Welcome to Nishi's Journal part of A Dream I Dream. Nishi is a 26 year old Indian American who graduated law school, passed the New York State Bar Exam and practiced as an attorney in Manhattan. She is a singer/songwriter and wishes to onder day work for human rights and peace policy. Nishi is an avid Japanese anime and manga fan & is a web designer too. See her major anime/manga websites listed below. She also collects anime goodies, see her Treasures. This journal is a place for me to vent, to share, and to catch up with friends. Strangers are welcome to see the world through my eyes but respect me and my writings. Add Entry | Login | Edit |

Wednesday, December 31, 2003 01:07 p.m. Happy New Year's Eve everybody. I'm still sick. 6th day and counting. Sheesh. I was scared i was losing my voice last night. Giving myself a lot of voice rest today. Coughing now with still stuffy nose. I wanna go get the 'DaVinci' code. It's one of the most informative and amazing books - one thing I found fascinating about it from Ricky who's reading it now is how the early Catholic Church made everything that was 'pagan' out to be evil. For example the elderly people who lived in towns wore long pointed hats to signify their age and wisdom - when the catholic church came to crusade (read kill and convert) everyone, they spread lies about the people in pointed hats - they became known as the witches and wizards (gnomes etc) - devil worshippers. Another thing - the pentagram - which the Church and Hollywood has associated with devil worship for years - is a lie - the pentagram was actually just a symbol of womanhood - something very peaceful, unity-meaning and beautiful. It's astonishing the crimes religion can commit in its own name - I'm proud to be a Christian BUT am so NOT proud of the Catholic Church's early horrible, bloody history. Religion should never be the cause or reason for bloodshed...... I don't think I'll go with my sisters to Connecticut for New Year's. I don't see how I can enjoy myself with them if I'm sick....although how will I enjoy myself if I'm here at home with the folks.....agh.....i'll see..... Anywayz, HAPPY NEW YEAR'S FOLKS. - Nishi Tuesday, December 30, 2003 01:22 a.m. I didn't wind up going to bed - after talking to Ricky I stayed up reading about Aragorn and Arwen's life in the Lord of the Ring Appendixes and what I learned deepened my love for their love. I won't spoil anyone here but definitely making a shrine for them - I found transcripts of the appendixes so I'll be posting them up. So freaking beautiful their love story....my only wish is that even in and after death they be united and their love live on. Whenever I watch really moving movies like this - it stays on my mind for hours and days after.....I was just thinking now how short life is.....how we all live for that those bright, shining moments when we are so happy....for those moments when it feels that we've been blessed and that nothing sad or horrible can come within reach of us. And yet life isn't like that....life mixes both the beautiful and the ugly....the hope and the tragedy.....thinking of my grandfather (my mom's dad) who died this fall - how he had lived a life of both good and bad things, blessings and misfortune and then had the saddest misfortune to die suffering from oral cancer (from smoking and tobacco chewing) and it just struck me how ugly it is that life - so beautiful, so precious and love so rare - how all of it is taken away and gone in an instant....a life lived full of laughter, love, good-will...still ends in death...still ends with that sad loss.....death doesn't make sense...it's stupid...why were people born to die? We were botn to live....to LIVE....we shouldn't die....and if the lesson is life is a precious gift, so rare a thing in this vast universe and that it is not granted to us ever again then why do we spend our days, our precious days of our lives, hurting ourselves, each other, living in ways and manners that do no honour to the gift of life given to us. I don't know about you all - my friends, family and strangers I don't know who read this - but for myself, I know that with this life I want to live to see the beauty and joy of everything possible for me to see....I want to meet many people, I want to see many countries - there are so many beautiful things in this world I've never seen, don't even know of...I want to learn so much more before my own days are through.....I want to live to have my own children...to teach them, to help them learn....I want to live to sing my songs...to share my heart's songs of pain and love with others who could be helped and healed by them, I want to share some of my life helping others to be happier...to live better lives of their own so they too can enjoy the beauty and wonders of life and this world we live in..... Death is one of the worst things in life - another being the hatred and cruelty of our fellow mankind....when you think of the preciousness of life...it makes you that much sadder when you read about atrocities committed against men and women all over the world....in Arundhati's book 'War Talk' I read about how Roy rec'd a call from a friend in Gujurat (a state in India) and this friend was crying because an angry mob had assaulted her muslim friend (a female) and ripped open her stomach and put burning rags inside it. Only after she died did someone put the writing 'OM' on her forehead. It was a religious-hatred violent act.....so evil....so cruel.....what the f--k? She grew up like any one of us....with parents, friends, she was also a smiling little girl with pig tails....and yet fellow mankind, filled with cruelty and hatred killed her.....life is so precious, so beautiful....why death? why hatred? why such evil? I'm gonna stop now cause I'm actually crying. I'm waaaay too sensitive for my own good ;) See what watching a movie like Return of the King does to me? ;) Hope I didn't depress ya'll too much...but it's important to think of these things.... - Nishi Monday, December 29, 2003 11:26 p.m. I LOVE LORD OF THE RINGSSSSSS! I love Aragorn and Legolas even more :D hehehehe I'm so in love with the Aragorn and Arwen love story - I'm going to actually read the huge long books for the "APPENDIXES" which I heard detail many things not in the actual story such as how Aragorn and Arwen met, their life after marriage, how Aragorn was actually raised by elves. I think I'll make a small Arwen and Aragorn fan-site and add it to the probably million that already exist ;) At the end of the movie I saw the dress Arwen wears that's exactly the same dress of the ARWEN doll I bought from Barbie Collectibles - Aragorn's matching King costume doll was perfect too. The movie was freakin long and after it, we went to Cosi's which is this lil eatery/cafe place. Sisters and I ordered stuff to eat - the best being this spinach and artichoke dip thing with bread and their SMORES which they offer on this huge platter and you make it yourself with a small fire they light for you! It's very cool and very, very sweet - even for me who lives for sweet ;) (thought I did anyway) Didn't get home till after 8:30 and we all hung out now playing cards and painting nails. Looks like we're gonna be playing drinking games come New Year's Eve - oh lordy - Nith's taught us a new drinking game guaranteed to make one drunk - ughhhhhhhh actually not looking forward to that - I like to drink and all but never to get drunk - it just seems stupid and unnecessary - the yucky feeling in ur stomach and the dizziness in ur head - I enjoy the buzz I get from 1 or 2 drinks but anything more is just messing with ur body and too much of an unnecessary. You should drink to enjoy, not drink to get drunk - in my opinion anyway. Time for beddy bye. Night. - Nishi Monday, December 29, 2003 12:25 p.m. Day #4 of the COLD FROM HELL. Now I'm developing a cough and my head no longer has pressure from the stuffed nose but nose is still stuffed. Sore throat pretty much gone. GOD I don't want a cough....it's gonna ravage my voice....I had the worst night of sleep last night even though I went to bed at 11:30....didn't sleep till 12:30am and then woke up at 2am, 3am, 4am and god knows when else a.m. and I was so restless and having disturbing dreams and feeling like I couldn't breathe - stupid nose.....ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH It's the freakin cold from hell. Anywayz, I promised Mekha no matter how I feel we'll all go see LORD OF THE RINGS (finally) today - we're catching the 3:20 showing. Gotta shower and pray I don't start a hacking cough in the movie theater ;) ciao folks - Nishi Sunday, December 28, 2003 07:01 p.m. sstttttiiiiillllllll SSSSSSIIIIIIICCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK! *ugh* my nose is so stuffed I could hardly sleep last night. At least I only complain in my journal - don't complain to anyone else. :) Anywayz, I'm excited about these Kodomo no Omocha / Kodocha cels I bought! One of them is for sale - the minimum asking price is $65 + shipping. You can see the Kodocha cels I have at Nishi's Cel Gallery at Rubberslug. Max Lovely . com is now linked off of Anipike.com! YAAAAY! Can't wait till I can upload all my updated stuff and work on UsagiandMamoru.com and MiakaandTamahome.com I'm reading Howard Zinn's "A People's History of the United States" and it's really a good book. Tells the history of the U.S. from the eyes of the rest of the world - a non-american point of view. Highly recommended reading. Read that after reading Arundhati Roy's 'Power Politics' of course ;) Anywayz, nose so stuffed - I've read all my Cosmo, Allure, Jane and Astronomy magazines. AGHHHHHHHHHH stupid cold....c'mon it's the 3rd day - my colds are usually gone by the 3rd day. Mek, Mil and Nith are watching Bad Boys II in my room and I'm tapping the keys too loud according to one of the curlyhaired trio. I'm gonna go blow my nose and sneeze some more. Ciao. - Nishi Saturday, December 27, 2003 10:25 p.m. THIS COLD IS LIVING HELL! I *thought* I was getting better but now my throat hurts again, feels like a lump, breathing is a pain in the neck cause my nose is so stuffed and my parents are blaming me for getting sick 'she went hiking in the woods wearing that fleece and no scarf or gloves or hat' - #1 it was like 50 degrees, #2 I was already sneezing that morning #3 just cause I went hiking (and I sweat a lot doing that) wearing a freaking super-warm fleece but no gloves and hat or scarf does not mean that's how I get a cold - you get a cold from germs! I tell them that and they yell at me that I think I know everything and never listen to them. YEE GADSSSSSSSSSSS. I'm going nuts here. They've always believed that going out in the cold gets u sick. ARGHHHHHHH. I've known since AP BIOLOGY in 11th grade that's not true. I tried to sleep as everyone was gone to that show but I couldn't fall asleep one bit - this is the worst cold I've had since this summer when I got some kind of stomach thing. So tired...so sleepy....and I'm becoming one of those people who complains when they're sick - somebody shrink themselves and go inside my body and fight whatever's making me sick like in that movie (I forget the name) - I'll give you my sailor moon cels worth a fortune :D. - Nishi Saturday, December 27, 2003 04:35 p.m. i'm feeling a lil better today. The horrible sore throat is 80% gone although something's still there that irritates and I gotta swallow and I have a stuffed up nose the size of kentucky but that's it. I slept a lot and drank a lot of water. I stayed up till 4am and read Arundhati Roy's 'Power Politics' - it will probably be the book I identify when they ask 'name a book that changed ur life' - Because of her book I'm going to make human righta in India a main focus of my own human rights work one day. I'm almost done with her 2nd book 'War Talk' (32 pages to go). I read a ton of news articles last night - it is AMAZING how unknowledgable the American people are - so many, from watching the news (like Fox News) think that Iraq is connected to Al Qaida and that they found weapons of mass destruction or that Saddam Hussein and Bin Laden were connected when NONE of that is true at all! Hussein and Bin Laden hated each other (the latter wanted/tried to lead jihad against Hussein I think), the whole "Iraq has weapons of mass destruction" is the biggest lie of the whole century to come out of the United States and Iraq is actually only NOW a more terrorist nation than it ever possibly was before - it was just a poor country suffering under sanctions before with a tyrannical leader who dared to stand up to the U.S. (invading Kuwait and thereby distrupting delicate balance of middle east) and that's why he was taken out. I'll write more on this later. Anywayz, I just woke up from a long nap and gonna eat. My sisters went to this christmas show and I stayed home since I'm not well. See ya guys later. - Nishi Friday, December 26, 2003 05:52 p.m. I'm sick. This sucks. I have the worst sore throat ever. I knew I was coming down with something yesterday morning when I was sneezing but ugh, a sore throat? They're the worst! Now I have this hard thing in my throat that I constantly swallow because of.....my face and neck feel all hot although mummy says now I don't have any fever. This sucks. I slept most of the day. I had great dreams. This throat is killin me! I already drank the last of the OJ, ate a lemon concotion mummy made, and had 2 cups of green tea AND endured her lectures about how I don't take care of myself and have a weak immune system and that's why I get sick and that inevitably leads to the argument that it's because I jog/exercise so much that I get sick - I jog every other day for usually a total of 4/5 days a week for total of an hour. That's not excessive and I rarely get sick - when I do though - watch out cause it's a doozy. UGHHHHH - face is so hottttttttt - go AWAYYYYYYY stupid sore throat go AWAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY. Tabitha how's Mat? What'd you guys do? How was that dinner thing you told me about the other week and when should we try to get together? IM me when you get a chance. Reena thank you! *HUGGGGGGGG* How was ur christmas? I hope you got everything you wanted! Crystal hahahah kid at heart too huh? ;) I think everyone should take time out once in a while to just act like a kid again - everyone would be just a little bit more happier then - at least for that short while :) GO AWAY STUPID SORE THROAT. *in agony* I can't stand this. I hate being sick. - Nishi Thursday, December 25, 2003 09:24 p.m. Christmas was so much fun! Got up early before all my sisters and made french toast and aside from some bickering with papa about the whole 'get married in 2005' spiel and 'when is ricky asking me already' and all that jazz, we opened presents!!! I got the shirts and sweaters I wanted from my sisters and Nithi surprised me with a $25 gift certificate to my faborite nail place for a manicure/pedicure and Mekha got me the most GORGEOUS fluffy (angora-like) gloves, scarf and hat ever! I made out good with loot this year :D Papa like the Palm Pilot PDA but he decided it's not really for him so I'm gonna return it. He also asked Nithi to return this awesome back massager thing she got - he can put that in the car to work or on any chair but he said it didn't help hsi real problem shoulder area so not worth it. So tomorrow I think we'll be returning stuff at the stores. And hopefully seeing Lord of the Rings finally! :) After breakfast and presents and stuff, we all went hiking in the woods. We hiked all around the huge lake and walked on the bridges and stuff and had so much fun! Took us 2 hours to just do half-way around but the stuff we saw! I FOUND MY DREAM HOUSE! It's like a piece right out of Thomas Kinkade's artworks (he's one of my favorite artists) - we're gonna go back to take pictures of the waterfall-like stuff and the many lakes and ponds and stuff we came across. Mummy made a ton of food: roast chicken, veggies, a special parmigian-like fish but with no cheese, I made my chocolate pudding pie, and we had rice and so much food whew! Afterwards, my sisters and I played cards (A$$hole, PIG etc) and then after all that fun went upstairs where we played hide-n-go-seek - yes us 20+ year olds acted like we were 8 again and ran around the house making papa yell and say 'if you break anything you'll hear it from me' - Mekha hid under the blanket on the sofa - REALLY good hiding spot except papa and mummy kept talking to her even though it was obvious she was hiding - they were like 'why is that book there? can u hear me??' and mekha's like SHHHHH I'm HIDING! LOL! We then played this word game where we write down a whole bunch of words on papers and fold them up and make teams of two and time each team for a minute where 1 partner describes the word and the other partner has to guess what the word is. It's HYSTERICAL when we play. We moved on from that to Charades to Win, Lose or Draw and finally whew we had enough. My sisters are addicted to my Calvin & Hobbes books now - "a really good investment" is what Mili told me. I think I'm coming down with a sore throat. Gosh I hope not. Time for some OJ even though I ate like a wolf today....lord I need to jog like a 100 miles now. Hope your christmases were as merry! Can't wait for NEW YEAR'S!!!!!!!!! TABZZZZZ! Tabitha??? *HUG* I'm so glad u dropped by! *HUG* MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! - Nishi Wednesday, December 24, 2003 11:16 p.m. Merry Christmas eve everybody! Sailor Callie *HUGS* Merry Christmas sweetie! Miyu-chan *huggles you* I hope all your christmas wishes and new year's dreams come true! Slept in till 11am today, had pancakes and played on the computer and papa made cake with dates ;) And we all got ready for christmas eve service at our church and although it was longggggggggggg as heck it was great seeing so many old church friends I haven't seen in ages. Caught up with a lot of people and it was nice. When we got back home I had to run to guard the christmas tree cause Nithi and Mekha were mutinous - we had decided this year to open the christmas presents on christmas day instead of right after church on christmas eve as we had in the past cause we used to get back so late at night none of us wanted to wait. But sweet Nithi was all c'mon let's open it nowwwwww pleaseeeeee - she tried to get papa on her side and any inch he gave she took it as victory but finally everybody decided to wait till morning (cept Nith and Mekha who was cowering up on the stairs cause she didn't wanna get in the battle zone - it was me, mil, mummy and sort-of papa vs. Nith. She's so sweet - it's cause she wants to make everyone happy - she wanted us to open the presents she got us. It kinda sucks saying no to sweetness like that but it's for the best. I didn't let anyone near the tree - me and my trusty Victoria's Secret catalogue holed up on the couch and made sure of it. Speaking of which the new catalogue has pjyamas for only $12.99!! (And they're gorgeous too!) And I take back what I said about having to always return VC stuff I order - I got the fleece pull over and this gorgeous robe as part of xmas presents and they are MINE, MINE, MINE - no returning! Anywayz, gotta be up early - wanna wake up 7am to make everybody eggs, toast and pancakes so that we can eat after we open the presents at 8am :) MERRY CHRISTMAS YOU GUYS!!!!!! - Nishi Tuesday, December 23, 2003 01:01 p.m. On Max Lovely .com I have listed all the ribon trading cards at Max Lovely Ribon Merchandise, Goods, Furoku and Trading Cards - I need to upload a fully updated page as that's 2 months old but using that as a reference, does anyone have #s 30, 51, 68 and 74?? ESPECIALLY #s 30 & 51 email and lemme know. Whew! we went christmas shopping for 5 hours yesterday at the White Plains Galleria! It was a mad house but so much fun! I found bargains galore! Mekha and Mili and Nithi got me my christmas presents - I got pretty stuff from them from Forever21 and Bang Bang and Wet Seal - I bought my sisters' balance presents and everybody's happy. LOVE those stores at the mall - it just needs an ARDEN B. and a Charlotte Russe and it'd be one amazing mall. Saw Bibi and Bennett there and Jillian and Sindhu too - so funny running into these friends at the mall cause it's so unexpected. Went grocery shopping and I bought Pillsbury cinnabuns to make and got all the recipe ingredients for the Dark Chocolate Pudding Pie I'm making for Christmas dessert :) hehehe gonna be fun cookin! Our christmas tree has so many presents now...i love it :) It's fun when everybody's home - whole house feels alive - we're making homemade fudge now so gonna help. See ya guys later!!!! And Memory Merry Christmas! I'll see you when you get back! *BIG HUGSSSSS* - Nishi Sunday, December 21, 2003 11:49 p.m. today was a nice day :) went to chinese school and had fun and afterwards Chelsea, Luis, Kevin and I went for lunch at the Singapore Cafe - had yummy "curry mee" with an ice lychee colored pink (SOOO delicious). Loved the food there and their service was fabulous. Met Bonnie for the first time since she was visiting from Florida but didn't get to hang out. Maybe next time. After lunch, I booked it and caught the train back up to get ready for my church's christmas show. Each year they always put on a sweet show mixed with songs and dances and just funny niceties :) This year was great as usual. No, I didn't sing - I hadn't been able to rehearse the christmas song I wrote although I let Mili (one of my sisters) listen to it and she loved it. Maybe next year. I hit 5.7mph on the treadmill yesterday! Ran for a total for almost an hour - can't believe how I used to hate to jog - now it's the only thing that keeps me in shape and healthy. Trying to condition my body so it's strong enough to run 6.0mph continuously for 20 minutes. If nothing changes, I think I'm going to Nithi's in Connecticut for New Year's. Gonna have a quiet-sort of New Year's celebration at her place. But if anything changes I've gotten 6 invites to New Year's parties in the city but it won't be the same if my sisters and Ricky are all not there - that'll suck. Still planning this Christmas dinner party on Tuesday night. It's practically Monday and nothing's set! I gotta book the restaurant I want or a 2nd choice by tomorrow afternoon. I wonder if I should instruct everybody to purchase a 'secret santa' gift ($1-$10 value - nothing fancy but just for fun)....hmm.....maybe i should postphone this thing AFTER christmas? ;) So tired. Gonna grab some munchies and go to sleep. Night everyone. *HUGS* - Nishi Saturday, December 20, 2003 07:21 p.m. Crystal and Andante *HUGS* thanks you guys! yeah I'm very excited :) I'll keep ya posted on what happens. I picked up my sisters this morning and after we came home and ate and hung out we went out to shop - I picked up a new palm pilot for papa and got 3 dvds of movies Nithi loves as christmas presents for them. Then M&M and I went and got manicures - I got a nail design done where the lady painted my nails read and then drew cool designs on my nails with white polish and grey glitter. It's sooooo freakin pretty. I LOVE NAIL ART! I'm gonna take Nith and Mummy on Monday so they can get all dolled up for the holidays too :) here's a cool link my friend Ailinon sent me: http://home.hiwaay.net/~krcool/Astro/moon/moonviewer/ - it calculates what phase the moon was when you were born. I was born under a full moon. I think that's very cool as I love full moons and am always most at peace when I stare up at one. Wrappin presents now and settling in for the night. See ya guys later. - Nishi Friday, December 19, 2003 11:04 p.m. Should I sing something for my church's christmas show sunday? I wrote a christmas song yesterday - it's a combination of my original lyrics mixed with the chorus from 'Oh Holy Night' - I let a friend from church listen to the song last night and she really liked it but I have my doubts. You guys have no idea how badly I sang in church the last time I performed at a christmas show. It was like right out of a sitcom - I got this really sweet introduction and then proceeded to fumble through the lines I'd thought I'd memorized enough and did such an awful job. I look back on it as a growing, character-building experience. But to sing again at church usually means malayalam and I suck at it. I'd rather sing my own music but then I have doubts about sharing that at church too. Ugh. I probably won't unless I'm really comfy. Anywayz, while helping mum grocery shop I ran into an old church friend named Betsy and I found out she lives right down the road from us! She goes to RPI and is such a sweetheart! I'm gonna invite her to come out with us (if she's allowed to). I pick up 2 of my sisters tomorrow and Nithi's comin home tomorrow 2. I'm gonna see if we can all go see LORD OF THE RINGS 3. - Nishi Thursday, December 18, 2003 10:57 p.m. yaaaaaaaay the servers are back and working! YAHOOOOOO I can see my sites again!! :D Michael is one of the partners of the music production company that I'll be working with I think by the end of the month. He phoned me this morning and I talked to him again tonight asking him a lot of questions I had - he's really great and I'm so excited! He told me the cd could be out and ready as early as MARCH! I'm making a tape of some of the songs so they can get an idea now.....we're gonna meet up next friday so I can meet the other partner and see how our vibe is and if we all mesh and if so we can go fwd. I can't believe this is going to finally happen!! :) - Nishi Thursday, December 18, 2003 01:33 a.m. I think i might be working with an independent label by the end of this month or start of January. My friend Nitz's friend Michael who I met while in law school - he and I talked tonight about the record company he's a partner in now and they already have an amazing act that's the foundation of the company called Liha - they sound great! And the company is like a family he told me - if good things happen for one artist, they all go for the ride - meaning if Liha takes off, I get to be part of their tour and things. :) How cool is that? I talked to my friend Neil who I'd been working with for a while now about this new opportunity to sign on with their record label and Neil told me that it hurt him to say it but he wouldn't be able to guarantee me the time I needed but he will help me with anything if I need it. I was really sad about him not being able to but I felt better knowing he'd be there for me :) I'm recording a tape now for this company so they can get an idea of the songs and so the other partner can even start putting together a lil music to see how it sounds with the song! The best thing about what I heard is how I'm the artist and the music is all mine - like i have 100% input and it'll be exactly what I want it to be. And they're realllly great musicians. I really can't believe this opportunity showed up just when I was feeling so down about life in general :) Thank you God :) hehehe :) At least now I'll have a very high quality cd out by mid-to-late spring and they'll be producing the whole album. Their band Liha was even mentioned on Hot 97 (97.1) in NY as part of a shout out. That's really cool :) My only fear is what if they don't have the capacity of distribution or the funds to really promote an artist like with videos? I guess all of that will work out. My friend Suneet told me tonight it's important to have a clear termination/separation clause and I keep as much of the intellectual property of my music - I knew this stuff from being an attorney but still helps to be advised and reminded. He told me if I have a lot of success and a major label wants to sign me - I have to do what's best for my music and choose the label that will give me the best opportunities. I think this independent label is amazing and I really like how they're so supportive with so much *real* enthusiasm. I'm excited!!! I hope I work with them! I'm scared and nervous too....I've read countless music industry books and learned so much but it's not enough...I still feel like a small child entering a world that could really damage me because I'm not familiar with it. I guess I gotta rely on my knowledge and skills - I didn't become an attorney for nothing - I gotta keep being smart about what I do and go in with eyes open. Needless to say I didn't finish the research on the human rights article or finish looking through all those sites. Tomorrow, tomorrow - after I help mum cook and after I've cleaned the house..... TO DO: (1) pick 3-4 (or more?) songs to record for the tape to send them (2) keep working on my other songs and lyrics that need to be perfected (3) keep rehearsing and getting the songs to be sung perfectly (4) go through the websites and apply to the human rights-related positions (5) finish HR research for 2 articles to submit to 2 magazines to have as publications (6) Re-read my Complete Music Industry Book I'm starting to feel sore from tonight's workout - I not only did my incline workout for 45 minutes, I jogged at 5.5mph for 15 minutes and then did a ton of ab workouts for everything from upper abs to lower abs to onliques and I can feel it now when I laugh. ;) I'm gonna go pray now...I feel like I need God's guidance.....funny how I go to Him crying when nothing's happening and go to Him scared and seeking guidance when things DO start to happen. But always He's there for me. - Nishi Wednesday, December 17, 2003 02:20 p.m. so I called my friend Nitz last night after I saw her msg here for me on this blog and she had some cool news for me - her friend recently got into the entertainment business and partnered up with this guy who has awesome hip hop connections - this guy went on tour with Wu Tang (kung fu fighting song guy) and he heard from Nitz how I was interested in getting into a recording studio with a friend and recording a full album and demo tape. He wants me to call him and consider their studio as another option. They're very quick and have a cd coming out this month or next month. I want to work with people who are gifted musicians and my friend Neil is definitely that but he's also very busy - and these guys sound like they're amazingly talented and well-connected. I'll talk to Nitz's friend and then talk to Neil and see..... We ordered chicken biryiani (or however the heck u spell it) and yummmmmmm i'm hungry. Must finish getting all my auction stuff together to mail out tomorrow and friday. So much to do....I still have those 41 human rights job sites to go through and apply for positions through them. See ya guys later. Oh and yes the servers will all still be down so none of the sites will be working till God knows whennnnnn. - Nishi Wednesday, December 17, 2003 12:59 a.m. well so much for relaxing tonight - I got some excellent info from a friend on human rights jobs and I've poured through 12 website's job vacancies so far and still 41 more sites to go. But my eyes are hurting after 2 hours straight of this so am off to bed and gonna try calling my friend Nitz who just left me a nice msg on my comment box *HUGS* I wound up beginning a new song tonight called 'Back When'. Crystal thank you! I know right? :) *HUGS* - Nishi Tuesday, December 16, 2003 08:30 p.m. I *love* Arden B.!!!!!! It's clothes are crazy expensive so I'm gonna get my dad to pay for this coat I want for christmas :) heeh heeh heeh :D My mom bought me a purse from my favorite purse maker: GUESS. I gotta wrap it up in a box and am not allowed to wear it till christmas. I wanted to surprise my sisters this christmas with broadway show tickets to see WICKED! It's the witches' side of the story from the Wizard of Oz and I've heard nonstop good things about it. But it's impossible to get any shows for 4 people together before New Years. And this winter break my sisters are staying at Hofstra after New Year's to work on campus. Sucks that we only see them for barely 2 weeks. So I guess it's back to getting them gift cards to their fave store Forever21 (love that store too). In addition to shopping at the mall, my mom and I went and ran errands upstate today - was so good to see her almost back to normal! Simple Life's almost on - so much watch and Victoria Secret's fashion show is on tonight too - gonna relax tonight. Stayed up until 3am last night working on this human rights research on the International Criminal Court and America's Human Rights record both domestically and internationally and it's a huge project. I'm doing it to submit as a publishable article (2 articles) to this magazine (probably 2 magazines in the end). Almost felt like I was back in school there ;) It feels good though - I love academia and learning. - Nishi Monday, December 15, 2003 10:50 p.m. well i was right - I feel fantastic today :) I jogged 4 miles, swept and mopped the whole house, and applied to 3 new positions tonight. My mom is doing fantastic too! She even drove to the grocery store and shopped herself this evening - and 1 month ago she didn't have the energy for something like that. THANK GOD she's back to normal! If I had my wish I'd be working at something to do with international law or human rights or some NGO or non-profit org that catered to my writing skills. And while I work at that, keep singing and writing and one day have the best of both worlds - be a successful musician and earn my masters in international affairs from columbia (dream school but heck any good school will be ok) and work at the UN or an international human rights organization. Something to that effect. I can only dream for now. Tomorrow will be a hectic day - mum's going to an allergist/specialist and then we're going to our old home town for errands up there at the DMV and to the mall for christmas shopping and who knows what else she has in mind. I'm gonna spend tonight writing an article on some human rights to submit to this magazine I found. It'll be good for my resume to have some publications in a true human rights magazine. Miyu-chan I emailed the SSDG my addy! *HUGS* Night guys! - Nishi a complete jumble of random thoughts Sunday, December 14, 2003 11:32 p.m. I'm feeling a jumble of things.....i know it's all hormonal - always happens each month from gosh darn woman's things - been upset past couple nights about life and now am feeling much better cause the woman's thing is over but still....i'm in the last throws of it and feeling all the usual confused and down feelings u get......questions about where you're going in life....what you're doing...feeling unsettled.....so much to do and don't know where to start....so many doubts, fears.......so much self-scrutiny and self-analysis.....*sigh* I'm wondering when I'll find that job that makes me happy, wondering when my dreams of music career will come true, wondering if God is ever gonna answer my tear-filled prayers, wondering why the hell life is like this and why I can't seem to control anything and make things happen the way I want. So damn frustrating and I just wanna curse. Agh I know I'll be all sunshine and peaches tomorrow or Tuesday. The good thing about woman's things I once saw on this channel 13 or channel 3 special was that each month women get to analyze where they are and where they're going and improve on it so that when the next cycle comes you can be making progress and not go through it again. Agh. I'm gonna go brood or something. - Nishi Sunday, December 14, 2003 03:26 p.m. so sadaam's been captured. woo hoo. Iraq is free. Now let's give the people of Iraq a secure, working government and a financially stable economy and a secure & safe environment to raise their children. Sadly, I don't see Sadaam's capture as anything to cheer about - it's great this guy doesn't rule anymore but Iraq is ironically more worse off in terms of stability and safety now then when he was its tyrant. Bush...I like Bush as a person - he's a sweetheart but as a president I hated his pre-emptive strike policy and hate his foreign policy....support his stance on the contracts for Iraq though....I supported France's stance on the Iraq war being unjust but I don't support its claim that it should have equal bidding on contracts in Iraq - its people didn't fight or die in Iraq. My dad just asked me with a big smile: "wanna help me shovel the snow on this front porch and walkway here" I returned him this dead stare and he just kept smiling 'c'mon' he said ear to ear - so whoopee here I go. - Nishi <-- who's in a very weird, bitter mood today Saturday, December 13, 2003 08:26 p.m. Pete, Rebecca and Zoe all sent me the sweetest christmas cards! And now caroline took my address to send me one. I'm so bad about these things - i've never sent christmas cards. Zoe's was actually a picture of her and her hubby! I can't believe she's married!!!!!!!!! So cute. I wanna have a christmas party. I reaaalllly wanna get everybody together somewhere - restaurant? house? and just hang out and eat and have fun. Wish I could throw the party but I live in Westchester county and everyone lives all over the place. Anywayz, i got my dad's Palm Pilot Vx PDA right? I have no clue how to use it. I figured out it needed to be charged so will wait till tonight to charge it on my dad's comp downstairs. Hope it works! Got a headache and need to rest. Have a good night guys. Thank yous to Caro-chan, Adrianne *big hugs* :) Memory amen to that! :) Lemme know if u see the Gap commercial :) - Nishi Friday, December 12, 2003 04:24 p.m. we were in the emegency room again last night. Mummy took this medicine her doctor prescribed to counteract the itchiness she was feeling from her thryoid medicine - up till she took this anti-itch drug she was doing sooooo much better! Still not 100% but she was getting much much better and was thinking she could go back to work by or around New Year's. Now this stupid medicine completely gave her a setback and triggered whatever thyroid thing she just got under control. She wound up feeling terrible and scared that if she stayed home she might end up calling emergency at night cause she felt all the symptoms she had from day one, so we took her to the ER and I spent the night there with her. Was so awful - the hospital we went to is actually one she works at (she works at a division of it) and it's the WORST ER! They kept mummy waiting from 4:30 till 8:40 when she finally went to the receptionist and said she's an employee she's been waiting 4 hours and she wouldn't come to the ER unless she was really sick and needed to be seen by a doctor and taken care of. Finally at that they let her in and it wasn't until midnight that she was admitted to the hospital itself and they're so overcrowded she spent the night in the ER hallway with some weirdos - I slept next to her on a chair before they moved her out at 5am to another hallway - a HALLWAY mind you - never a room. Most crappy hospital. SO mad! Some of the nurses and doctors were very nice and good but the overall facilities and manners and treatment - C average. They're stil there. I came back home at 10:30ish and managed to sleep a couple hours. Waiting for their call to go pick them up now. My mom's doing much better now - the effects of that terrible anti-itching drug wore off and the IV fluids flushed it out of her system. She's still weak she said but hopefully she'll be back to as normal as possible soon. One good thing came out of the night - as I stayed awake till 5am, I worked on this song called 'ENTWINED' that I began and kept working on a while ago. It's really pretty :) Too many of my songs are about the break up and pain of it all...well, can't help it - you write what you feel. Who knew I could finish writing a song I really love in an emergency room ;) Anywayz, I should never order everyday clothes from Victoria's Secret's catalogue geez - nothing ever fits right and I always wind up returning everything I ordered - it'd be fine if I was like 5ft 6 with one of those elongated waists and stuff ;) But I'm short and not a 36D ;) I really wish they would open a dang clothing store so I could try on their clothes before ordering them. I got my dad a palm pilot for christmas. It arrived today :) Gonna wrap it and put it under the christmas tree as the 1st present! hee heee :D won't he be surprised! Must get ready and eat something. See ya guys later. - Nishi Wednesday, December 10, 2003 10:24 p.m. oh my goodness! did you guys see that new GAP commercial with those amazingly gorgeous guys? It's a winter commercial with just men....they're....woah...goodness goodness goodness - I have to sit and watch this channel now and hope I see it again ;) I saw the Billboard awards tonight - that guy with the stuffed dog had really bad jokes and he sucked. The jokes about Britney and other artists were just NOT funny and just plain tasteless. Ugh. Anywayz, on the subject of gorgeous men again (love you Ricky :)) I have the teeniest, tiniest crush on Keanu Reeves. He's so adorable and such a fabulous actor. I wanna see that new movie "Something's Got to Give" just for him (and cause it's funny). Crystal good for you! *HUGS* How big a family do you have to shop for? I'm 1 of 6 total so I think that's a lot to shop for ;) Miyu-chan don't ya know it! I love Christmas but it's always frustrating when you don't know what to get the people you love - I was gonna get Ricky "Girls Gone Wild" and try and win the "coolest gf ever" title but I, thankfully, told him that's what I was gonna get and he said "naahhhh" so now I'm back to square one. Maybe "Wild Animals"? LOL! Ya know I read in Jane Magazine how they had a party and put the Wild Animals show in the background and it made for a great party the way animals..um..get wild in mating....ANYWAYZZZZZZZZZ Memory ya think so? I dunno, I wasn't too intrigued by Last Samurai at all.....I wanna see KILL BILL, and THE MISSING :) - Nishi Tuesday, December 9, 2003 02:03 p.m. my sister Mili's so funny - she's flipping out about getting an interview with KPMG. She's totally nervous and it's so cute! I'll see her on Thursday when I go visit - hope she does great! I worked today on "I Saw You" and a new song I've titled "Guardian Angel" - very happy with it :) Thursday I gotta find presents for Nith, Mil and Mek and Ricky. Ricky's so hard to shop for....I have no idea what to get him this Christmas......Caroline *HUGS* thanks babe :) *HUG* *HUG* *HUG* :) - Nishi I will not but I will be Monday, December 8, 2003 02:14 p.m. I will not hide my face, my dignity and humanity I will not debase myself or disappoint myself I will not do that which is against my values I will not be ashamed of who I am, what I do, who I wish to be I will be honest and true to myself mantra for life. - Nishi Sunday, December 7, 2003 09:51 p.m. Sailor Callie happy birthday sweetie! I saw Ancient Egyptians tonight - first hour of it anyway - I'm facinated by ancient civilizations. I used to read (and still read) so much about ancient civilizations and archaelogy growing up and loved the Incas and Maya ever since I was 8 years old and saw Mysterious Cities of Gold on Nickelodeon. My book collection here at home has waaaaayyy too many books about ancient egypt, the celts, ancient china and greece to name a few! Ever since I went to college and law school though I've kept up very sparingly with all of that and the only chances I get are when specials come on tv, or if I go to a museum with Ricky or catch the latest National Geographic. I really want to start re-learning. Yeah I'm such a nerd, I know ;) I'm watching Celebrities 101 oops on E! It's funny but ewww I just saw Julia Robert's hairy armpits from the premiere of Notting Hill in the U.S. UGHHHHHH E! shouldn't have aired that! Have some respect for the lady! YUCK! They did up close and personal EWW EWW EWWWWWWW Applied to 3 new jobs tonight that looked nice but still eyeing that global policy department position though. See ya guys later *HUGS* - Nishi Saturday, December 6, 2003 05:52 p.m. Guess what!!!! You guys remember how I told u about my friend Ami who won Miss India and went to Miss World? The pageant was held today (yesterday actually) in China and although she didn't win, she placed in the top 5!!!!!! I'm so freakin happy for her!!!!!!! GO AMI! The girl from Ireland won (she's freakin beautiful) and 2nd place and 3rd went to Canada and China respectively. I'm so proud of Ami! She went so far!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAY! It's still snowing here - it's so gorgeous! Spent the day reading, putting up new pictures of my posters for the auctions since the old ones sucked and helping mum with fish curry. Am gonna workout now. Haven't worked out since Tuesday (bad bad bad) but I'm going to stick to it now. See ya guys later :) - Nishi Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow,,,,,, Friday, December 5, 2003 04:37 p.m. I love it! It's SNOWING! It started here late this morning and I walked out around 12:30 and it was falling all softly and pretty. SOOOOOOO gorgeous :) As I put up auctions, I watched my neighbor's son (probably 15-22yrs?) playing with their dog - so cute. I wish I had a dog that I could take out and play in the snow with. I have 3 sisters but they're not home - dangit - I need an imaginary tiger best friend like Calvin & Hobbes ;) I know I am reading WAAAAAY too much of those comics but I have like 12 of the collections and it cracks me up - can't stop reading 'em. RMN maybe you're right - maybe it is potential employers checking me out online - I yahoo'ed and googled myself and I found lots of stuff but nothing bad. It's all related to my web sites and work online I did. There's ONE link to my journal though and if potential employers read that to evaluate somebody - there's just something not kosher about that. ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO GOOGLE PEOPLE ONLINE - what's wrong with you? Nosy busybody weirdos - stay out of people's journals for whom you have no good intentions for - I guess human beings are voyueristic and love to find out dirt about each other - doesn't say much for us as a race now does it? ;) WOW I am selling SO MANY of my posters - I finished putting up 69 items - even parting with a rare Full Moon wo Sagashite Japan Poster - hope I priced it well....I remember paying a fortune for it but can't remember how much Yen exactly - I hate selling my expensive stuff cheap - people on ebay always want bargains - I think I'm the only nut who goes "OH MY GOD THAT IS SO RARE I WILL PAY THE HIGHEST PRICE POSSIBLE FOR IT" ;) LOL - I truly have a problem ;) Anywayz, my auctions (and more posters will be put up as I go through my collection and weed out extras and ones I no longer want) are at: http://members.ebay.com/aboutme/selenitynomegami - GO HERE - BID ON MY AUCTIONS - HELP ME PAY DOWN CREDIT CARD DEBT :D Hee hee hee I better go down and hang out with the parental units before they come into my room and see the mess I made of it...and start yelling.....agh. - Nishi Thursday, December 4, 2003 07:34 p.m. I think someone's looking for me......I check the tracker for my sites every day and through the tracker for this journal I saw someone's been searching in search engines for me by my full name....WHAT DO YOU WANT? Dammit - stop freakin me out by searching for me on the net - drop me an email - has to be somebody I know who'd search for me by my full name - they prolly just want to read this journal and not tell me they are reading it. Stop being a weirdo! Just tell me! There's something wrong with people who search for people they know online and yet never contact them or tell them anything........ *shiver* ANYWAYZ - I put up a BUNCH of auctions and will be putting up a LOT more - everything from sailor moon and other manga posters to a ton of Ribon Full Moon wo Sagashite furoku and zen-in stuff. So check out my auctions at: SelenitynoMegami's Auctions! I went christmas tree shopping today :) After I took mum for some blood something or other we hit Linen-n-Things (my fave place after the mall to shop) and I bought her throw pillows for the family room as part of my christmas present to her and she bought a CHRISTMAS TREE! It's 7.5 feet tall and GORGEOUS. It comes pre-lit and it took an hour or so to set up and unravel all the branches and make it look good. But mum cheered when the lights came on :) Papa loved it too! Can't wait for my sisters to see it - we've been wanting a new tree for ages and this thing is just perfect. After shopping mummy took me for lunch at a local diner and we ate yummy soup and entrees of chicken stroganoff and hungarian stuffed cabbage (which has ground beef inside with onions - mmmmmmm). ANYWAYZ.....I saw the 2nd episode of the Paris Hilton and Nicole show The Simple Life and OH MY GOD are those girls spoiled!!!!!!! But in a cute and funny way but still if I had daughters like that or had to work with people like that I'd go ballistic on them! I cannot BELIEVE they got into a hot tub and slept on a couch in someone's HOUSE when they were hired to WORK AT THAT PLACE'S DAIRY FARM! They even mixed water with the milk in the milk bottles when they spilled too much of the milk - saying something about "well they'll be drinkin less fat!" LOL! I can't believe em! Hope they definitely grow more mature from this. I still think they're adorable and they can't help how they behave - that's the only way they know to be but still......lorddddddd......seeing stuff like that there's no way in HECK MY parents can ever say stuff about me and my sisters now ;) LOL! Dana ya know how much I wish that? Still lookin fwd to the snow this weekend even if it's -20 ;) Anywayz, gotta work on the auctions tonight. See ya laters :) - Nishi The day I won the battle with the bed ruffle Wednesday, December 3, 2003 05:00 p.m. arghhhhhhhh AMANDA-CHANNNNNNN why is the server and everything still downnnnnnn this is the longest any of my sites have been down....... ok so bed ruffles - these damn things are so hard to put on unless you have 2 people to lift the heavy mattress. I didn't wanna bother mummy though so I struggled with this thing a good 20 minutes - even holding the dang mattress up with my head while I tried to get the bed ruffle to stay on the bed. If it could talk - it woulda prolly been laughing like some annoying kid when you're not doing things right. I gave up and threw things around and finally made the bed. Then I gave the bed ruffle one last try and tugged that thing under the bed and pulled and pulled - thankful I cut my nails short to regrow em - and VOILA - presto chango finally I had it on. NEVER AGAIN. When I become rich I'll have maids do this. Speaking of rich, did you guys see THE SIMPLE LIFE with Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie? IT WAS HYSTERICAL! I haven't laughed so hard in ages! It's on again tonight at 8:30 on FOX so watch! The way those 2 couldn't get how the rest of America did things - cooking, shopping ("can't we just have it?" Paris says when they only have $50 to shop for groceries and the cashier says their total came to $65 - he's like "no you can't have it, this isn't a soup kitchen" and they're left wondering "what did he mean? What's a soup kitchen?") LOL I was in stitches! And then at the end when they're like they should give a threesome to the oldest boy who lives in the house - dyingggggg laughing! They're too funny and cute. I found my dream job! It's a Global Policy Position - one problem: its phones aren't working - neither fax or anything. I am going to overnight my resume and cover letter to them. I REALLLLLLLLLLLLY want this position. I read this old article in the Times about that gay marriage law passing in Massachusetts (sp???) and I totally support it. Those people who say marriage should only be between man and woman - what's wrong with them??? Are they such homophobic prejudiced people that they can't accept that sometimes men love men and women love women? So homophic and prejudiced that they want to deny homosexuals the equal protections and benefits married couples receive in the U.S.? Under the constitution every man and woman is equal and all deserve equal rights in EVERY area INCLUDING marriage whether that marriage be between men, women, or men AND women. PERIOD. UGH! I can't stand people who discriminate against homosexuals. They're just pushing their OWN values and belief systems upon everyone else and that's just NOT allowed in the U.S. EQUALITY and FREEDOM to be who you are and to practice what you believe - governed equally by the laws of the U.S. That's the whole point! Anywayz, I'll get off my political soap box now lest some conservative extremists go nuts on me. I got my Arwen and Aragorn doll set from Barbie Collectibles today - the Arwen doll is 10x more beautiful in person than inb picture - she has wonderful details and her gown is gorgeous! The Aragorn one is equally beautiful but I don't want to keep him - anyone want him for $37.50? I did SHAPE Magazine's workout yesterday on the treadmill, after waring up for 5 minutes of walking I set the incline to the highest it could go and alternated walking on that high incline 5 minutes with walking on straight-treadmill 5 minutes for a total of 50 minutes. MY THIGHS, BUTT AND CALVED REALLLLLLLLLY felt it! They're semi-sore today. It's a good feeling. Think I'll do this work out 2-3 times a week so body doesn't get complacent with my jogging routine. Caroline I know right? I find it hard to believe to - The Martian Chronicles by Ray Bradbury was a fictional book that told a story about gold-colored people living on Mars. It's too incredible that this psychic would see gold-colored people living on some distant planet....ANNA awww don't worry! *HUGS* When you get to it ;) Memory what class was that? Pretty cool class! :) Miyu-chan we're destined for more snow this weekend - lots of it! WHOOPEEEEE :) I like snow falling :) RMN I agree with a lot of what you say but I take fairy tales with a grain of salt and focus more on the child-like innocense and sweetness of it - I love Alladin, Little Mermaid, Lion King I and II, Cinderella II and so many more. They're just fun but ur right - look deeper and you'll see a lot of themes you wouldn't normally agree with :) Brr it's cold in here - gosh I hate the cold. Gonna go warm up with cocoa and see what else mummy needs help with today. I spent the entire morning and early afternoon cleaning all 3 bathrooms spic and span spotless and sweeping the upstairs. Mummy made delicious appam and chicken curry - sooo good :) See ya guys later. - Nishi Tuesday, December 2, 2003 01:31 p.m. wai! it snowed! it snowed! well like a dusting really but it was SOOOOOOO pretty to see it falling! It's freakin cold out! I heard people in Florida were complaining about 70-degree weather and dressed in longsleeves and jackets - 70? THAT's WARM! I'd give almost anything to live in 70 degree weather all the time. Just finished cutting 3 pounds of pork. Whew. Took me an hour - so much dang fat. I can cut pork and beef fine - but can't cut chicken - that stuff is so hard. MMMMMMM feels so good to be home today.....I saw cartoons on Nickelodeon, am looking at jobs at http://www.foreignservicecareers.gov and other sites and munching on "tea rusk" with peanutbutter - tea rusk is this type of toast bread (only 15 calories) that papa buys from the Indian store Soorya in Yonkers. It's yummy! I've been working out steadily - jogging every night although I got my new issue of SHAPE yesterday and read that I'll never lose weight effectively if I stick to the same routine and will wind up plateauing - so am gonna start doing some of their challenging treadmill exercises - inclines and jogs at intense speeds etc etc. Let's see if I can't blast the thanksgiving pounds off ;) Something interesting: mummy watched AsiaNet all the time here and watches the malayalam news - she saw this report about this guy (around 40) who's gifted with the ability to see things in the future. He correctly predicted that something flying out in space (asteroid?) would collide with/come down to earth and scientists later confirmed this. He wrote to Pres. Bush about his latest vision - he says in the year 2058 golden colored people - 1/2 human 1/2 gods would come from another planet to Earth - hje saw them and their planet - they're technologically advanced (of course) and besides being gold-skinned, they drink water cupping their hands and eat of the foods (fruit and leaves) around them - they don't cook - they're very peaceful - have no strife, no war nothing like that. I don't really believe it but it's cool to wonder. Must get going on the day. - Nishi Monday, December 1, 2003 12:25 a.m. Reena *HUG* no it hasn't snowed yet. We've been having a very mild fall here with temps in the 60s (sometimes 70s) and now in the 50s. It's only this week getting into the 40's but then shoots back up to 57 on friday ;) I'm happy - can't stand the cold one bit. Dropped my sisters back to school today and picked up "Sex and the City - the Complete 4th Season" at Blockbuster! Can't wait to watch! I finally saw Sleeping Beauty on the Disney Channel tonight (never saw the movie in my life and it was cute but howcome that Prince and Princess barely ever talk?? For most of the movie they're always silent. And for a Disney movie - killing the wicked evil whatever she was sorceress with a sword through her was awfully violent - esp for a kids' movie......Disney's come a long way since. Gotta go to bed - driving mummy to a 9:30 doctor's appt. Have a good night guys. - Nishi Saturday, November 29, 2003 04:01 p.m. Edited close to midnight BELOW my sisters and I went Christmas shopping yesterday :) They bought me sweaters and shirts I picked out as my christmas presents :D hehehe - got gorgeous stuff from stores like CHARADE, BANG BANG and FOREVER21 from the White Plains Mall - The Galleria. Was fun :) I love Christmas the most and I just wish I had had more time to shop all the stores at that mall! So many stores....too little time. Server's still down....ugh. I gave my sisters a mask facial and now we're getting ready to go grocery shopping and to probably go see a movie. Hope you guys are having a great weekend! Edited close to midnight BELOW I'm so sad.....MAX LOVELY is ending in Ribon with the January 2004 issue :( Just when the manga summaries for MaxLovely.com were being finished and I was catching up to the series it ends...phooey.....there's still so much furoku and collectible goods I want from the series. Things I want! Max Lovely Postcards Max Lovely Ribon Trading cards #s 30, 51, 68, 74 and the new one from the Jan 2004 issue 198 Random Walk ZEN-IN / ZEN IN bag / bookbag Random Walk Ribon 2002 Diary Random Walk Ribon 21 Century Anniversary Clearfile / Clear File - I think from the Ribon Fair or Ribon Festival from either 2000 or 2001 - Nishi Thursday, November 27, 2003 10:56 p.m. I hope you all had a great thanksgiving! :) I slept in late and watched the parade on tv - wishing I coulda been there live with Ricky but oh well! Went down and helped the family cook, went and picked up apple pie and more butter and stuff from the store and we had a very yummy dinner - turkey, stuffing, veggies, mashed potatoes with gravy - the works mmmmm :) So full I seriously don't need to eat till tomorrow night! We're going Christmas shopping tomorrow and need to find a Christmas tree and buy a bunch of new decorations. I love a really beautiful christmas tree but nice ornaments are so expensive! My poor rickers is busy working a 20 hour shift now the Universal Studios Hollywood as a consultant for Accenture. UGH! Cannot believe he had to do this. I finished a song last night that I woudn up titling "Unravelled" that I'm REALLLLLLY happy with :) I began it about 2 years ago and left it just sitting in my song book and last night picked it up and the words just came! Very happy with it. HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE! :) - Nishi Wednesday, November 26, 2003 08:18 p.m. i went and got 2 of my sisters today from their college and when we got back, Nith was home as well as Papa with a new Benz to add to our collection - I swear papa buys and sells benzes like cattle or somethin. It's the only car he'll drive. We own 3 but he always winds up selling 1 and buying a new one. The newest 3rd addition is a 2003 E420 - he didn't want the C240 which *I* loved - he likes bigger cards. Anywayz, so we all get home and after eating, we drank cocoa and played cards and had our usual joking, teasing, crazy insanity time :) was fun :) I think I'm gonna watch the rest of Ultra Maniac eps 16-26. OH ALSO - whenever my sites finally get UP - something's wrong with my friend Amanda's servers who's hosting me - read Max Lovely Manga Summaries! - I edited them and the story is SO nice! I want to go and scan in the pages so people can see them too! HAPPY THANKSGIVING IN ADVANCE EVERYONE! - Nishi Monday, November 24, 2003 11:57 a.m. hey guys :) sorry about the previous posts (deleted them) - had gotten into an argument with ricky and stuff and I was just mad and needed to vent. All's good now :) He called me on Saturday morning with "I forgot to give u something last night (over the phone)" and he gave me a kiss :) hehehe :) Anywayz, Sunday I went to chinese class and afterwards some friends from the class and I went for dim sum - I'd always always wondered what dim sum was and so when we got to a place to eat and were waiting on line I asked one of the guys, Alex, and I was like "Ok this is gonna be a really stupid question (seeing as how I was all 'yes let's get dim sum') but what IS dim sum?" He explained that they bring you a bunch of food to ur table and that's dim sum. I'm thining it's still some kind of food. When we all sat down and they started bringing food to us that's when I understood them BRINGING the food to us - the bringing is the style of, I guess, eating that is called dim sum - kinda like a buffet but they bring the food to you and mark it on a paper what they brought - small to medium dishes are $2/$2.50. Ate until I was stuffed. MMMM good :) The guys from chinese class are funny and cool. They're so diverse and smart. I showed one of the guys, Kevin, where to get fansubs of anime in chinatown and helped him get Fushigi Yuugi! He's gonna be an addict now ;) Next time for class I'm bringing a deck of playing cards and my chess board game - turns out they like chess and cards so it'd be a fun way to spend down time in class or after ;) LOL! Forget chinese ya know - we just wanna play games ;) KINOKUNIYA IS AWESOME. It finally had manga Barnes and Nobles didn't! I got BASARA #3, KARE KANO #6 and MAX LOVELY #4 but they didn't have KODOCHA #10 and neither did B&N. *sigh* And here I thought B&N was doing better than Kino's in having brand new manga right away. I got BRITNEY'S NEW CD! And was kinda disappointed. I only liked the songs "Breathe on Me", "Toxic", "Everytime" and the 2 versions of "Me Against the Music" - the 2nd version being a re-mix with hindi music. It was done well - liked it a lot - some songs out there have crappy hindi music added to it and Britney's was done well. I know I'll definitely have remixes with indian flavor - I'm indian after all! All the other songs on her cd though just didn't impress me and they didn't sound fresh, new or original. They sounded like stuff that's already out there on the market. But those 3 songs made up for it - when she sings "Everytime" I well up with tears! :) GREAT JOB BRITNEY! Do even better on ur 4th album!!!!! She's growing even now and she'll be really amazing one day. I want to see more of her original songs. rmn I'm fine now *HUG* but thank u so much for caring *big hugs*! Lady *HUGS* right back :) it was a better tomorrow :) thanks :) bee umm.....for a teenager u freak me out. Serenity K-la hey sweetie! of course I remember you! :) *HUGS* Eddy ur the best! *HUG* thanks for ur comment on bee too ;) LOL! :) Let's talk on IM soon ok? I added u to friendster by the way. Adrianne thank you *HUGGGG* :) I miss chatting with u! Miyu-chan thank you :) all u have to do is hug and I feel better :) LOL! memory thank you :) *HUGGGG* ur always there with a kind word! I have to run to the post office and do a bunch of errands today and prolly mop too. Busy day ahead. See ya guys later. - Nishi Thursday, November 20, 2003 11:24 p.m. ricky can't come for thanksgiving now :( his company asked everyone working on the project at universal studios hollywood if they could do overtime over thanksgiving weekend and he and everyone on the project said ok. He wants to get a good review so he can eventually leave (he hates the company) so it sucks. I'm almost done copyrighting all my songs. Hopefully I can get to the post office by Saturday and mail everythig out - poor Danielle! She's been waiting for my Full Moon cards for like 3 weeks I think! *HUG* I updated Max Lovely .com with the newest acts from Ribon! The manga summaries for Max Lovely now are almost all up to date and only missing the Feb 2003 - May 2003 acts which I hope to get this Sunday - c'mon Kinokuniya!! Hope they have the new Kodocha and Kare Kano too!!! It's been a long day - night folks. Miyu-chan I'll check out Russel Watson too :) *HUGS* - Nishi Tuesday, November 18, 2003 10:00 p.m. Alex never heard of Josh Groban but I'll try his cd on ur recommendation :) Here's one u should listen to too: TRAVIS :) they've got some nice songs! The song I started 5 days ago is coming along really well. I still need to write 2 or 3 stanzas more. It's called "Magic" and is a love song of sorts. It's frustrating though cause I sing it at 3 different pitches/tones (whatever) and can't determine which one I like best. Agh. Did you guys see the Britney Spears In the Zone special last night? I LOVEEEEEEE her new song "BREATHE ON ME" - I haven't heard a good female-voiced song like that in AGES and watching her sing "EVERYTIME" actually made me cry!!! I'm proud that she wrote that herself! She performs SO well - I'm in awe - and the best thing about it - she's living the dream and she's happy and she's only 22? I hope she continues to have this much success and her people have done an amazing job for her "come back" after the year absence. Caro-chan *HUG* thank you!! Wish I could be as tall as YOU though :) Miyu-chan HAHAHAHAH u always crack me up *big hugs* here's to hoping right? ;) See ya guys later. - Nishi Monday, November 17, 2003 12:56 p.m. I grew! I actually grew! I'm 4ft 9! I've been 4ft 8 1/2 for who knows HOW long and when I took my mom to the doctor's today he measured my height too and wheeeeee I actually grew! Somehow I actually grew in the past year! I'd been praying to God a lot before to make me taller - maybe He actually answered? LOL! THANK YOU IF YOU DID! I think I'll start asking to be taller again - who knows - maybe I'll be 5ft 6 one day ;) hahahah yeah right - worth a shot though! :D Anywayz, saw the AMAs last night - was sooo good - was thoroughly impressed by BRITNEY, PINK and OUTKAST. PINK belting out her song beautifully to guitar accompaniment was classic! I think a LOT of songs should be sung that way to showcase the beauty of the songs and the talented voice of the artist and she did it beautifully! That Kimmel guy was actually like "It's always a pleasant surprise when someone can actually sing" which was a pretty good compliment to Pink. I'm watching Britney Spears' In The Zone tonight (ABC 8pm EST) - I'm gonna buy her cd when I hit the city next Sunday. There's this song/poem I wrote for one of my sites way back in 1999 - I've been working on it the past 4 days and it's so hard - I wrote 2 different versions and still working on them to figure out which sounds best and will get across what it is I'm trying to say when I was inspired by the music and the words I wrote those 4 years ago. I typed out both lyrics though and am mailing them out tomorrow to be copyrighted. They both use the same tune but the lyrics to the 1st one sound too folksy and TOO DEEP - way too poetic and I dunno if people will GET it....maybe it'll just be best to keep it as a poetic song just for my ears only...but the 2nd lyrics are definitely pop and romantic and it's a love song. Great just great! I talked to my ex (the 1st love u guys have readabout before) and he told me that my height was 4 ft 9 only because doctor measures me early in the morning - it was almost NOON actually - and he says it's a fact that bones contract during the day. NO NO NO I told him! I'm 4f 9! Don't burst my bubble! But he said it's true so tonight I'm gonna measure myself! I BETTER STILL BE 4ft 9!!!!!!!!!! He found this site that says "You shrink one half an inch during the day due to compression of the spinal column." NO NO NO NO NO I'm 4ft 9! I'm finally 4ft 9!!!! I BETTER BE 4ft 9 tonight! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH I'm gonna go drink some milk. - Nishi Saturday, November 15, 2003 05:32 p.m. Never underestimate the power of mallu (short for malayalee) aunties! That's what I told my friend Eddy in an IM a lil while ago. 2 aunties from church who are old family friends visited mummy this afternoon cause everybody knows she's not well (still) and so after talking with her they wanted to help. No matter how much we told them no no no we're fine they wouldn't take no for an answer and wound up cutting and cleaning fish for us. I couldn't believe it! How sweet and nice are they? Gracey and Eliamma (Aleyama?) Aunties - sooo nice. It's a nice thing that we're here in this neighborhood with church and family friends so near by. Papa had said it was ok a couple days ago for Ricky to come for thanksgiving so YAAAAAAY that means we're gonna see the Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade for the first time! I'm gonna drag my sisters with me! We can cook after we get home. I love the holidays - can't wait for turkey day! I started reading LUCKY Magazine today and can't believe I ever lived without it. AMAZING stuff in there that I can't wait to buy!!!!! :D Once I have more money that is. ;) mmmm can smell the fish curry cooking - can't wait to eat. See ya guys later. - Nishi Friday, November 14, 2003 09:54 p.m. I'm officially a Britney Spears fan. I watched her interview with Diane Sawyer last night and saw her burst into tears and finally saw her as a real person - a real human being just like u and me and she won me over! My heart went out to her and now I support her as an artist. I'd always liked her songs but hadn't felt drawn to her enough to call myself a fan and now, definitely. I'm buying IN THE ZONE soon as it's out. I hope she and Justin get back together one day. Today was one crazy day. I had cramps from u know what and drove my mom to another doctor's appointment and when we got back the fish guy game and we bought 2 huge boxes of fish that papa, mummy and I spent the whole afternoon cutting up and boxing and putting away in the freezer. My hands were so frozen from being out in the cold and bagging the gross fish that when I finally tried to warm them in lukewarm water they HURTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. I HATE HATE HATE the cold! Helped cut pork and ate yummy sushi (california rolls) for dinner. Rebecca ur welcome! *HUG* I hope you watch LOTR sometime soon! GOOD LUCK this weekend at Japan EXPO!!!! You guys know how my friend Ami won one of the Miss India titles in India last year? She won 2nd place and goes on to represent India in the Miss World pageant. Well she'll be in the Miss World pageant Dec. 6th from China and the Miss World website is conducting a vote thing. PLEASE VOTE FOR HER!!! About Ami http://www.missworld.org/contestants.asp?item=95&page=4 Here is where you vote: http://www.missworld.org/voting2.asp I really, really hope she wins something! It's weird how you meet people, everyday normal people and they go on to surprise you and do amazing things. I'm amazed at her and hope that one day I might have as much success as she was blessed with - and worked hard for! It's one of those cold nights here in NY where u just wanna curl up in bed and watch tv and read magazines and drink hot cocoa. That's what I'm gonna do :) Have a nice night people *HUGS* - Nishi Thursday, November 13, 2003 06:02 p.m. I ordered my Arwen and Aragorn Dolls from BARBIE - have you? Grab em now before they get sold out like the extremely rare Arthur and Guinevere dolls. *WARNING BEFORE YOU READ ANY FURTHER* LOTS OF POLITICAL VIEWS BELOW THAT MAY OFFEND PEOPLE. IF YOU THINK YOU MIGHT DISAGREE AND GET OFFENDED - DON'T READ - I WARNED YOU - AND IF YOU READ AND GET ANGRY AND DECIDE TO COMMENT OR EMAIL - I'LL DELETE, DELETE, DELETE :D I caught up on my NY Times reading this afternoon and soooo much interesting stuff! I'm going to browse through a copy of Stanley Greene's Open Wound: Chechnya 1994 to 2003 a book that shows his photographs of the horrible things people went through in that ravaged country. Here's an excerpt from something he said in the NYTIMES articles linked. "The Russians have hated the Chechens for 300 years," Mr. Greene said. "As someone said, they want Chechnya without Chechens. The problem is that the West has never come down on Russia for its treatment of the Chechens, so the Russians can get away with murder. In 1999 when Putin was prime minister, he fired two guided missiles into the central market of Grozny. And the world said nothing, nothing, and they killed a lot of people." - Stanley Green - Open Wound Chechnya 1994 - 2003 Other interesting stuff Iran Leader says U.N. Report REMOVES Suspicions of Weapons - I honestly wish people would stop hounding Iran. It may be Islamic, it may even not like the U.S. very much and it may very well have the knowledge and capabilities of making nuclear weapons but that does not mean it's some crazy country out to make nuclear weapons and use them so stop treating them like they're one! Our Man in Havana an excellent article about why economic sanctions are terrible and don't work and hurt people and have NOT been effective in the majority of states it was used against, continues to be ineffective against these same states and it's been like this for over 20 years. Attacks in Saudi Arabia aimed to Rattle the Dynasty - I have a lot of new respect for the Saudi Dynasty after reading a very in depth and LONG article in the National Geographic in October. I had never known before that how advanced the government and society was or how it ran and how the Kings met with their people - big and small to hear all complaints and requests and handled them - from things as little as problems with animals, land to acquiring buildings and overseas mergers etc. HOWEVER I have no respect for the Saudi men who majority are just lazy bums who don't work at ALL - they import in laborers and people to hold positions from menial jobs to high paying technology jobs. Saudi men in general all have degrees in theology and no skills and won't do work that's beneath them - THAT i have NO respect for! The country could improve a LOT in that respect. WORLD TRADE ORGANIZATION rules that the U.S.'s tarrif against steel is illegal and BOY DO I AGREE. Well ok maybe not illegal but not right. In retaliation, Europe and other countries are doing a $2million (or is it billion?) sanction on various U.S. imports! The Steel Tarrif is NOT necessary and it hurting people more than helping. And I think sanctions or reverse tarrifs on US imports would FARRRRR outweigh any steel tarrif benefits so c'mon BUSH ADMINISTRATION - fix things and abide by the WTO - it would show some solidarity and would show that the US doesn't put itself above the international community's decisions. People in the Bush Admin are already advising Bush to ignore the WTO. Sure sure, ignore em G.W. but then when you and our country feels some other country is being unfair to US let's see how well that country abides by the WTO's decision because it has the past example of the big, mighty US ignoring the WTO.