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20 and 1/2 hours still the start of the bar exam
Monday, July 29, 2002
12:27 p.m.
I woke up at 10:30 to the sound of Ricky's voice - was so good to be given a wake up call by him. I'm doing laundry and reviewing Torts, Contracts, and Property.....need to pick up packages and see if payments for auctions came yet.....stock up on water and go buy pencils and pencil sharpener and an eraser.......

I haven't made up my mind to go to my cousin's for tonight and tomorrow - even though he lives in the city right next to NYU - to get to the Javits Center would take me more subway rides from his place than from Queens - I have a straight subway from here....so I dunno.....

I'm hungry - need breakfast and lunch....

- Nishi

Sunday, July 28, 2002
11:58 p.m.
Janeen wound up calming me down considerably....I was in a crazy panic...everything I've been studying and memorizing feels like cursory knowledge....like things I studied just disappeared from my brain.....it's awful to be reviewing and realizing "crap I don't remember this" and think about how you just might actually fail the New York Bar Exam. GOD I BETTER NOT FAIL PLEASE. Thank you Janeen for destressing me. I'm going to have hot cocoa and study now. *big hugs to everyone*

pray for me please?

God please let me pass the bar please please please!

- Nishi

Sunday, July 28, 2002
12:26 p.m.


Yes! I found more fun quizzes! The reason I created the Royalty Quiz was because I hadn't found really good quizzes about different levels of royalty. I found below a couple quizzes that are nice though :)

Take The Princess Quiz by Azure Eyes

You are The Imperial Princess

Your regal attitude and impecable impression shows your true breeding.
Raised to one day rule as Queen, your very demeanor displays your rise to power.
Whether your prince is yours by love or arrangement, he will quickly learn that you preside over the kingdom.
Your ladies-in-waiting feel privileged to be below you and your servants revel under your command.
Every knight in your army has sworn his life to you.
Your popularity before assuming the throne assures that you will be a respected Queen.
Your crown is fashioned after Queen Elizabeth’s.
Your throne is hand-crafted of gold and red velvet.

Sunday, July 28, 2002
11:34 a.m.
I didn't wake up bright and early at 7am......I woke up bright and late at 11:30am.....grrrrr......now I'm 4 hours behind schedule *sigh* I'm mad at myself.

What I have to re-memorize and make sure I know COLD!!

Agency/Partnership
Conflict of Laws
Federal Jurisdiction
NY Prof. Responsibility
Domestic Relations
Crim Law
Crim Pro
Torts
Corporations
Constitutional Law
Wills
Evidence
NY Practice
Property
Contracts


- Nishi

Sunday, July 28, 2002
01:00 a.m.
1am and all is wellllllll - I have 3 more pages of New York Practice to memorize and I'm going to sleep! Tomorrow I get up bright and early at 7am and study all day until 11:30pm at night - and that means no breaks! Holy cow how will I do this? Monday I'm just going to read the model essay answers to and then head to the city around 5pm to check out the route from the Bar Exam center to my cousin's apartment in the city. And then head over to his place that night and pray like crazy that I pass this damn thing.

My sights are just set to Tuesday morning when it starts at 8/9am and Wednesday at 4:30 when it's all over.

I want roses after the Bar...lots of roses...the beautiful red/pink kind that are 1/2 red and 1/2 pink.....saw some near the Spring Street subway station in Little Italy 2 weekends ago with Carol - so pretty. Ok 1:07am now - must finish the 3 pages. Night everyone!

- Nishi

After that long entry.....though some quizzes would be nice :)
Saturday, July 27, 2002
02:14 p.m.
If I switched 1 answer I got 2 different results so I guess I'm both Michael and Metatron :)

Which Archangel are you? by Xera

Which Archangel are you? by Xera

2 days and 11+ hours till my Bar Exam
Saturday, July 27, 2002
12:41 p.m.


Get ready for a long entry - lots to tell you....

2 days and 11+ hours till the bar exam - all I need to do is memorize Evidence and NY Practice, and study the last 5 sub-topics and then re-memorize everything (16 topics) and take some practice questions and essays....must do everything by end of Monday afternoon.....I then go to stay with my cousin Mat, in Manhattan for those 2 nights.

I went jogging again yesterday - jogged 4 miles on Thursday and yesterday fast jogged/ran 2 miled taking "BIG STEPS" in jogging like I heard an instructor on the track tell his students thursday. Now my legs are all sore but I feel great.

I decided to ask my Dad to let me go to California for vacation - by myself - after the bar exam - at first he was like, I don't know I'll have to think about that and that he couldn't give an answer over the phone, that it would be discussed after the bar and when I came home. But from there it got progressively worse. My problem is that I don't have enough time. I wanted to go for a week after the bar and then come back home and go vacation with the family before Nithi and my other 2 sisters have to go back to school, and then make sure I have a job to go to. So I wanted to have an answer soon so I could book a ticket and visit and come back. But at that my dad got more and more upset - saying he was losing his children, made a mistake giving me too much education, how I wanted to do everything but didn't care about them, how I didn't want to go to india for 3 weeks in september even though ummichy (grandmother) had said she wanted to see me (I don't want to go because I don't want to come back and still not have a job and be living at home!) and how he gave me and all of us too much freedom and that's why we were like this now. Freedom? I can't even go anywhere without begging for permission. He said I lived on my own for this long and I can do whatever I want, but not to come to him with problems and such. *sigh* It was so horrible.

Well I'll call home on Wednesday, August 1st and tell them again I want to fly out. Cheaptickets is having a great sale until August 5th where $229 roundtrip tickets for NY to LA. That's including tax. I want that ticket but it expires August 5th. So I'll take the bar but I want to go after that. No wasting time because all my sisters and I will be home after the 10th and mummy wanted to go on vacation to Lake George and papa's like every time we want to do something, one of you had something that comes up or something always comes up. Blah blah blah. Well we can go on the damn vacation after the 10th. I want to go to LA BEFORE the friggin 10th/11th.

I'm reading Interpreter of Maladies by Jhumpa Lahiri, a female Indian writer who, on her very first publication of a compilation of short stories, won the Pulitzer Prize! Her stories make you want to keep reading. All about Indian identities - from lives in India to Indian-Americans living in the U.S. and elsewhere.

I have to study Evidence and NY Practice. See ya everyone.

- Nishi

4 days till my Bar Exam!
Friday, July 26, 2002
12:52 p.m.
gawddddd....I woke up late today! Now it's almost 1pm and I haven't started outlining and studying Wills and Trusts (a damn hard subject!) but I've spent the past 3 days in the library working SUPER hard! From 9am till 9:30 at night! I got a lot done too :) I went jogging yesterday - felt so good to be in the sun - jogged 4 miles in 48 minutes! My goal is to be able to jog 4 miles in 40 minutes. Did you see the moon's been a gorgeous golden-yellow past couple nights? It's so beautiful. There's so much to write and say and I can't cause I'm stressed for time. After the bar ok? Sawah, I hope everything you have to do gets done too! We're so busy these days :( Aisha, I hope everything is good! I kept up with your journal as of last weekend and earlier this week. :) Later everyone :)

- Nishi

Tuesday, July 23, 2002
06:29 p.m.
Michan/Ailinon, I added your blog to my list :D Your new blog is SO nice! I'm impressed with the way your life has changed! Whatever it holds, I hope you will be happy! *HUG*

- Nishi

7 days till my Bar Exam
Tuesday, July 23, 2002
12:32 p.m.
damn so it was my time of month that was making me so moody/depressed! No wonder I felt like crying every other hour and like everything was so messed up and unhappy. I've almost never had mood swings with my period! Geez it sucks to be a girl sometimes! But at least when I'm most depressed and upset, my best material comes forth. The song in the entry below is just a sample from a full song I wrote. It's totally sad and depressing but beautiful.

Anywayz, I drew more Neo Queen Selenitys!! I finally learned how to draw the eyes - it'll take a lot of practice though. I'm getting better slowly. Counting today, 7 days till my bar exam. In bold is what still needs to be done by next Monday. It's so much work.

Outline and Memorize and Re-memorize the following:
Crim Law - re-memorize
Crim Pro - re-memorize
Con Law - re-memorize
Contracts - memorize and re-memorize
Property - memorize and re-memorize
Corporations - memorize and re-memorize
Torts outline + memorize and re-memorize
Evidence outline + memorize and re-memorize
NY Practice outline + memorize and re-memorize
Wills/Trusts outline + memorize and re-memorize
Fedl Juris/Pro Ro/Dom. Relations/Confl. of Laws/Agency&Pshp outline + memorize and re-memorize
Essay Writing
Practice Essays
Practice Mult Choice
Practice Exam

Saturday, July 20, 2002
02:50 p.m.
"If you want to frolic in lust's garden, then divest yourself of a secure and steady relationship. And if you want to love with humility and a deeper level of truth, then find less hurtful ways to warm your ego. Loving someone isn't just a matter of buying them popcorn and calling them pet names; it is having the responsibility of their heart in your hands."

something I found in an article.

Friday, July 19, 2002
06:04 p.m.
God I love summer! The beautiful sunny days followed by the beautiful rains and dark thunderstormy ones! 6pm and it's started to thunderstorm. It's so dark out and the rain's falling so nice - you can hear it in the russelling of the trees. At home during the summer, because I live surrounded by the woods and forest, experiencing rain and thunderstorm was so much fun! My sisters and I would race out on the deck to get wet or scare ourselves over the lightning and thunder :)

It'd be so much fun to have a house somewhere like my home...surrounded by trees, with a gazebo and rose gardens, and a deck like the one at home - maybe a balcony too :D I'm settling in for a long night of studying. Sarah Beth, if you read this *HUG* :) Hope all is well! Caroline, what is up with cyberwings? it's taking so long to come back. Laurelchan, are you online at all? Michan, I went and visited your old pitas page but your beautiful Kaoru layout was gone! What happened? I still have never seen Rurouni Kenshin - will eventually get to it! :)

Write later folks!

Friday, July 19, 2002
4:02 p.m. EST
bwee bwee bweee - dunno why but that sound expression is on my mind and lips o_O <-- denotes an expression of "umm...okaaaaay" or "what the heck?" :D I'm so tired! I stayed up till 6am this morning studying corproations however I still have 23 more pages to go *sigh* and all of property. My friend Naureen wound up waking me up at 12noon! She's a riot I swear! :) I found Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne scanlations on the net and LOVE them! (Thanks ADRIENNE!!) Maron is sooo pretty and jeanne is strikingly more beautiful in black and white manga. Maron isn't as pretty in the color manga in my opinion - there are only a few pictures I love of her. But CHIAKI - my lord is that 2D character a hottie. Mamoru, Chiaki and Zagato are my heartthrob manga/anime men ;) I also won on ebay Tokyo Mew Mew anime subtitled on VCD! I'm also planning birthday present surprises for Ricky and for Carla :) lots to do - so little time.

I think I'm out of that depressed, moody funk I was in. Thank GOD! Ready to work hard and kick ass now.

Rebecca had a link to Yahoo's Palm Reading! I took this a long time ago but never put up the info - good idea put it up Rebecca!

You have a good imagination, and often exhibit sensitivity to others.

At times, you may tend to be overly sensitive to criticism. You can be excessively cautious or narrow in your outlook unless you receive the right kind of encouragement.

You are a warm hearted person, with much love to give. You probably like children, and exhibit many playful characteristics.

There may be times in your life when you give in to feelings of sadness or depression.

You are likely to make decisions based on intuition or feelings rather than intellect.

There are inconsistencies in your energy level, possibly triggered by external factors or emotional changes.

You have a basically strong constitution, and should enjoy good health most of the time.

You were probably given a good start in life by your parents. This could be based on your general upbringing, or on physical characteristics you inherited.

No matter what other factors influence your personality, there is an under lying sense of practicality that you can draw on if you wish.

Thursday, July 18, 2002
05:12 p.m. EST
well after that incredibly serious entry below, I went and took a few quizzes that Rebecca had on her blog! :)

What Was Your PastLife?

what movie symbolism are you? find out! Take the Purrsonality Quiz!

What is YOUR Celebrity Type? A Quiz made by Mitsuki Stephanie

Thursday, July 18, 2002
03:58 p.m. EST
we live each day....taking everything for granted....making so many wrong choices, that we don't know how to avoid....one day all those mistakes find us....and we're filled with so many regrets.....if we're lucky, we're given another chance to make things perfect....but in most cases, the damage is done....and we live with a loss - time can't be undone.

we live each day so oblivious....focusing on what we want or need....and what needs to be done....we fail to see the bigger picture, or how our presence and our very existance impacts everything and everyone. We fail to see the opportunities given to us....choosing to ignore them or just let them slip by in lieu of other things....draw inside.....maybe it's boredom with the opportunities given then, maybe disinterest, maybe the time just wasn't right.....maybe feeling the regret and the pinch had to happen to make things right......

we live each day without a clue of what's coming ahead of us. we think everything will be fine - we're so naive. What if the end comes tomorrow or in 5 years....what if the lives we've known till now - cease to exist? what if the world is turned upside down and the story book tale we've lived turns into a nightmarish reality? Will you be able to deal? Will you be prepared?

suddenly everything in life is changing....I hate change. Why can't things stay happy like this forever? Will I really have to see death and tragedy? Live through it? I'm scared for my parents and sisters....scared for myself....for some reason, I think the happiness we've all known up till now, will come to an end.....something will happen........

I know I shouldn't complain of losing happiness - I've led a very happy and normal, loving life - nothing like the people who suffer as victims of government oppression or under military regimes, the women and young girls who are gang raped and the men who are beaten unconscious or till death. I feel their pain and troubles suffering. I feel like the whole world will soon know suffering and tragedy like that.

I'm studying for the NY Bar Exam....I'm hunting for a job as an attorney....I have plans to publish my songs and make a demo tape....to learn the piano and guitar...to be involved with international affairs and organizations.....all my dreams and goals...what do they matter if suddenly everything changes....when life as we know it stops? What happens to boyfriends and girlfriends, to men and women...to pregnant mothers and babies....what happens to the old, the ill, the crippled, the insane? All I can think is God please help us and save us.

- Nishi

Wednesday, July 17, 2002
12:13 p.m.
*sigh* I feel depressed. I haven't had a hug in what seems like forever......I miss ricky.... :(

Nishi

Monday, July 15, 2002
09:46 p.m.
boy do I feel accomplished! I actually made it to the review today! Was at the bar review for federal jurisdiction for 3 hours but a yummy egg sandwhich on toast kept me company :) Afterwards, I had to run a bunch of errands to mail packages off and pick up new ones too. Laurelchan, thank you SO MUCH for mailing me my things!!! I can't believe you had to pay $5 for shipping!!! I gotta do something nice for you! After all my errands, I went to the Nail Spa for a manicure and pedicure because my hands and feet really needed it - so tired and achy. Got my nails painted white russian and my toes "poison arrow" which is this delicious red color :) Now my feet are beautiful :) Then I hit the library and studied but it was ICE COLD in there! They had the AC on to like -70 or something! I wound up only being able to study for 1 hour and a 1/2 before heading home cause I was frezing my bones off. When I got back I did laundry and cleaned up my room, and washed dishes, and now I'm sitting all warm and nice, after using Biore's Heating Face Mask and putting on Nivea's Q10plus wrinkle control night creme! I'm only 25 and I don't have a wrinkle in sight but hey - you're never too young to start taking care of your face and making sure premature wrinkles don't start right? I bought this really cool new face lotion called "Almay's Milk Plus" which is this SPF 15 lotion which actually uses milk protein and milk lipids. Gonna wear it tomorrow :)

God my life for the past few days has been nothing but Bar Exam studying and making sure UsagiandMamoru.com's chats are protected. *sigh* I need to finish memorizing Criminal Procedure and Constitutional Law tonight and it's almost 10pm. I need to get started if I wanna sleep by 2am ;)

- Nishi

Saturday, July 13, 2002
11:43 p.m. EST
woah! sorry sorry! I haven't written since thursday night! I went to review today from 9:30 - 4:30 of the simulated bar exam - was SOOOO long and tiring and I saw CAROL!! :) She and I wound up going to China Town for dinner and went to one of my most FAVORITE food places! It's actually in Little Italy - it's this malaysian restaurant called NYONYA's and it's located on the corner of Grand Street and Mulberry Street and opposite of Ferrara's - an amazing italian pastry place. Which reminds me - I reallllly want something sweet to eat.....mmmmmmmm <-- is this the cutest tuxedo kamen gif or what? ;) It's my "muwahaha diabolical" emoticon :)

Had so much fun there with Carol and if I get a lot of my work done - we'll met up again to go shopping in China Town next sunday :) WHEEEEEEEEE :DDDDDDD I wanna buy some sunglasses I saw there and some really cool rings :) Not to mention new fansubs of Super Gals!! (Gals!) and Kamaikaze Kaitou Jeanne and Fruits Basket....but...if I do that I might watch those instead of study.....AGHHH! I only have 2 weeks till the bar exam! But it's ok - cause I'm on schedule :)

Hey!! I have sailor moon manga posters for sale!! The auctions are ending soon! And if you don't buy em at auction price, I'll only sell them privately for $15 a piece. They're being shown at my auctions - Click on "MY EBAY AUCTIONS" link at the top of this page on the right!

Thursday, July 11, 2002
2:00a.m. EST
Building on the entry below - I spent an hour tonight searching for organizations to join and/or support here in NY and internationally and I found a LOT! Various international organizations which wanted to promote understanding of cultures and political systems so that the U.S. and those nations would have better communications and find better solutions to problems <-- right up my alley! Also found women's advancement organizations and many political organizations as well. Did you know NY has a communist party?

2am and I'm pouring through Property - on page 14 - need to get to page 98. I'm sooo going to be up till 5am *sigh*

- Nishi

Wednesday, July 10, 2002
05:12 p.m.
I worked on my drawing of neo queen serenity a little more - edited flaws and it's looking better and better :) Can't wait to get it all colored and scanned! It's such a beautiful sunny day! Last night it thunderstormed - loved it :) The best thing about summer are the days and nights where it thunderstorms ferociously and then the next day, the world is all glorious sun, wamrth, and splendor. Right now it's 5pm and I'm going to finish memorizing Criminal Law and then head out to jog. Then going to settle in for a long night of memorizing Criminal Procedure and Constitutional law! 3 hours to each subject means I get to go to bed at...oooh...3am! Lucky me ;) Wish I could go back to the lazy summers where I slept in late and mummy would be yelling at me angrily to get up because there was cleaning to do ;) hahaha

When I got bored with studying, I made a page.....recent talks with my sweetheart Ricky made me want to put my goals and aspirations down in writing - even though he thinks (and I agree) that putting it down in writing gives a false feeling of having done something - I want it to be a reminder to me of what I must do - to not leave it to just a writing but to actively make it happen. Click to view the page:

I finally am able to draw!!!
Wednesday, July 10, 2002
12:50 a.m.
in the past week I started wanting to draw...but my first attempts were so horrible and ugly...I tried to draw my neo queen serenity doll and I couldn't at ALL. I tried to draw usagi from a manga poster and it looked like something a 2 yr old drew....finally today as I was about to study, the urge to draw called me again so I said, ok this time, I'll just draw her the way I can, instead of trying to make an exact likeness. What I drew made me so happy! :) Here she is below - I'm going to color her when i have spare time :)



whadya guys think? :) one of my goals was to one day learn how to draw like manga artists! I hope I am able to reach that one day....

- Nishi

Tuesday, July 9, 2002
11:08 p.m.
mmmmmm I had a nice nap :) I slept from 4:30 - 8:30pm tonight! long day of torts review and afterwards I ran errands, mailing out packages, and I picked up packages and found that Carla got me Sailor Moon Mixx volumes 1-3 as my law school graduation present! I couldn't believe it! She is so incredibly sweet! She knew those 3 volumes were the only ones I was missing! :) *huggles Carla* :)

I found the car I want to buy within the next 2 years! It's a 2002 Chrysler SEBRING CONVERTIBLE LX and I want it in black or this pretty sapphire blue pearl color :) pictures below:

Monday, July 8, 2002
11:37 p.m.
whew what a day!! first off I didn't go to bed till 5am this morning cause of Constitutional Law review work for the Bar, and I overslept and missed my morning session of bar review so instead went to the afternoon session, and that was good cept it ends so late (5:15pm). After that, I went and ran errands at the dollar store (needed paper cups and plates etc) and also found this gorgeous crystal rose candle holder - it was large enough to hold this big candle I have! Then I went and waited for the bus and while waiting, bought 20 gorgeous large white flowers which looked something like carnations but not really for only $5 at this little flower stand!

finally came home and put the flowers in water, and settled down and checked email and ebay, and then headed back out to JOG! :) I jogged 4 MILES TODAY!!! In 54 minutes! :D and afterwards I did 45 pushups, 100 crunches, 100 lower ab exercises, and 40 inner leg lifts and 40 outer leg lifts on both sides! :) I feel so good! Came home and took a LOOOOOONNNGGGG hot shower and then I did my nails and now I just had dinner and am settling in to study for the night.

:) wish I didn't have to study. I really, REALLY need sleep. But I'm really worried about the bar exam cause I still don't feel like I know the material cold and haven't memorized or studied the bulk of the materials well yet. I have the simulated multistate exam this friday from 9-4:30 so I'm trying to study 7 subjects REALLY well in preparation for that. Ok anyway - I'm off to work. Night everyone and *HUGSSSSS* to all my dear friends.

Nishi

Bravo Caroline!!!!
Sunday, July 7, 2002
11:48 p.m.
3 cheers to Caroline!! She said exactly what I've been arguing about forever over this stupid "in God we trust" debate. I firmly believe reference to God should NOT be on our currency OR in our pledge of allegiance - and I say this despite being a God-loving Christian myself. I say this because the U.S. is not about one God - it's about a nation that embraces many cultures and many religions and pledges allegiance to a system of government in which all of our cultures and religions may be respected and practiced, and no religion or belief imposed upon us. Reference to God in the pledge imposes a belief in a Christian deity upon every non-Christian in the U.S. and that's just not right! No one should *HAVE* to recite "under God" in order to complete a pledge to the U.S. If I wasn't Christian and was some other religion, I'd want to say the pledge without the "under God" cause why should I be made to say "under God" just because the Christians in this nation want it that way? This nation isn't supposed to impose any religion upon me in ANY way.

I quote Caroline, who said it beautifully in her blog:

"My point is that if our money says "In God we trust" and our legal documents have all this Christianity affiliations with it, people will start to think what's "right" is Christianity . . . This is why I'm glad that our leaders are taking a stronger stance about the separation of church and state. I remember when I was small, I wondered why our money had "In God we trust on it." I don't necessarily believe we should take that off (I'm still thinking about that one) but we should consider and RESPECT the atheists and non-Christians, too."

Sunday, July 7, 2002
02:55 p.m. EST
I wonder what's wrong with me......I feel all sad and depressed *sigh* maybe it was cause of last night.....most likely.....my parents came to drop off food and goodies today - brought perota and chicken curry...my dad noticed my less than happy disposition but he thought it was cause I just got up and was tired.....agh...I just didn't feel like myself at all......betcha it's gotta do with some womanly PMSy thing.

I put up new auctions! see: Selenity no Megami's Sailor Moon and Ayashi no Ceres manga posters and furoku for sale on ebay auction :) No no Ayashi no ceres poster but I have up a rare furoku memo pad and a rare Shocomi 1997 All Star Calendar featuring tooya and aya on the cover! :)

I'm off to study now. See ya'll laters!

- Nishi

Saturday, July 6, 2002
7:27 p.m. EST
I decided to take a break from studying and go jogging at 6, but when I went outside it was so weird! Everything was deathly quiet and no one was around and up in the sky was an orange/red moon (made me think of Revelations) and when I got to the track it was closed and empty - everything was so spooky so I headed back home.

I loved seeing that gorgeous sun though! I love stories and legends to do with the sun and moon! When I was little I used to collect pictures of the sun, stars, and moon on post cards and bookmarks. If you want to learn more about the sun go to this site - it's on my bookmarks: The Stanford Solar Center - wonderful site!

This year I want to go celebrate the Chinese August Moon Festival (or Harvest moon Festival - held on August 15th) and I want to try a mooncake! The Moon Festival is this beautiful festival based on the legend of the Moon Goddess. The legend goes like this - there was a man who was a great general in china, skilled and talented and after working on architecture of some sort for the Imperial Highness, she gave him a pill which contained the elixer for immortality. The General took it home and hid it away and went off on his duties, but while away, his wife, the Lady O-Chang found it and swallowed it and was instantly sent to the moon. The General saw her soaring above and tried to rescue her but a divine typhoon stopped him and she was swept away to the moon. The general had to have the earth, and his wife, the moon. (Other legends say she swallowed the pill to escape her husband, but the one I read said the legend goes she accidentally found it and gives no reason to believe she was trying to leave him.)

So anyway, on that day they celebrate with gifts of food :) I want a mooncake :) I never tasted one before!

Below are some things I won on ebay recently! One is the Japan Bandai Eternal Sailor Moon Beauty Change Doll, next is a pretty Princess Serenity card, and the last is a beautiful fan art done with paint (and other tools) of Princess Serenity.

Friday, July 5, 2002
05:48 p.m.
yumm! domino's veggie feast pizza and cinnamon sticks :) It's what I'm having right now! I spent so much time trying to get the new staff members sorted out with yahoogroups and with my message board *sigh* adding almost 25 new members and getting everything to work for them is hard! still waiting for a lot to choose jobs and get screen names all set.

Once again I'm behind on work *yeesh* - I bette pass my damn bar exam. Property is staring at me in the face and I've only done 2 hour's worth....that's nothing when I have almost 13 hours of lecture material total!

kk I'll write more later :)

- Nishi

Happy 4th of July USA!
Thursday, July 4, 2002
9:10 p.m. EST
Happy 4th everyone! I woke up this morning to a gorgeous summer day! And then ricky later told me to turn on CNN and I found out about the shooting at LAX and the small plane that crashed at San Dimas! Talk about a horrible way to start the 4th! I feel very bad for the people in San Dimas and LAX :(
Off that depressing note - I've been really getting into beauty! Been taking care of myself really well with manicures and pedicures, deep conditioning hair treatments and making sure my face, eyes, hands, nails, and toe nails are all lotioned and creamed up very well before sleep :) I also found a lot of sites I love and some give away free stuff too! Like Oil of Olay and Shape.com! I also visit Pantene, Seventeen, St. Ives, and Sally Beauty.com. I registered at Oil of Olay, Pantene and Shape and am getting free samples of stuff from Oil of Olay.

I took The Spark.com's tests (again) and here is my personality result:

PERFORMER
(Dominant Extrovert Abstract Feeler )

Like just 6% of the population you are a PERFORMER (DEAF)--personable, self-assured, and excellent under pressure. You are extroverted and strong-willed, which, in combination means you are good with people and aren't willing to let opportunity pass you by. Congratulations. I'm sure all the peons you've stepped on never saw it coming and didn't feel a thing.

You like being naked. (hahah because I said I would go on a nude beach! Which I would if I lose some weight and get in shape - if you have a good body image, you're not worried at all about going to a nude beach!) :) It's fun! ;)

Anyhow, you have formidable creative talents, and you often following what your heart tells you instead of your logical mind. Your exuberance can earn you many friends and admirers, despite your ambition, or it can intimidate the less confident into keeping their distance. It's also possible you're Madonna.

I am pissed off with flowers.com!
Wednesday, July 3, 2002
2:03 p.m. EST
UGH! For Ricky for a special day, I ordered the 1-800 Flowers Bountiful Picnic Basket which was supposed to come with gorgeous flowers and gourmet treats of sausage, mustard, cheese and crackers. Instead, the stupid florist failed to deliver it on the day I stated (Monday) because he couldn't find the package room to deliver it too even after Rick called back half an hour later and told him where it was! And when I called flowers.com monday tellingthem he hadn't rec'd the flowers they promised me delivery of everything FRESH. What was delivered was anything but! The flowers were NOT what I ordered - they were UGLY - with DISCOLORED LEAVES and they were wilted and horrible, and the pot was SOAKED in water. FURTHERMORE, it came as a POTTED PLANT! My flowers were to come in a VASE and MOST IMPORTANTLY - It didn't come with ANY of the treats! I paid a lot for this damn basket to arrive with the sausage and cheese and everything and what arrived was a MERE POTTED PLANT. See pictures below.

On the left - what he was supposed to get. On the right - what he actually got - *all* that he got.

Sunday, June 30, 2002
10:45 p.m.
wow been so busy I barely wrote!!

GUESS WHAT!!!!!!! I went to the interview on friday and it was great!! The partner Mr. Wood offered me a job in both legal and computer related field but it's open so that I can find full-time job elsewhere and yet still get income from his firm for work I do there. He wants, in addition to legal work, me to design 7 domains for him. :):):) And I'll get paid well for it! His office is located on 5th Avenue right next to Central Park! The building and whole thing was so fancy! It'll be exciting to work there! But I'm still going to look for a full-time salaried position. This is great because I at least have something there which may turn into a full-time position :)

I spent the weekend catching up on work and relaxing and finsihing up my auctions! FOR SALE - I'm selling Sailor Moon Manga Posters!! Look at the images below and if you want one or more, email me at webmaster@usagiandmamoru.com - I'm selling each for $15. Shipping + cost of tubing will be $6.35.

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Thursday, June 27, 2002
08:57 p.m.
man I want some soda.....pepsi or coke....mmmmmmm

so everyone's talking about the stupid court ruling that's making "under god" unconstitutional - what's the big uproar about anyway? This country's as ungodly as it can get now. Any godly principles (indeed, if any at all) this country had to start with has been eroded. The "in God we trust" and "under one God" is all a farce. As a Christian you think I'd be in an uproar over the ruling but honestly, I approve of it. "Under one God" *does* endorse belief in God (or a God) and in this nation which prides itself on a vast and varied melting pot of cultures and religion, that phrase alienates a lot of people with non-christian or atheist beliefs. The very phrase violates the establishment clause of the constitution which states that the government won't either support or discriminate against any religion. If the phrase had been "In Buddah We Trust" or "One nation under Buddah", you can bet every non-buddhist would want it taken down cause we don't want to be made to say that. But because it's "God" that was added and because Christianity is the dominant religion, we think it's ok to impose that phrase on everyone - christian or non-christian.

The history behind the law shows it was added in 1954 when communism was such a threat and this country wanted to emphasize that IT was a "godly" nation as opposed to the communist Russia and that is why "under one God" was added. It's removal now is fitting. This nation's never been godly enough - we've toted that ideal but never proven ourself worthy to say a nation under God. How can we say that when we killed millions of people in Hiroshima and Nagasaki? When we slaughtered innocents in Somalia? When we destroyed lives in Afghanistan this past year? When we continue to destroy lives in Iraq with the results of our Persian Gulf war and continuing economic sanctions. How can we say that when our predominant society is one full of sexual promiscuity, drug abuse, divorce, and emphasizes the individual over the whole.

Godly we are not. We're a nation of sinful, selfish people who are rich and prosperous by using and exploiting much of the rest of the world. We're people who talk of Godliness but our actions aren't very Godly at all.

I actually wish we *could* be a nation under God. I wish we did do things the way God wants it done. The fact that "under God" is being ruled unconstitutional shows how less religion is being emphasized in our nation, and that's sad but what has to happen because of the country that we are. If we decide to emphasize belief in God or Christianity, we risk alienating or discriminating against non-christians and especially atheists. If we become a nation emphasizing a Christian God, we'd undoubtedly want to force our religion upon everyone, and it will impact all areas of life from school acceptances, scholarships, everything.

Independence between state and religion allows everyone in this nation to believe whatever faith they want and yet still be a U.S. citizen. If emphasis is placed on a belief in God (and in this country, it's a Christian God people think of), then every non-Christian (Hindu, Buddhist, Muslim) and every atheist is having the Christian faith imposed upon them.

I believe it's good to have a love for God and to have a nation which believes in living under God, but that's not the kind of nation we are. We're a huge "melting pot" of religions and the best way for us to survive as a country is to accept all our religions and to make sure that no religion or belief in a deity should be given emphasis. A love for God and ALL our religions should be emphasized and a love for the good moral values of those religions is what should be emphasized.

- Nishi

Wednesday, June 26, 2002
04:55 p.m. EST
current mood: pampered :)

talk about a hot, muggy and humid day! Blech! and then the law school lecture hall was like -30! Sheesh. I love summer more than winter but even this kind of heat bugs me. But now it's almost 5pm and I can hear thunder and it's supposed to thunderstorm good tonight! YAAAAY :) (I love thunderstorms :))

After my bar review class, I went and got a hair cut (relayered), and got my eyebrows done, and had a special pedicure/manicure where they made my hands and feet beautiful and massaged me so good that I still feel like I'm walking in this super-relaxed daze! I got this stunning shade made by Dante called "White Russian (#77)" <-- it's simply gorgeous! I went and ran errands at Genovese after that and bought this foundation/make up by Loreal which matched my skin perfectly! "Buff" was the color. I'm almost all ready for my interview on Friday now at Sussman Sollis! I'm gonna spend the rest of this afternoon working on cover letters to more employers. My goal is to land an estates attorney position that pays anywhere from $45-$75K but if I can't get that I'll take any other attorney position.

I'm working on a surprise for Ricky for July 1st! A few months back I asked him to circle July 1st in his date book and write in "S-1" cause it's something special that had to happen on July 1st for reasons known only to me. I just hope I can make it happen.

I wanna get subscriptions to magazines! On my list are: National Geographic, The Economist, YM and Vogue. The Economist is SUCH a great magazine! Read it online at www.economist.com <-- has great articles on foreign affairs, and just about everything! Ok I'm off to work! See ya laters!

- Nishi

Tuesday, June 25, 2002
3:08 p.m.


thing's do not seem right......

Monday, June 24, 2002
8:23p.m. EST
I got a call back for an interview at this firm called Sussman Sollis Ebin Tweedy & Wood LLP on 5th Avenue in Manhattan by one of the partners. They're a big firm and I'm positive their hiring criteria is HIGH. My interview's friday afternoon. They do business and real estate law....neither is my cup of tea but maybe there's something I can do I would be interested in...

the more I study for the bar exam, and the more I job hunt, the more I'm realizing I don't really want to be a *lawyer* - it's fine if it's on something I'm passionate about, like environmental law or international law but everything else like business, estates, personal injury just isn't what I want to devote life to........ricky suggested the other night that with my writing ability and interest in foreign policy and public affairs, I should go and get my masters in political science and I love that. I could work for a couple years and go back for my masters and move on from law into something else.

Watched "Crossfire" tonight on CNN and they had the PLO rep visit and this congressman here from the US and I wished the congressman would shut up. He raised the fact about the isareli school bus children dying and then said how bad that was because it was a palestinian who purposely put himself there to kill them. But THEN he goes and says that the israeli military who a few hours later killed 450 plaestinian children at a school "was an accident" - in the words of the PLO rep, come ON congressman! The israeli troop there may be more guilty than the invidual suicide bomber because they killed innocent children in "an accident" that looked a lot like retaliation.

People are rooting so easily for Israel and diminishing palestinian issues and tragedies. At least Bush made a statement that the Jewish settlers should LEAVE but then he said that Palestine needed new leadership and he has no good basis to tell Palestine's people what to do about their leadership or whether to create a new state or not. I sympathize a lot with both the palestinians AND israelis....when i took jewish law this past semester I learned so much about israel's stance and why they feel the way they do, the abuse and hatred they put up with the Hamas and numerous terrorists and how they can't have their own land and I've read so much on the palestinian stance too, their victimization as well. It all boils down to autonomy, and political strife for the control of land...and this has erupted into so much hatred and violence that the original issues have been lost and buried under a million other travesties.

In my understanding, the jews had that land and lost it and then it was settled by what is now palestinians. The Jewish people believe they have a claim for the land because of God's promise to Abraham, and because of their ancestor's inhabitation of the land, and all their roots to it. I don't know if God still deems "the holy land" for the Jewish people anymore. I know the Bible gives them a claim, but as a Christian, I also believe they lost that claim. All this war and death doesn't show me God's hand in any of it. Israel and Palestine have to agree to a division of land - neither one can be ousted. My belief is that Israel needs to give up occupied lands and extremist palestinian organizations with terrorist acts to force the Israelies out MUST STOP, or the back and forth fighting between Isr. and Pal. will continue and the issues will continue to become more and more convoluted.

note** that's just my opinion based on my understanding now. Don't go nuts over it, I just might change my mind upon further englightenment ;)

I'm off to study Evidence....got 6.5 hours of video material to watch - I'm in for a long night........i wish my heart felt happy though :( it's such a beautiful thing when your heart is happy...it makes everything else bearable, and more enjoyable....life itself feels so much warmer and sunnier.....and when your heart is sad...u just lose that spring in your step...and when you're left alone....you really feel that emptiness inside......

Nishi

Monday, June 24, 2002
05:08 p.m.

this song's been running through my mind all afternoon....still sad......

Lionel Richie - Hello
.........
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely,
or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you ...

*sigh*.....god...how can life get messed up so easily, in the blink of an eye...........if you're reading this.....i wish I could hear your voice....

- Nishi

Saturday, June 22, 2002
09:37 p.m.
current mood: not so happy . . .

I've been having an awful past couple of days. Life is getting messed up once again. Knew it couldn't stay good for long.

Moody Blues - Nights in White Satin <-- one of my most favorite songs ever
Nights in white satin,
Never reaching the end,
Letters I've written,
Never meaning to send.

Beauty I'd always missed
With these eyes before,
Just what the truth is
I can't say anymore.

'Cause I love you,
Yes, I love you,
Oh, how, I love you.

I'm gonna make some hot cocoa and do the last 2 hours of my property lecture video. So much work to do and so little time before the bar exam.

- Nishi