so rick could take pics. We then went and had dinner at NYONYA's - the malaysian place I love to go to in Chinatown/Little Italy. I bought my first I LOVE NEW YORK t-shirt at battery Park (kids size for $5) :) HAHA :) OH and I love eating at Grand Central Terminal's food places on the lower level! RIck and I got pizzas and strombolis :)
I am missing RIcky like crazy now :( He was my best friend the past 6-7 days and it always hurtls like hell when he goes :( *sigh* I cried a lot on his clothing....
I bought all 3 seasons of Relic Hunter on VHS!!! :) Cost me a LOAD but it's worth it! I ALSO BOUGHT - THE NEO QUEEN SERENITY KOREAN DOLL BELOW!!!! FOund it on ebay and no one had "bought it now" so I quickly grabbed it! I think my SMoon doll collection is now complete save for the custom dolls I want made.
Finally, this doll is mine!
Everyone will be home this weekend - whole family. My other sister's graduation from college is this Saturday! All my sisters and I and my mom and dad will be driving to UCONN for it. Fun-filled weekend ahead ;) I just called my 3rd sister and we're all going to see MATRIX RELOADED ON SUNDAY! YAAAAAAAAY!
My sis just told me the *SERIES* finale of Dawson's Creek is on and Jen is dying. Jeez - you stop watching for a couple years and all hell breaks loose ;) I'm missing my friend Pete's graduation dinner right now :( He's having something in Long Island but if I'd gone I wouldn't get back till either 12:30am or 1:30am and it wouldn't be safe for me. He and I are going to make plans for next week on.
Last and final news.....I get admitted to the New York State Bar on MAY 28th!!! Am I excited? Well....it's the fruition of years of training to be a lawyer and studying and busting my self open for exams.....so in a way I'm excited that I'll get myu bar license. But the irony is - I've realized the life of a practicing attorney at law is the LAST thing I want to live in the world. I'm going to move on from this and use law to catapult me into everything else I love! :)
Sharukh of course, you as a male WOULD notice how they did that on Relic Hunter wouldn't you? ;) Adrianneeeeeeeeeeeee *HUG* what's up???? I wanna hear everything! *BIG BIG HUGS* Roger how could I forget my fellow Indians? :) hahaha I'll always make time for them :) Crystal *HUG* Phantom of the Opera isn't an opera - just a broadway musical :) It probably SHOULD be an opera so the entire story can be told! Brittney, Lizzie, Dorine thanks all of you! :) I worked hard and am glad you like it :) Misao thank you! It was good but could've been a lot better! :) Hope you can see a production of it somewhere!! :)
I'm off. Night everyone!
- Nishi
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Friday, May 9, 2003
09:53 a.m.
Phantom of the Opera is tonight! I got Orchestra seats (couldn't get center but oh well ricky got to sit there for Les Mis so all good ;)) and I'm excited! I'm sitting here with a chocolate croissant from Grand Central and enjoying the quiet moments in my office before the hectic workday begins. THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!!
Tomorrow Ricky and I might be meeting my friend Sashi at the Brooklyn Botanical Gardens for lunch and then we may go out at night. Hope the weather stays good! I need to get working - see you guys later :)
- Nishi
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Wednesday, May 7, 2003
07:50 p.m.
Beautiful day today but I hardly got to enjoy any of it! Working so long sucks! I treated myself to a chocolate croissant from the pasty shops at Grand Central Terminal before I hopped on the train. Work is slowly pouring in now....motions for summary judgments GALORE! Whew. Makes me definitely realize I don't wanna make a career or life out of the practice of law.
I love this show called "RELIC HUNTER" which is on UPN9 (WWOR) on Sunday (at least here in NY) - it's about this adventurer/explorer named Sydney Fox played by this beautiful woman named Tia Carrerre (or something like that) and she's a professor of ancient studies at this university - anywayz, she grew up learning martial arts and traveling with her father and learning about many cultures and learning languages along the way. Each of the episodes involves one of her adventures to hunt for a relic! Kinda like Indiana Jones only more feminine and fun! :)
I got my Marmalade Boy artbook in the mail today - it's full of so many beautiful pictures! Why can't I find any manga posters of Miki and Yuu?
k - I'm off. Miyu-chan *HUGGGG* ur so awesome u know that? :) Lisa I left a message for u on the UM.com MB and I'll email you now as well!
- Nishi
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Tuesday, May 6, 2003
07:52 p.m.
I bought tickets to see Phantom of the Opera with Ricky Friday night :) He's going to meet me after work and we'll go to dinner and then to the show. I'm looking for nice restaurants near the theatre! Liisaaaaaa I'll check the MB now! I don't check it as much now because I have such little time save the weekends and then I get so caught up I forget :) *HUG* Aby hi there and thanks! Nice to meet you :) I'm off to enjoy my evening. Night everyone!
- Nishi
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Monday, May 5, 2003
7:54 p.m.
mmmm thai iced tea :) still, the one by my work place isn't the same as the one in L.A. - I worked really hard today and made sure to leave promptly at 5pm. Didn't get home till 7:20 and just finished dinner now. It's raining and tomorrow promises a thunderstorm! :) can't WAIT for it to thunder :)
I wrote a new song 2 nights ago - it's called "Eventually" and I love it :) Last night before I went to sleep I prayed to God to make my dream of singing/performing and writing come true. I know it's almost impossible to get your music heard and even MORE harder to get your writings published or even NOTICED....which is why it would take a miracle to make these dreams of mine come true.
But I can't help trying...wishing...hoping...and praying.
I know now that practicing as an attorney every day will make me unhappy as time goes by. Even if the cases get interesting (which they sometimes do) - working at law as a career and for another person as a salaried associate will drive me to depression eventually. For now, it's fine. I need to work and gain experience and make money. But if I work very hard....and give it my all and sing and record my heart out and write my fingers off, maybe.....*maybe* by my next birthday I won't have to feel like I'm doomed to practice law forever with no creative outlet in the foreseeable future.
It's almost 8pm and I need to pack my lunch for tomorrow in case I don't go to lunch with one of the other associates. (FYI - an associate is what you're called when you're a non-partner attorney at a law firm) :) I bought GIRL SCOUT COOKIES at the train station this evening. These adorable Girl Scouts were saying "step right up and buy some girl scout cookies" last Friday and I felt bad I didn't buy any so today when they were doing that I went and bought some - a lil shocked at the price though $3.50/box - yeesh! But hey I did my good deed for the day! :) I got the coconut cookies with the chocolate stripes. They're SO good!
Sawah I love you too sweetie!! I'm sorry I didn't call you back yesterday but I wound up getting busy and totally forgot! I'll try and call soon! Callie-chan *HUG* :) Just wanted to say that :)
- Nishi
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Saturday, May 3, 2003
08:24 p.m.
mmmmmmmmmm today was so nice! Woke up and helped my dad clean the house for the potential buyers who never showed! Helped him pack the car for him and mummy's trip. Wore my new white top and jean jacket and khaki pants to the airport and had a great drive back - sun shining...radio blasting :) As I was listening to the radio I was like: GOD, I want my music to be played on the radio like this! So I said a small prayer to God to help me make that dream come true.
My dad gave me this cool pen this morning from a mortgage company he gives business to called Option One. This pen has a mic on it and so we had a lot of fun recording funny stuff and playing it back :) I showed papa my Marmalade Boy Robot Recorder but the batteries in it were done so I couldn't show him how it records and plays back 3 different messages. But this pen is cool! :)
I gotta wash the car tomorrow (maybe I'll do it next week? ;)) and I realllly wanna go to China Town and shop tomorrow! maybe maybe....or maybe I should just stay home and chill and rest.....only one more day off before brand new work week *sigh*
weekends go by too fast....*double sigh*
this time next year....I just have to have made progress in my goal to be out of the 9-5 working funk and into making my dreams of singing/performing and/or writing come true. God help me.
I read EVERYBODY's journals tonight! I feel happy I caught up on everyone! *HUGGGGGGGGGGS* all around. Seems like a lot of us are having crappy days lately....I guess we just gotta get through the dark days before it'll be back to happy happy huh?
I got my Neo Queen Serenity Cel and Neo Queen Serenity Gashapon and a new Marmalade Boy CD today from Japan. The Neo Queen cel is just...WOW....it looks SOOO good in person - a scan doesn't do it justice. The Neo Queen Serenity Gashapon - it's lovely but I dunno why I wanted it so badly now and paid so much...I may sell it....and the MB cd has all the songs that played on the Marmalade Boy series! :) INCLUDING Yuu's song he performed on stage with Satoshi's band :)
I'm gonna go have some Pepsi and watch Marmalade Boy :D
- Nishi
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