A Dream I Dream . . .

Welcome to Nishi's Journal, part of her personal page, A Dream I Dream.

Nishi is a 25 year old Indian American who recently graduated from law school and took the N.Y. State Bar Exam! She's on her way to becoming an attorney and eventually wishes to work for human rights and peace policy. She's an avid Japanese anime and manga fan who collects Ribon and Nakayoshi and is a web designer as well. Her major sites include: UsagiandMamoru.com, MiakaandTamahome.com, and TooyaandAya.com. She also collects anime goodies, see her Treasures. Sometimes she has items for sale or almost ALWAYS on Ebay Auctions.

This journal is a place for me to vent, to share,
and to catch up with friends. Come see the world
through my eyes.

- Nishi

Tuesday, November 12, 2002
12:58 p.m.
Updated 10:37pm BELOW

still coughing :( still feel sick :( I'll drink water Tweety *HUG* Adrianne, you're sick too? *HUG* If anyone out there writes Sailor Moon fiction, I have an Autumn Fic Challenge going on at the UsaMamoFics list: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/usamamofics and if you're an Usagi and Mamoru fan, make sure you join the Usagi and Mamoru Mailing List: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/usagiandmamoru

I have to go wash dishes, and then I'm going to make some tea or cocoa and watch my episode of Friends I recorded last Thursday, but never got to watch. I think I'll go and rent Harry Potter too.

Oh and it's raining like the dickens outside! Rained yesterday and now today too - feels like spring even though snow is just around the corner!

Wai!! WAI!! Thanks Rebecca!! ADV To Launch 24-Hr Cable Anime Network - 24 hour ANIME! *SOB* I WANT!!!!!!!!! I hope it comes with basic cable!! Or my dad won't pay extra for it!

Updated 10:37pm

need to get up at 6:30 to leave the house at 7am for mummy to get her emergency passport and then for mummy, papa, and I to all go to Mekha's Phi Beta Kappa honour thing....mummy's going to India (with papa) for appachen's (grandfather's) surgery of the malignant cancerous growth in his mouth and they won't come back till AFTER thanksgiving. That means no thanksgiving this year :(

I'm sitting here bored, purposeless, and coughing. I feel so...weird sad/depressed....empty....like my life isn't doing anything meaningful anymore. *sigh* this feeling will pass....wonder if I'm pmsing again. I'm off to bed. Night everyone

- Nishi

HAPPY VETERAN'S DAY! And HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND NEIL!!!
Monday, November 11, 2002
02:50 p.m.
Updated 8:50pm - BELOW
WHEW! Finished cleaning the WHOLE HOUSE by myself cause that priest is coming over today at 4pm and staying for the night. I cleaned the bathroom, swept all the floors, vaccuumed the whole house, and cleaned the guestroom he's sleeping in and changed both its bedsheets and my own bed sheets and my room looks SO nice now :D

I'm going to take a shower and make some brownies afterwards and then have some lunch. I'm running on a bowl of Honey Bunches of Oats! I think I'm getting sick.....I get sick once a year and it's always a doozy! I felt a cough starting last night and I've sneezed 3 times today. NOT a good sign huh?

Brownies will make the house smell good :) I love walking into a house that smells of delicious foods baking :D

See you all later tonight!

Updated 5pm

mannnnn now I have to help my mom cooook! *Sigh* after all that cleaning and just after enjoying a nice egg sandwhich and hot cocoa and 4 of the nice brownies I made. My mom and dad might be going to India for my mom's dad's surgery (grandfather) and so I might be in charge here at home again....wow....

Updated 8:50 pm

another sneeze...and i really thing i have a lung cough now......it's not going away :( I don't feel good at all :( Im so sleepy and tired - I took a nap after that Priest came cause mummy needed help making cabbage thoran (grated cabbage which is then made into this delicious cabbage-thing!) and cooking chicken curry. I napped for like an hour and I felt so awful - sick.......

wonder if mummy and papa really are going to go to India for appachen's surgery......

- Nishi

Sunday, November 10, 2002
05:00 p.m.
Hi everyone! Woke my groggy self UP at 6:30am for church - wore this beautiful blue salvar (I'll put the pics up later) that mummy got from india. Church was nice - youth league meeting about thanksgiving donation and how to do it....after dropping off food at my twin sisters' dorms, we went to our new house to see the construction now that the foundation's been laid. It's going to be so beautiful! It got as high as 70 degrees! My feet were aching though so I as mummy and papa spent an HOUR just walking around, looking at the construction vehicles do their job, I waited by the car watching the leaves fall, hoping one would land on me. This dang mouse ran around us at the construction site and scared the living daylights out of me!

Came home and ate lunch - made myself a tuna sandwhich special on cinnamon raisin bread. It's actually GOOD! I'm so sleepy and tired. That achen (priest) from india is visiting us tonight - prolly in next couple hours - wonder if he's staying over. Nithi's leaving tonight.

In honour of thanksgiving coming up, I drew Serenity and Endymion celebrating :) It looks much better in person and this is all my videophone's picture snapping thing can do.

- Nishi

Saturday, November 9, 2002
08:38 p.m.
Updated at 11:46 p.m. Below
Oh my god! This artist, Anne Greensleaves or something is AMAZING! Check out her Harry Potter illustrations!!! I *WISH* she could illustrate for Harry Potter books! http://ayne.iespana.es/ayne/hpbook.htm I love how she drew Hermione!

I just came back from this party. It was for this guy who had his confirmation today (a mallu - malayalee - party) and it was nice! Met a lot of new people. My parents were making me so bored - I had already finished eating and evertything and Iwas like "ok let's go?" and mummy's like, we can't just come, eat, and go. But I hadn't minded cause I didn't know the people that well. And I said well...we can't just sit here, all quiet, finished with our food, and just looking around at people, I'm bored! So they laughed and told me I can go around. So I said YAAy I'm gonna go and talk to people! and I finally got to have some fun. This one guy, Tony, and I swapped sorority/fraternity stories. He's a senior in college so I told him about my sorority horrors when I pledged and became a sister of Delta Phi Epsilon in my sophmore year of college. The people who threw the part, their daughters were really cool! Both in high school and we had a nice time talking.

Church tomorrow....and we get to have the long haul drive after church to my little twin sisters' college in Long Island to bring 'em food. Nithi, my other sister, came up home today and is staying till tomorrow evening.

Rebecca!!!! *huggles* you're perfect for Mulan! I wanna see pics of you as Mulan! RameoG, dude, you want me to bust ur head open ;) I'll show u some venting! :D Leanne u couldn't email me? ARGGHHH what the heck is wrong with BigMailBox.com!! Those are the people I use for my email and I pay so much money a month for their email service and people can't email me? GRRR write to me at be83398@yahoo.com ? Then we can talk :)

Ok I'm off for the night.

Updated at 11:46 p.m.
I'm back to list a bunch of books I want to read. All the books listed on: http://www.perseusbooksgroup.com/politics/series.worpol2.html

International Human Right by Jack Donnelly (University of Denver
Global Environmental Politics by Gareth Porter, Janet Brown and Pamela Chasek - Westview Press ISBN: 0-8133-6845-6 Series: DILEMMAS IN WORLD POLITICS
Madeleine Albright and the New American Diplomacy by Thomas W. Lippman
Everything You Think You Know About Politics...And Why You're Wrong by Kathleen Hall Jamieson Basic Books ISBN: 0-465-03627-9 - A New Republic Book
The Campaign Manager Running And Winning Local Elections, Second Edition by Catherine Shaw Westview Press - ISBN: 0-8133-6848-0
The European Union - Dilemmas Of Regional Integration by James A. Caporaso, University of Washington Westview Press ISBN: 0-8133-2583-8 Series: DILEMMAS IN WORLD POLITICS
Humanitarian Challenges And Intervention by Thomas G. Weiss & Cindy Collins ISBN: 0-8133-6799-9 Series: DILEMMAS IN WORLD POLITICS
Dilemmas Of International Trade by Bruce Moon, Westview Press ISBN: 0-8133-6768-9 Series: DILEMMAS IN WORLD POLITICS
The United Nations In The Post-Cold War Era by Karen A. Mingst & Margaret P. Karns ISBN: 0-8133-6847-2 Series: DILEMMAS IN WORLD POLITICS
The correspondence of John Locke / edited by E. S. De Beer.
Indian studies in philosophy / Ramchandra Pandeya.
Renaissance thought and its sources / Paul Oskar Kristeller ; ed. Michael Mooney
From Descartes to Kant; readings in the philosophy of the renaissance and enlightenment, by T. V. Smith and Marjorie Grene
Capacity building in national environmental policy : a comparative study of 17 countries / Helmut Weidner, Martin JÞanicke, (eds.) ; in collaboration with Helge JÞorgens. (2002)
The wealthy barber : everyone's commonsense guide to becoming financially independent / David Chilton
The Greenwood encyclopedia of international relations / Cathal J. Nolan. (2002)
Legal systems of the world : a political, social, and cultural encyclopedia / edited by Herbert M. Kritzer (2002)
Exploration of space : issues and status / Vivian M. Abelson, editor. (2002)
Culinary herbs / Maggie Oster
The big book of flowers / A. Cort Sinnes.
Wastewater reuse in agriculture in Vietnam : water management, en /vironment and human health aspect: s proceedings of a workshop held in Hanoi Vietnam 14 March 2001 Liqa Raschid-Sally, Wim van der Hoek and Mala Ranawaka, editors
Deadly arsenals : tracking weapons of mass destruction / Joseph Cirincione, with Jon B. Wolfsthal and Miriam Rajkumar.
books about the brain
books about archeology

- Nishi

Friday, November 8, 2002
03:47 p.m.
Updated: 11:29 p.m. BELOW!!
You know - some people are major jerks! Even after I said NOT to direct link to the quiz images, they still direct link. Losers. I'm going to have to check with my hosting company on how to put a .htaccess file into the quiz directory to prevent direct linking.

Anywayz, turns out my grandfather went to the hospital and DR. told him to come back next Thursday and he'd be admitted and surgery would take place next week. Who knows why. But at least it's a slight relief to mummyy's mind.

Guess what came in the mail this week! My dancing Princess Serenity!!

Unfortunately, no batteries included so I can't make it dance and although it's in pretty good condition, the doll was loose in its box, hair somewhat messy and the DRESS - geez - i'm gonna have to hand wash it to get the dingy and slightly dust stains off it. I coulda paid $100 (incl shipping) for mint doll but I thought that's what I was getting when I paid $49 for it + 25 shipping (total $74). Other than those mild imperfections which can be fixed, it's gorgeous!! It's amazingly beautiful and will have a place of honour next to my Neo Queen doll.

I'm on Chapter 24 of Harry Potter Book 4 and I'm warming up to Hermione and Ron :) They'd make a CUTE couple! :D but I still am not too fond of this Cho girl yet for Harry. Hmph.

Updated: 11:29 p.m.
YEE HAW! Finished Harry Potter Book 4!!! And yes it was a great book (book 3 and 1 though are my favorites) - I cried when you-know-who died in the book (not you know who voldermort but the you-know-who who died - innocent *SOB*) my tears are all over those specific pages....too bad it's a library book, isn't it?

anywayz, MANDA!!!!!!! I didn't know you read journals! I just went and got your blog and wanna know if it's ok to link it? (I have already :D) if it's not ok, lemme know! I hope my grandfather will be ok too! He's 74! DIANAAAAAAAA you guys have GOT to see Diana's journal - it's so pretty! I love blue, light-purple, and dark-red journals - so peaceful on the eyes. Diana, hermione is my hero too! She's so cool! :D Callie-chan, thank you for your prayers! *big hugs* Adrianne! *huggle* they didn't leave u a tip for liking HP? Dang muggles! grrr! :D Miyu-chan, for everyone's sake I hope your take is right! :D *big hugs to you too* :)

I did my nails tonight for the party tomorrow (did my mom's nails too! :)) - we're going to some party to celebrate the confirmation of some 13 year old indian catholic. Should be fun - it's at a chinese buffet resturaunt - yummyyy!

I'm off to check email and read all your blogs! BYE :D

- Nishi

Thursday, November 7, 2002
12:30 p.m.
Updated: 9:01pm

why do I even bother.......*sigh*....WHY?....(forget it, not gonna write about in here)

In other news, I love Harry Potter! Finished Book 3 in 4 hours! GOD I LOVED BOOK 3! How can Book 4 be better?? Mann I wanted Hermione to get together with Harry! Harry & Hermione - how cute is that? Now who's this Cho Chang girl? hmph. Don't tell me Ron & Hermione end up together!! I want Harry & Hermione! *crosses fingers*

My grandfather in India (mom's dad) has what they believe is a cancerous growth in his mouth. Mummy was so upset :( She called him last night and I got to talk to him in malayalam - I sounded like such a kid. He sounded well and I have a feeling it'll all be ok. We called him cause he's going into the hospital for surgery and has to stay for a month there and mummy's worried cause how will he eat? how will he talk? And after all of this, will his health go down the tubes? :(

so on that sad note, I bid adieu.

Updated 9:01 p.m.

I got more of the Nishi-ehhing today ;) This time it was:
mummy: gather all this oil and walk to the backyard-edge of the woods and throw it out
me: aww mannnn
mummy: it's not that cold and use your hands (to get all the oil out of the pan)
me: (muttering) use my hands? no way jose! I used a leaf instead :D

this oil from ground meat had hardened and YUCK to think THAT'S what's in people arteries - GROSS.

Anywayz, after talking to my friend Leeza online, who's one of the nicest friends I ever made and who's very religious and loves God and Jesus - she's in a school of theology, I realized I am definitely a moderate democrat and that the thought of conservative Christian rightwingers imposing their moral values and beliefs upon others makes me sick! I may be Christian and uphold almost all Christian ideals and values but I believe strongly that we shouldn't be saying "this is bad", "that is bad" and being bigoted and narrow-minded. My problem is, when I see others behaving in what I perceive as narrow-minded, I instantly set up arms - I need to see it from their point of view - there's no way to reach peace and compromise if you're upset at the way they think and can't meet 1/2 way to understanding why they feel the way they do.

For instance on issues of wicca - from what I understand of it, I may not agree with a pagan-style worship of a Goddess but I also would NOT discriminate against them! They're decent human beings like you or me and I know a few old friends who became wiccan. Their heart is in the right place, as is ours - only difference is we believe in different things. It's just like Christians to act like what they believe is the only true right thing and everybody else is falling prey to Satan and are sinners. *sigh* Honestly, I just want God to judge all of us, and us to stop judging others and just live to be good, decent people who try to do what is right and good for each other - even if what we do or believe is opposite of what Christians believe. I wish more Christians were more tolerant but they're not....at least the more vocal ones are not.

This is what bothers me about the Republican control of the government right now. We got bungling-Bush, who's a sweet and really deep-down good guy, but whose statements and actions in foreign policy has only increased foreign distaste of Americans. And some people are proud of the fact that Bush is such a vocal Christian, aligning our nation with Christianity, but this bothers me because we're not SUPPOSED to be linked with any religion - we're supposed to be a nation that accepts all races, cultures, religions etc etc without imposing any one culture's/religion's beliefs or customs on the others.

all food for thought I guess. I'm on Chapter 15 of 37 in Book 4 of Harry Potter. To think bunch of Christians are in a hoot-and-holler over Harry Potter! It's make believe! If you think kids or adults reading Harry Potter are gonna jump on the occult bandwagon, ur nutty and aren't teaching your kids properly from the outset! Maybe my assumptions are off wack, but I'm assuming most kids have a healthy knowledge of what's safe and unsafe and occult practices --> unsafe/bad life. And they that a book is just make believe, something fun for the imagination. I still would LOVE to do magic, to fly, to meet Merlin and believe he and King Arthur and Guinivere existed, and LOVE to read and write fantasy books but do you see me running off to join an occult? I was raised by God-fearing parents and will raise my own kids in that way. They'll know better than to read a book and go "ooh - magic - let's join an occult" - if I'm such a bad mother as to wind up with kids like that, I'll shoot myself!

It all comes down to education and parenting. If you're doing a good job with ur kids, u can trust they won't stray down bad paths but will be good kids no matter what they believe - whether it be christianity, judaism, islam, hindu-gods, buddha, wicca or whatEVER. AND JUST FOR THE MATTER - the wiccan's religion is actually very peace-loving!

- Nishi

New Personality Quiz! Which Woman of Legend Are You?
Wednesday, November 6, 2002
12:53 a.m.
Updated: 11 a.m.
I spent weeks making this quiz and FINALLY finished it tonight! It's just for WOMEN but don't worry guys - after I research, I'll have a male version too ok? :D

Every girl (or guy who's interested) Find out which Woman of Legend You Are!

Which Woman of Legend Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

Morning everyone! You guys thank you for liking the quiz!! I only wish I could find research material on some. And I wish people could direct link to it but my poor domain is already loading slowly because of the direct linking quizzes.

ya know....I should stop calling someone cause I get hanged up on a lot. *sigh*

Callie-chan, I'm going to get Harry Potter Book 3 and Book 4 today! (hope it's in the library!) Sawah, I can upload whomever you got onto miakaandtamahome.com and you can link to that :) Leanne, you have no idea how good that makes me feel *HUG* thank you so much! Where you from? Whadya do? Have a journal or site? I'd love to know more about you. Tweety! yaaay! I thought I would get Mulan but happy I got Jahanara :) Diana, awww good! You got Jahanara too? YAAY! We should form a Jahanara fan club ;) HAHA JK! :D Don't think I could do any more online activities than I already do!

- Nishi

Tuesday, November 5, 2002
1:26 p.m.
Updated 5:15pm Below
Happy Election Day people!! I'm voting on a straight democratic-party line! I read over almost every NY governor's and my district's Assemblyman's stances and found I liked all the democrats. One or two republicans were great but their opposing democrats better. I think I'll head out soon. Wonder if my favorite salon is closed on Election day and if the library is too....I wanna get the last 2 Harry Potters :D I got up to page 70 in River God - material is so disturbing in that book but it IS a beautifully written book.

*AHEM* Announcing UsagiandMamoru.com's New 2002 Charity: The Humane Society of the United States! My friends and visitors, this Christmas/Winter Season/Hannukkah my small organization, the UsagiandMamoru.com Scholarship and Charity Foundation, wants to raise at least $150 to send to the Humane Society. Even if you don't celebrate the holidays, any small donation can help! Please see: UM.com's Charity HomePage for more details. All we ask is $1. Sarah Beth, I still need a list of all donors from year 2000 *HUGGGGG* Sawah is the best Treasurer I could ask for! Turns out we didn't do a charity drive last Winter.

The CHAT last night was SO MUCH FUN! Even RameoG showed up! In all about 13-15 people showed up throughout the night and I'm very glad. Am going to host weekly chats on Monday nights from now on.

I'm really not sure what to do with myself right now.....I should jog since I haven't in over a week or two but with the woodburning stove kicking away down here, it makes it hot to jog on the treadmill, and I should go to the salon (if it's open) and I should take a shower and go vote but not sure exactly where they're doing the voting (hehehe) - gawd my life's a mess. It just takes 1 thing messing up to feel like you're not following your right track/path.

I finished jogging just now :) Ran for 30 minutes at 4.7mph - Red Hot Chili Peppers' City of Angels song came on - how I LOVED that group and that song! Had the biggest crush on the lead singer - what was his name again? Couldn't have been that big a crush if I forget the name huh? ;) I'm waiting for mummy to finish her shower so I can shower. I'm gonna bring up the Nov trip to LA again with papa . . . everybody hang on for stormy weather again! I want to go tentatively Nov 16-25th....we'll see....I don't wanna fight again! I told mummy I had to talk to papa about it and she said she wanted to be out of the house first before we started yelling. HA HA. *sigh*

- Nishi

Monday, November 4, 2002
1.19 p.m. EST
Updated at 8:25pm below

I'm hosting another chat tonight at 9pm EST (6pm PST) and it'll last until midnight or 1am EST. Location: http://www.usagiandmamoru.com/chat/chat1.html - so come and join me!!! :D

RameoG, ha ha verrryyy funny! Don't go into comedy :P ShaRukh same goes for you pal! Empathizing my foot ;) Adrianne it's ok!! *HUGS* I hope you come to tonight's chat!!

I'm working today on emailing and faxing employers - fun fun. I'm ITCHING to read the 3rd Harry Potter book. I feel like my friend Neil who said when he finished the 4th book that he was itching to read the 5th which hasn't come out yet. ARGGHHHHHHH now I know how he FEELS!

I'm inviting one or more of my cousins over this weekend - it'll be so much fun to have them! My sister, Mekha, is being honoured by the national honour society Phi Beta Kappa and so we have a special lunch to go to for her next Wednesday and THIS weekend we have some party to go to or was that next weekend? I forget but November's going to be a busy month. *Sigh* I really miss ricky and want to see him. I don;t know HOW I can see him with my dad staunchly refusing and fighting for the right to see him might just lead to another huge blow out. Am I really going to end this whole year without having seen him again??? This sucks. If I passed the NY State Bar then I'm going to register and study for the CA bar as well. I learned I can "waive" into the D.C. bar if I had a passing score of 133. To pass NY you need a 166. Ay chi wa wa. okie it's back to work I go!

COME TO THE CHAT TONIGHT!!!!!!!

It's 8:25 and I've been reading RIVER GOD by Wilbur Smith and GOD! The horrible stuff people did (and still do in our world today) - I read about horrible abuse of little slave boys :( the *gelding* of a man (losing his....stuff down there) and the horrible torture and killing of this young girl...I wanted to write down what was written in the book but when reading it I burst into tears! How can man be so cruel? The book is about ancient egypt but it's not different from our world today - the horrible sexual abuses, the torture and rape and mutilation of women and children - it's SICK - FUCKING SICK! This girl in the book - she had this rope tied around her head and a baton slipped into the lip and twisted until her skull burst open and all the while she'd been screaming; this guy was acting in a play and brutally killed in front of the audience - sliced limb by limb as the audience clamored for his blood. WHAT THE HELL. And I *know* this kind of stuff happens right now in our world - happened right in America during the 50's and 60's with the lynching of black men by the Klu Klux klan. It's horrible. This whole WORLD is sick and horrible and I HATE IT. *THIS IS WHY I WANT TO GET INTO POLITICS AND PUBLIC AND INTERNATIONAL AFFAIRS!* SO I can make a damn difference and help stop the suffering of people by other cruel peoples. Man is its own worst enemy.

- Nishi

Sunday, November 3, 2002
11:18 p.m.
nishiiiii-ehhhhhh - can you read this title and contract and tell me what it means?
nishiiiii-ehhhhhhh - what's erect mean in building?
nishiiiiii-ehhhhhhhh - can you warm up some rice
nishiiii-ehhhhh - can you get the clothes from downstairs, and make spaghetti and meat-sauce please?
nishiiiii-ehhhhhh!!

I want a new name.

anywayz, I finished the first 2 harry potter books today! I'm moving on to read The River God tomorrow :) I don't have a lot to write.....life's been kinda boring....no new news on the employer-front......I found out that my bar results come out starting November 11 and definitely during the week of Nov. 18th. *crosses fingers*

I'm in love with cinnamon raisin bread - toasted and buttered.

Jeremy, of course you can link! I'll link you too!!! Lizzy-chan!! I had wondered what happened to you! You seemed to vanish!! Sawah *HUGS* I think I'll hold another chat Monday night because Saturday night was bad for a lot of people it seems. :) Tweety! it was great meeting you in the chat yesterday! I hope we talk more! Crystal! wonderful to meet you!! Hope you visit often and leave me the addy to your own website or journal. Amy! So glad you enjoyed the SM manga translations! It's beautiful isn't it? Hey Hemal!! Hope all is well with you! RameoG! I got Eowyn's new livejournal and will add it!!

This is the first time I've been online all day so lots to check on. Ciao peoples :)

- Nishi

Saturday, November 2, 2002
12:14 p.m.
I gotta rush and get ready and run errands. So much to DO! This is a quick message to SAY that if anyone's a Sailor Moon fan, I'm hosting a live chat on my site: UsagiandMamoru.com SailorMoon Chat TONIGHT beginning 9pm EST! If I'm late, it's just cause I'm helping out the family :D So if you wanna come and just have a fun chat - then COME ON!!

- Nishi

Saturday, November 2, 2002
01:05 a.m.
sometimes it becomes painfully obvious when you're not the woman you wish to be. painfully aware that you allow yourself to keep falling short. painfully aware what you do and are is wrong and can be fixed, but are not fixing it. sometimes you know you're killing your only hope. and you let it. you let it. until you get so angry at yourself and what you've allowed to happen - knowingly or unknowingly in naive innocence - that you attack everything - wanting to change it all drastically - reclaim yourself. and what then? you sit nursing your wounded self......comes to no good....any of it. *sigh*

Friday, November 1, 2002
04:58 p.m.
what a miserable, gloomy day! I can't remember it ever being sunny the day after halloween. It always rained here but rain is ok - it's the gloomy dark accompanying it in these fall/winter months I hate. A summer rain I love :)

Anyway, got up reluctantly today at 10:30am and went with mummy to run errands - got my driver's license changed to a new pic and registered as a democrat! No longer republican - wow I feel free. We hit a whole bunch of stores and didn't get home till after 1:30 and I had yummy cinnamon raisin bread toasted with butter - GAWDDD that tastes good.

Can anyone tell me what happened on Friends last night? The timer on the vcr was never changed for day light savings time :( Been washing dishes and cutting up broccoli and beans - we're having this Achen (priest) from India stay with us tomorrow (till who knows when) - this guy is one of those kinda priests who come to the U.S. to say some speeches and make money for themselves and go back but while here they hit up on everyone they know to stay with them and get rides to and from everywhere. My parents of course said yes but now my dad is wondering how to juggle all his appointments and my mom is stressing over what to cook and we spent SO long cleaning yesterday - all this stuff takes away the fun of having guests over.

I'm reviewing a contract for papa now and got some stuff to take care of.......I need to e-mail more employers but gosh I feel so unwilling to go through all the effort only to come up empty handed. My bar results come in the next 2-3 weeks. I hope I passed.

Ricky if you read this! I hope the other interview today went well :)

- Nishi

Thursday, October 31, 2002
8:31 p.m.
UPDATED from 5pm to 8:31pm to 12:43AM!
As I said to Danielle - what the HECK? The kids visiting our house aren't even in costume! They're wearing jackets and jeans! But i saw some CUUUUTE ghosts and princesses and a SpiderMan boy I wanted to adopt and make a little brother out of :D

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yesterday I spent all afternoon and evening writing a fan fiction work on Rei Hino (Sailor Mars) from Sailor Moon in honour of halloween - in it she falls in love with a vampire :) It will make you laugh and cry! hahah READ READ :D Updated at 12:43am - I just edited it like crazy and fixed plot holes and so much - A Date with a Vampire or I'll Always Be With You - can't decide on the title. *NOW* I am happy with it :D

I have a scary halloween joke to share with everyone! ENJOY :D

This story happened about a month ago in a little Mexican town, and even though it sounds like an Alfred Hitchcock tale, it's real. A guy was on the side of the road hitchhiking on a very dark night and in the middle of a storm. The night was rolling and no car went by, the storm was so strong he could hardly see a few feet ahead of him. Suddenly he saw a car coming towards him and stop. Without thinking about it, the guy got into the car closed the door and then realized there was nobody behind the wheel. The car starts slowly; the guy looks at the road and sees a curve coming his way, scared he starts to pray begging for his life. He is in shock, when, just before the car hits the curve, a hand appears through the window and moves the wheel. The guy, paralyzed in terror, watched how the hand appears every time a curve comes up. Gathering his strength, the guy gets out of the car and runs to the nearest town. Wet and in shock he goes to a cantina and asks for two shots of tequila and starts telling everybody about the horrible experience he went through. A silence envelopes everybody when they realize the guy was crying and wasn't drunk. About half an hour later two guys walked in the same cantina and one said to the other. "Look Pepe, that's the ass who got in the car when we were pushing it."

5:00 p.m.
I just got in from the freezing cold - dunno how kids are gonna stay warm tonight trick or treating. I helped my dad for 2.5 hours outside in the cold wrapping up bushes and assorted other plants to keep the deer from eating them. All I could think about were the poor, starving deer with the ache in their stomachs from hunger finally finding out bushes and poking and prodding trying to get through the black wrap *sob* poor dears....

I had to wash dishes and hand-mop all the floors and THEN go outside and help papa - I was SO beat - this counts as indentured servitude doesn't it? ;) haha :) Anyway, I just came in and am having delicious motta (egg) curry and hot cocoa and mummy wants me to go shopping with her at 6 but I'm like "mama I'm beat" but let's see how I feel after a nice hot shower and cocoa :)

RAMEOGGGGGGGG :) Ramit I'll check icq when I sign on tonight! :) Callie-chan, I had planned to dress up scary and scare the kids as they came to our house but I never got a costume and after this whole frozen ordeal nothing could get me back outside! :D In previous years I'd gone to Times Square for the Halloween Parade or to Haunted houses. I wish I could do something fun this year - oh well, next year :)

SARAH BETH!!! we got a $50 donation for the charity? OH MY GOD that's AWESOME!!!! We've gotta send a thank you letter out. Ya know, lemme make a special UM.com stationary for you to use :) I'll make it tonight!

I'm off to have some hot chocolate and take an even hotter shower. See ya guys later tonight and HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

- Nishi

Wednesday, October 30, 2002
12:44 p.m.
mmmmmm slept till noon.......having Honey Bunches of Oats now......so much to do...I gotta email back Nathan Cummings some writing samples, a coverletter, and a thank you note to my interviewer...........then must start working on contacts and looking for jobs again but this time, in addition to NYC, I'm looking in D.C. and L.A.

mannnn my room's a mess......I talked for the first time in 3 years to my friend Alan from Binghamton! We went to college together and it's been so long! It was great to hear from him :)

Adrianne, bees to honey? I think not! Those guys were like creepy hornets or something......my ricky thinks it's cause I'm short and don't look *tough* enough hahahah - and that I just might have that look that I can be messed with - HAHA that's probably true ;) ShahRukh, well what's your political stance? Lydia, hmmm should I take a bunch of weird face pics? That might be fun......hehehe I'll do some tonight just to show ya I DON'T smile that much! :P~~~ :D RameoG, thanks Ramit :) What happened to Yuke? How's it going with the G-pack of girls? Miyu-channnnn, I need to catch up on your journal! I wanna see a pic of YOU! Got one? :D Louise, as of this entry, you are now on my list of Friend's Journals :)

Ok i gotta clean this room up before my folk's have a conniption and then start working on all this stuff. HEY! Does anyone have a PAID Netzero account they wanna share their login with me? I have a paid netzero account now but papa and I called yesterday and cancelled it cause he doesn't wanna pay for the service now that he has cable modem but he still hasn't gotten wireless and I don't see him rushing out to get one so what am I gonna do dialing in from my room after NZ stops and goes back to 10 hours a month? We get NetZero until Dec 21st they said...(free extra month) but we're paid to Nov 21st and I don't wanna risk any chances....all my stuff is on this computer and I can't work online downstairs in the cold basement at night. Anyone got it and wanna share? :D I'll make you a pretty web-design layout or give you 1 free legal service :) hehehehe

- Nishi

Tuesday, October 29, 2002
09:55 p.m.
I HAD MY INTERVIEW AT NATHAN CUMMINGS TODAY!!!!!!!! :D It went very well and the best thing is, the woman I interviewed with was wonderful and gave me great contact info for people in Washington D.C. and Boston - of practicing lawyers who worked in areas of human rights and environmental and lots of governmental policy! Right up my alley! The woman and I (she shall remain nameless to protect her identity) had a wonderful 2 hour long interview discussion!! From 3 to almost 5! And she really liked me :) The job was for Special Assistant to the President of the Nathan Cummings FOundation and the job description includes conducting meetings, analyzing the many proposals the foundation receives and advising the President which ones to grant funding for and also speaking to directors of ALL departments and working with them - it's a high power job with excellent responsibilities and perks and I KNOW I could do it - the problem is, do I want to? I really want to practice as a lawyer first....but if I have no job still can I really start this and then leave it later to work at a law firm? They really want someone who'll be long-term. Maybe she got that impression - I kinda got the feeling that she wanted to help me with my career but I may not get the position just because I won't be there forever - I didn't tell her anything like that of course - told her I wanted to keep all my options open and working at the foundation would be wonderful for me.

My little toes and left big toe are all bandaged up cause they were bleeding :( It was a horrible long 2 and 1/2 hour commute both to and coming back. And when I went there, I got out to Grand Central and took the #7 to 42nd and walked underground to Port Authority and exited and walked 2 avenues over to 10th avenue and then walked 6 blocks down to where Nathan Cummings was b/t 36th and 37th and my feet hurt! I left home at 11:45 and got there at 2:15. I walked up 36th street and found a deli to eat in while I waited. Ordered an omellete and hot cocoa and that's when I noticed how bad my feet were and how bad my little toes were cut and bleeding from my high heeled shoes. I wore this beautiful long black skirt with a slit up the left leg and this beautiful-feeling long-sleeved white sweater-top. I had at first planned to wear my blue pant-suit but it made me look so young and the black skirt outfit made me look more womanly and mature and more my age and more - Special Assistant material :)

Do you KNOW how many freaking men said stuff to me as I passed? I know spanish so I know what 6 hispanic men said. And when I was crossing a gas station, 2 men sitting in their truck honked at me 3 times to get my attention. And when I crossed the street to get to the deli, some black man was waving at me like nuts from his car at the red light. Another guy at port authority on the way back kept trying to tal to me as I climbed the stairs. HOLY HELL men in the city are creepy! At first I was flattered, but then I have this tendency to smile at people and I didn't want to encourage anyone so I just looked the other way.

Anywayz, gawddd my feet hurttttttt and I finally got back home at 7:35 (leaving that place at 5) and papa picked me up and I chatted with him and mummy about the whole thing. I took a bunch of pics of myself to show ricky about this day and they're below. The last 3 are of me right now. All pics are located on my photo gallery. I like these pics and will prolly use one for the icon for this journal.

- Nishi

Monday, October 28, 2002
09:28 p.m.
My interview with Nathan Cummings is tomorrow. Need to iron my suit and get everything ready....my parents want me to take it if they give me a job offer.....and to work there until the right law firm job comes along.....why does that just make me feel queasy? I'm just worried about losing the free time to seek great law job offers...but I guess they did have a point that I work and can come home and send stuff out at night or on weekends....and during work as well....but still........

Spent all day revising my resume which a load-full of stuff I had done previously. Ricky's friend Ab advised me very well on my resume. It's totally different now and I don't know if I like it but I'll fax it over to him and find out what he thinks of the revised one.....

God I'm hungry!! All I had were pancakes and a banana and a glass of Pepsi all day. Too busy working on resume. RICKERS!!!! I hope you did great on your exam! *MWAH* :) I prayed for ya :D

Hey Seraph!, the only problem with taking another review course for the bar is that majority of students all over the country take barbri and so they've all memorized the same material and been told to write the same things and so as a group, when all their answers are similar with same sentences being spit out, as a group they all pass. Taking other reviewers...you'll probably still pass but why take the chance? Louise!!!, I'm going to add your journal!!! Rence-chan! you're so ecchi and hentai!! my poor innocent eyes! :) HAHAHA Callie-chan, if you sent it to hotmail I may not be getting it because I have it set to only certain users in my address book being able to write me. Send the card to my webmistress@usagiandmamoru.com email account :) Jeremy, yes I think I can accomplish all of those goals in 5 years as long as I stay committed to them and work hard to achieve them. ShaRukh, I was republican up until now and then reviewed their party platform and hated their stance on abortion and maintaining US as #1 worldpower at any cost and I just identify more with democrats now. I'll probably be a moderate democrat with a good dose of conservatism ;) Wind-chan, *HUG* read ur journal ahhaah such tiny entries! wish I knew what was really going on in your life but it's fun to read it!

I'm off to eat :)

- Nishi

Monday, October 28, 2002
03:03 a.m. EST
Dear Nishi - to be read on October 27th, 2003,

Are you doing things to make the visions below come true? if not, you're failing at attaining your dreams.

My 5 year Plan

In 5 years, 2007, recorded and copyrighted all my songs
In 5-10 years, 2007-2012, finish writing L.O.T.I. and my other 2 books
In 5 years, 2007, have a good knowledge of history & current affairs of major nations and countries which have been in political and economic upheaval for the past 20 years.
In 5 years, 2007, be married and emotionally secure, and financially stable but do not necessarily have to be out of debt at that point - in case of masters loans.
In 5 years, 2007, be able to read and speak Japanese, Chinese and Hindi conversationally
In 5 years, 2007, have furthered my skills in drawing, painting, piano and guitar.

What am I going to start doing now to achieve all this? I have all this free time while I wait for bar and a job....

Go to library and get books on history of various nations, get books on economics, and books focusing on international peace, and keep up with various areas of law by reading up on them
Join the Democratic Party and see how you can get involved
Work on UsagiandMamoru.com Scholarship and Charity Foundation's fundraisers for this coming christmas and spring.
Memorize Rence-chan's Japanese kana chart!
Get Learning Japanese CDs from Adrianne
Write more articles (perhaps on the reading materials) for news-based websites and international organizations as well as legal-related articles to keep up my legal research and writing ability.

I'm going to do this.

- Nishi

Sunday, October 27, 2002
08:47 p.m. EST
On my Winamp right now:

Kamikaze Jeanne - God's World Wind
COLDPLAY - Trouble
GARBAGE - You Look So Fine
Mono-Life in Mono from Great Expectations soundtrack
Puddle of Mudd - Blurry
The Corrs - Give me a Reason
Sting - Angel Eyes

Can I tell you guys how brutal church was for me? It took every ounce of energy in me to keep my eyes open. Daylight savings my foot - fall back my foot! I was sleepy like heck! I'm Orthodox Jacobite Christian so we have long services with lots of songs in malayalam and I know most of them by heart but have no clue what they mean. My mind wanders in church - growing up I was so boy crazy I thought about boys in church - and as a kid it was me as She-Ra on my horse and the Castle - hehehe :D growing up in a boony town with nothing to do gave me a very fertile imagination ;) By the end of service though my eyes were swimming and I was SO thankful to sit down and listen to Achen (our priest) drone on about the announcements. Mek and Mil wore saris in honour of their birthday and they looked SO BEAUTIFUL! :D I must have hugged them a million times as we left their college. *sob* I miss them :( I THOUGHT I could sleep on the ride home and M&P even told me I could sleep on the pillow and then they rudely woke me up to go to the vegetable cada - (this mexican vegetable store in New Rochelle near our church) YEESH - dragged my poor sore eyes up and out to shop for stupid fruits and veggies.

We drove past our new house we're building in New Rochelle and the ground's all dug up....I can't believe I'm gonna live in this brand new huge expensive house with an AMAZING lake/reservoir behind us and that I can still go into the woods and play tennis right next door cause there's a Tennis Center to the right of our property.

Driving back from Long Island takes long and after all the errands, we didn't get back home till 3:30/4? Washed dishes and had tuna cutlet and my mom and I chatted and then my sweetheart called and he and I chatted long. All in all had a nice day AND my dad and I are good :) We're I think 99% back to normal.

ShahRukh, HAHAHA you're a riot :) *HUGS* thanks! But I think my dad just MIGHT get that wireless router. I talked to him about it again tonight so I'm gonna *cross my fingers* and hope for the best! :) Miyu-chan, you celebrate Yule? (isn't that christmas? if it's different what's that like?) and lucky - a cd burner - I have heard of Get Right but never needed it before cause I was always away at school. Rence-chan!, thank you :) *HUG* We'll irc soon ok?

Right now I'm in the process of making a new personality quiz. I hope to have it up by end of tonight :)

- Nishi

Sunday, October 27, 2002
12:24 a.m.
my day was great - my night for the past 1-2 hours has sucked. *sigh* so much I can't write about on here......but I'll write about the nice day I had with my sisters and their 19th birthday instead. We hit the doctors and the mall from 11:30-1 and shopped for Harry Potter books (my present to Mekha) and after picking up Carvel's ice cream birthday cake in the shape of a face - has an ice cream cone nose! - we came home to find mummy made tuna fish cutlets! YUMMY! we all ate and washed dishes and hung out talking. We tried to watch UNBREAKABLE with Bruce Willis (guy who steps out of train w/o a scratch on him) but it was SO BORING. GEEZ. Papa got bored and asked us if we really wanted to watch and we shook our heads avidly. I read the first book of Harry Potter and am LOVING it! Why'd I never read this stuff before????

my life is a freaking rollercoaster. *sigh* it's always something.

on the good news front papa and I are almost good again. He was able to talk and joke about ricky and me again and so things are better. Thank you God and thanks for your prayers everyone.

Caroline, *HUGS* who cares about great vision when you're as cute and smart as you are? Lots of men think glasses are sexy - something about glasses on brunettes and blondes in an office? bla bla whatever but they think so. Jeremy, yeah I'm the oldest of 4 girls :) That's me! The leader of the pack - the one who leads the way - haha - I've had so many battles but the nickname for me in my family is the 5yr old baby because in the past when they asked me to get something I couldn't find it and it'd be in plain view or they'd tell me to do something (or get something) and I'd do or get the wrong thing. I blame it on not understand what they meant in malayalam or the fact that I have a hole in my left eardrum! I DO! It was from an infection I had when I was 12 and doctor said I now had a hole there and my hearing is less in that ear. Agh -it could be all that but also the fact that I tend to be absent-minded and not pay attention when people want me to. Vices I've tried to get rid of and succeeded for the most part but which come back in front of family and anyone I love very much or am super close with. Wind, new shoes and shirt? woo hoo! shopping's a healthy habit! Where'd you eat out? And yes! Make sure you write regularly :) *big hugs* RameoG, smile huh? I wish I was smiling now ramit...sometimes when I think life is finally allowing me some happiness, the next second something happens to make me feel worse than dirt or rake my heart over coals...*sigh*....I'll try ok? Good luck with G1 and G2 and G3 - I hope you get together with one of them! My Lovely, awesome, super generous MIYU-CHAN!!!, I dunno how to use dreamweaver! And papa said he's not getting a wireless router and I don't know if he's getting ANY router for that matter so I may be stuck with modem dial up for my computer here in my room. *sigh* but whenever I do get that connection or if you can burn it on CDs?? I'm there!! With address or FTP ready! :D

It's 12:40a.m. now (or 11:40p.m. in daylights savings time) and I need to sleep for church tomorrow. I don't want my sisters to go back. It was so wonderfully loving and happy to have them here. They're one of my primary sources of happiness and affection and love and support through all my bad times and I miss them so much when they're not here.

Good night everyone.

- Nishi

Saturday, October 26, 2002
12:28 a.m. EST
awwwwwww I had SUCH a nice night! My little twin sisters came from college and it was so wonderful to have them home! Soon as they came home we ate dinner all together with mummy and papa and then watched videos from India and papa's commercial - and Mekha kept playing with my hair and I fell asleep with her doing that - it's so relaxing - and then we ate ice cream and then when papa and mummy went to bed, mekha and mili and I stayed up till midnight talking. Well Mili fell asleep around 11 but mek stayed and we talked about all sorts of things from how to further her career in psychology to the Book of Revelations and living in the last days....and I scared her so much about that that before I could leave at midnight she made me tell her every joke I could remember to ease her mind ;) hahahaha

Currently for UsagiandMamoru.com I have a charity for which Sarah Beth is my TREASURER. Mekha and Mili want to help - Mili does business so she wants to help Sarah Beth keep track of the money we receive with bookeeping and accounts receivable stuff ;) Mekha wants to help by finding charities and writing up articles for me on them to put on the charity website. We want to make the charity into a non-profit organization :) I have to talk to Sarah Beth about that.

We also have a Scholarship fund we want to get started. So much to do.....

Anyway....papa and I talking more - worked with him on the computer with cable modem related stuff. We're talking again but there's still the tension over the visiting ricky in LA thing and things aren't back to normal at all. *sigh* oh well - I guess nothing in my life can be perfect....

Tomorrow I take Mili to the eye doctor to get her new classes - I dunno why the twins are the only ones who need glasses. Nithi (my other sister - second born) and I don't have bad vision at all. Ugh - Mek and Mil wear contacts - dunno how they put that thing in their eyes! But it's good cause they have big gorgeous eyes.

Night everyone :)

- Nishi

Friday, October 25, 2002
03:37 p.m. EST
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee cable modem's INSTALLED!!!!!!!! but it's still not lightning fast because the guy said papa's computer has 3 programs (netgear and netbeui or whatever) that are incompatible with their system so it's slowing it down. Ok. It has to be professionally uninstalled. Okie dokie. BUT WHEEEEEEE WE GOT CABLE MODEM and once my dad gets wireless router we get cable all around folks! I CAN WORK ON MY WEBSITES AGAIN - as soon as I move hosts that is.

Lookieee new quiz:

What Breed of Hamster Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Oh yeah - WHAT THE HECK - some CREEPS are doing searches for "malayalee sex" and "nude israelis" and naked somali and arabs - this and that and coming to my journal from them. YOU SICK BASTARDS STOP VISITING MY JOURNAL!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PERVERTS????? I know it's from some news articles or innocent comments I wrote and that search engines spooled but YEESH - yuck yuck yuck - when I check my tracker and find people seeing my writings and know they're the kind of sick creeps who search for that - YUCK.

But I got cable modem - think of the gooooood block out the baddd....goood bad......

I'm gonna go find something to do.

OH YEAH! THAT THIEF'S SITE IS TAKEN DOWN! WOO HOO! The host emailed me back and said they deleted her site - YAAY YAAAY YAAAY! Down with web thiefs. :D

- Nishi

Thursday, October 24, 2002
11:35 p.m.
Sudha Kantor emailed me and wants to meet me for lunch in Trenton :) She's so nice! But I can't go because it's just too far from home. I hope she can meet in NYC. Again she is this amazing Indian woman who works for the governor of New Jersey and also graduated from law school and worked as a lawyer before heading into this legal and policy related position she's in now. It would be so wonderful to speak with her in person.

Still no responses back from all the law firms I sent out resumes and emails and faxes to. *sigh* I have Nathan Cummings Foundation which is great! But I really wanted to work at a lawfirm to start off.

I felt a little better today and was able to work out hard on the treadmill jogging 3 miles in 36 minutes :) and EMINEM'S LOSE YOURSELF was #1 on Z100's Most Requested! FINALLY!

Just doused my nails and cuticles with the Olay Cuticle and Nail Oil Stick - it's a miracle worker - I haven't had dry or peeling skin/cuticles since I started using it and the Olay hand cream. I love taking care of myself and love Oil of Olay :)

Adrianne sent out awesome supportive emails letting people know on mailing lists about the web theft! I hope that horrible site that stole UsagiandMamoru.com's information gets shut down! Louise, thank you for your support :)

I had a fun chat tonight with Bonnie, Adrianne, Ai and Elysia and many others from the Sailor Moon Romance Fan Fiction List :) Was nice :) I should do it more often.

We get CABLE MODEM INSTALLED TOMORROW!!! But I dunno if I can get it hooked up to connect to my computer here in my room. It's being hooked to papa's computer downstairs.....

My little twin sisters are coming home from college tomorrow to celebrate their 19th birthday! :) Can't wait to see them!

I'm off for the night. Good night and sweet dreams everyone.

- Nishi

Thursday, October 24, 2002
12:47 p.m.
I found this hideous person stole all my write ups and images for Cosmos and Chibi Chibi! She took my images and my articles WORD FOR WORD! I emailed, left msg in her guestbook, and uploaded "THIEF" images so that all the images she was stealing - direct link - bandwidth thief! - would say "thief you stole this image from UsagiandMamoru.com" and this morning she had removed the images but STILL left up my content! I reported her to freewebs for copyright infringement and abuse by direct linking and made screen caps of all the info she stole. The thief's site is: Cosmis Moon's "Truth About Chibi Chibi" - UGH I HATE THIEVES!!!!!! Compare to my site: UsagiandMamoru.com's Cosmos and Chibi Chibi - TRUTH and UsagiandMamoru.com's Cosmos and Chibi Chibi - KNOWLEDGE

Things are still not happy on the home front. *sigh* I'm still unhappy.

- Nishi

Wednesday, October 23, 2002
10:21 p.m.
You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible...
(Luke 18:27)

You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest...
(Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you...
(John 3:16; John 13:34)

You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps...
(Proverbs 3:5-6)

You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things...
(Philippians 4:13)

You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able...
(II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I FORGIVE YOU...
(I John 1:9; Romans 8:1)

You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs...
(Philippians 4:19)

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME...
(I Peter 5:7)

You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom...
(I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you...
(Hebrews 13:5)

Thought it was nice.

- Nishi

Wednesday, October 23, 2002
01:58 p.m.

Reena's blog

hehehehe :)

- Nishi

Tuesday, October 22, 2002
01:17 p.m.
UPDATED: 3:18 p.m.
Remember that cool lawyer in pennsylvania who wanted to help me get in touch with his sister-in-law because I had mentioned on this journal that I was an admirer of her? His name's Salil and he emailed her with my contact info :) He also sent me emails to 2 of his friends who would be able to help give advice on how to get into policy together with law - one of them even worked for Homeland Security Chief Tom Ridge! :) I'm so glad Salil wrote me and he's really cool :) I'm going to email him back tonight and send emails to his 2 friends too.

I read this one yearly horoscope and it had said that I would come to meet many dynamic, powerful and influential people in the latter half of 2002. I think it's happening ;)

Finished cleaning up the kitchen and cooking with mummy, and am going to have get into a skirmish tonight with papa as I tell him about the trip to see Ricky in November - if it happens. Yeesh - this is another reason I need to live on my own because I don't have to *ask* to go and do anything - I can be my own woman and not have to answer to anyone.

- Nishi

Tuesday, October 22, 2002
02:04 a.m.
I just spent the entire evening and up until 2am exactly working on an interesting legal article for a pamphlet for my cousin Mat's lawfirm. It's a great way for me to get a "published piece" to list on my resume and a nice way for me to help my cousin out. It's an article about a college/graduate student's ability to sue his university and the best way to do so is on a breach of contract claim for a specific promise or obligation that the university failed to deliver on. Very cool stuff. Felt good to do legal research like stuff again. Be good to start working and getting my brain stimulated like this.

I didn't hear back from Nathan Cummings today....I did email them back a nice letter last night (same day response) and Sarah Beth even proof-read and approved my response so I know I was good. ;) I'll give them till Friday to respond and then e-mail them again. GAWD - it's so freaking silly how you have to go about handling these things....you can't seem pushy or too needy - it's like when you're dating a guy - gotta do everything just right or you'll scare the guy off. Geez the games we play when we want something.

Miyu-chan! I adore Creed's One Last Breath!! That and Eminem's "Lose Yourself" :) YAAAY we like the same music. Everyone, Miyu-chan is super cool! Go read her blog cause it's fun! I hope I meet you one day soon! When I finally get that apartment of my own in NYC ok? You're coming for the house warming! :D

I took a nice long hot shower tonight and lathered myself up with Oil of Olay's new Total Effects Body lotion - GODDDDDDD it smells SO GOOOOOOOD, and put the hand cream on, and then put the nail cuticle brush thing all over my nails too! I feel all feminine and nice now :D I love being a girly girl. (Stop gagging all you butch women out there :P) hehehe j-o-k-e - laugh - har har......

anywayz.......

I'm gonna go now. Ciao :)

- Nishi

Sunday, October 20, 2002
02:32 p.m.
I think my prayers are being slowly answered! I got an email from one of the foundations I emailed 2 weeks ago - The Nathan Cummings Foundation - and they have a position for me - Special Assistant to the President! Cool huh? :) They're going to email me a job description this week and want to meet with me for an interview. It looks like it'll be a great opportunity to learn about nonprofits and the business of grantmaking and it's in NYC :) It may not be a law firm job and I'm still keeping my options open, but this is something very encouraging in my inbox at a time I thought I wouldn't ever be employed anywhere.

:) yaaay :)

UPDATED: 10:05 p.m.

whew! what a day!!! I just finished printing out 3 resumes, cover letters and writing samples to send to 3 law firms in NYC, and also emailed out resumes to 2 more firms who advertised in St. John's alumni newsletter. Hope one of them want to interview me :) I emailed back Nathan Cummings and I'm excited to interview! I'm going to go research Nathan Cummings thoroughly now and find out what I can about them.

My dad, while in India, visited the "family psychic" - this holy priest that lives in our town in India and this priest knew lotsa stuff about papa and mummy and when papa asked him about me and my career - the priest said that I would have to go on 2-3 interviews and then I'd get something :) So here we go - interview #1 - I just need a couple more and I'll have a job! *keeps praying* The priest is legit too - he doesn't charge for anything and really DOES know stuff - my dad who's usually skeptical is a believer in him.

Anyway, the moon was SO pretty tonight - I wanna draw that gorgeous moon some day - I was driving back from picking up burgers for my parents (they have this insane love for double whoppers - yuck) and was listening to "6 Feet From the Edge - One last breath" song by Creed and was watching the moon - so beautiful. Ok totally random entry. Gonna go now. Ciao :)

- Nishi

Saturday, October 19, 2002
06:57 p.m.
I was such a good girl today!! Woke up at noon and after breakfast, washed all the dishes, swept all the floors, mopped, vacuumed, and cleaned my whole bathroom (tubs, toilet, sink - you name it!), cleaned all the counters - finished at 2pm and papa came home and was like "wowwwww" and then I went and hit the treadmill and jogged 3.5 miles in 45 minutes and showered and mummy came home and was like "awww my baby's keeping the house so beautiful and hugged me" hehehe :D Just finished eating dinner and salad and having some herbal tea.......I wonder what the best time would be to bring up to my parents that it's time to visit Ricky again around November 3 to 10/13th......maybe the fact I made the place sparkling clean will make them say "of course you can go our wonderful daughter" - yeah right - what planet do I live on? They're gonna go "what? you just saw him in August! where do you have the money?" Ricky's paying for the ticket....big USC vs UCLA game he wants me to come down for....oh dear.....how to bring it up......

wouldn't have this problem if I lived on my own......so itchy to get my own place - I'm gonna go all out to decorate :) I love lamps and mirrors and little knick knacks and gorgeous rugs - oh and hardwood floors - but i think I'll go for carpeting cause I hate walking on cold floors. Anywayz this is a rambling entry - shall cut it short. Write later - I'm gonna go read my friends' blogs.

- Nishi

Friday, October 18, 2002
06:27 p.m.
I love my dad and mom - I love my dad and mom - I love my dad and mom - but......GET ME OUT OF HERE!!!!! That's the 2nd time i've said that in 2 weeks I think which just shows you that I'm getting just a wee bit batty living at home for this long. What set this off? My dad said something about how I sleep till 12 and then I'm on the computer all night and then watch some show late at night (Friends at 11pm) and I'm thinking - geez - I wash the dishes, do chores for mummy, clean the house, basically live in peace not doing anything bad and all papa can criticize are my activities - what the heck - what else IS there for me to do in this house living in the middle of nowhere? It's not like I'm allowed to go out often - which even if I was there'd be nothing to see or do really - what do they want? for me to stick to their side or always occupy myself cleaning? gawddddd.....I NEED A JOBBBBBBBBBBBB. Unfortunately, 1 more firm and the Ford Foundation both emailed today saying they had no positions for me. *sigh* It's back to the drawing board this weekend and next week and time to email out hundreds more firms. I'm getting to sound like a broken record aren't I? Always saying "I need to get a job and move out" but I'm trying! Nothing's coming up yet. I'll pray to God extra hard tonight.

- Nishi

Friday, October 18, 2002
12:26 p.m.
Caroline is so awesome. She uploaded Lasgow's - Something and Eminem's Lose Yourself for me :) Caro-chan you're right - it is Emma although I dunno if I'll even finish the book. To Nishi - Male 18, hey there! long time no see! Turns out there's another Indian out there named Nishi - same name as me but he's a GUY and I'm a girl. Cool huh? ShahRukh, you're so silly :) Be brave ;) The talk doesn't last long and plus you might learn something :P ;) Miyu-chan, I adore you! You're always so supportive *HUG* I get lots of warnings before the time comes - I get all PMSy - emotional and i cry easily at everything and will be volatile - losing my temper easily too. Heheheh - poor ricky :) What happens to you? Hi Seraph, (short for seraphim? *thinks of my qurbana book prayers* I took BAR BRI and it was excellent! Some friends took Pieper but they focus on neumonics (thousands of them) and I didn't wanna do that. Bar Bri is everything you need as long as you dutifully do the work assigned and really study If you're worried at all, supplement by taking the PMBR course which is like a mini-bar review course that other friends swore by and that I wish I had taken. Hope this helps. :)

I have to wash dishes, then shower and get ready to go shopping for my mom (just groceries) but it's gonna take all afternoon. See you guys later :)
- Nishi

Did you guys know Dick Cheney opposed the freeing of Nelson Mandela???
Thursday, October 17, 2002
09:09 p.m.
maybe it's cause I'm reading this stupid book called Madame Bovary - but the heroine's dissastifaction and feeling of "stiflement" (if that's a word) feels a lot like what I feel today...all purposeless....hell I need a job or a goal soon! This book sucks - I wanna smack the woman. I'm getting bored at home...I need to find that job and move out soon and start living life again.....the day to day life here has been great so far but it's got to change soon or I'm just gonna rot away.

UPDATE AT: 9:49p.m.
Ahh! feel more stimulated after reading the news. Turns out on Wednesday, 114 of the 191 member states of the United Nations said they do not want war with Iraq and that they would reject any action taken against any member state of the UN. These 114 member states make up the "Non-Aligned Movement" (NAM) and they want the Security Council to allow U.N. arms inspectors to return to Iraq without further delay. This is huge. The following is excerpted from this article about Wednesday's UN meeting:

UN's Largest Group of States Rejects War on Iraq

Speaking about the sanctions against Iraq, the article below is told by an American woman, part of a peace delegation in Iaq, who writes about how the sanctions aren't affecting Saddam at all but are hurting the women and children - the families - the innocents of Iraq instead. She opens the article with a man who comes to them asking for help because his wife is pregnant & needs a cesarean section but can't afford it on his salary. She writes that his plea is the same of millions of others in Iraq but neither the woman nor the rest of the peace delegation can do anything with the economic sanctions that have been imposed against Iraq. Sanctions which have either stopped or reversed the health-progress of Iraq which before 1990 was actually a good place for women and children and since then has deteriorated because of U.S. acts.

The Silent War: Women and Children are Casualties amongst Economic Sanctions

Lastly, the latest news today is this: US Makes Progress on Iraq Compromise Measure at UN - seems the U.S. is softening a LITTLE but I really hope the 15 member Security Council does something definite to make sure the U.S. can't just bully its way into Iraq the second Iraq does something - anything that's *slightly* wrong.
- Nishi

Thursday, October 17, 2002
06:50 a.m.
*looks up annoyed and pissed off* I got woken up by my stupid woman's thing! Woman's thing you ask? You know - stupid "aunt flow came for a visit" or "floating on the red river" or "the gift of being a woman" - HAH! Ya know what I say to that? PHOO-EY!! Do you know I went to bed at 3:30am last night??? That this damn thing woke me up with cramps at 6am and that I wanted to be up at 10am? That's EARLY DAMMIT! grrrrrrrrrr........stupid freaking womanhood curse I tell you it's just a damn curse that....mmmmmmm........I'm not a happy camper......grrrrrrr.........I'm gonna go watch the news or something and go give my dad a heart attack or something when he sees me actually up at this god forsaken hour.

- Nishi

POST NOTE
1:17 p.m.
A conversation with my dad this morning when I stumbled out the door.

HAHAHAHAHA my dad's funny :) I finally went back to bed around 8am and slept till 12:30 and my mom made yummy puttu (pronounced putih (as in "I put the toys away")) And now she wants me to cut broccolli. I'm a woman in pain dammit. Grrr.

Alrighties I'm out - will write more late.

Oh and to Adrianne, Callie-chan, and Sawah, thanks you guys :) *HUGS* I just like to take advil and spend the day relaxing :)

- Nishi

Wednesday, October 16, 2002
11:18 p.m.
I had such a nice day! Where do I start? Well last night ended well and I went to bed feeling loved and content. Thank you God! :) (and thank you ricky *MWAH*) and I woke up today at 12noon. Got a lovely response from that pennsylvania attorney who's the brother in law of Sudha Kantor! :) I really just might be able to speak with her! He's also really nice! I spent some time with mummy, talking girl talk, and then after massaging her achy legs (cause she was out in this hideous, horrible rainy/gusty day grocery shopping) I went and washed dishes and then hit the treadmill for a 3 mile run and then rushed to shower and get ready to meet Caralyn (carrie) at this nice chinese restaurant in our town.

I wore one of the beautiful new black sweaters I bought that has a deep scoop neck and it's just gorgeous and these new earrings I bought from my favorite boutique in the mall - H&M. I drove in the rain to the restaurant (after rushingly getting permission from my folks to stay out till 10/10:30pm - yes I know I still have to get permission at 25! What can I say? My parents are Indian :) S'ok - they love me and that's why.) ANYWAY - I can't believe what miserable horrible weather it was - I ran with my black jacket over my head into the restaurant and after waiting a bit, Carrie showed up. We had yummy peking duck in "pancakes" and rice with brocolli. I ordered a margarita but their margarita was GROSS - didn't like it - it hit my head and was too strong and blech. I'm not much of a drinker but I like to have something nice when out to dinner or socializing.

After dinner, we drove to the mall and hit Barnes and Noble - I LOVE B&N and love bookstores, period! But Carrie hates to read and hated B&N :) hahaha she said I was torturing her by taking so long to decide on books. They didn't have much of a TokyoPop manga selection unfortunately and I wanted to get "1001 Arabian Nights" from Signet Classics - they had it in a very beautiful 2 book set that was very easy to read - I love the whole Shaherazad thing. But I wound up changing my mind and not buying it cause I bet I could find it online cheaper. We then hit "The Christmas Tree Store" or something like that and it was SUCH AN AWESOME STORE! It had everything! From food, to home furnishings, but also had holiday stuff galore! I found these gorgeous snowflake-styled silver/metal-like candle votive holders for $2.50 and 12 vanilla votive candle for $1.50! I wound up not getting it though cause in my room or future apartment, I'd rather have candle holders I could place up all year round and not winter-motif ones. I *love* vanilla-scented candles - I love candles so much!

This guy at the store wound up hitting on me - he saw me standing at one of the aisles trying to look for a jewelery box (I need one so badly because I love jewelery but don't have anywhere to put all my necklaces and bracelets and earrings) and he was "oh so helpful" and then when I walked away had to stop and ask if I was from around there, and blah blah usual "are you in school?", "what's your name" I was friendly but I think he got the hint - but BOY was he persistant. Sometimes it's flattering but howcome it's always the not-so-attractive guys that have the courage to hit on girls? Howcome the really cute ones never hit on me? I'd love it if a really good looking guy actually made that effort. agh.

Anyway, we drove back to my home where I found my parents still up watching "Worst-Case-Scenario" and my dad grumbled something about me bring Carrie back home that late (around 10pm) but agh it was ok afterall :) Mummy made us coffee and then she and papa went to bed and carrie and I watched tv and talked some more. I lit vanilla candles in my room and mmm it still smells so good. On the drive over it was so awful - the road was littered with tree branches and leaves and garbage bins! The wind had been so awful - it must have been a pretty bad night!

Carrie left close to 11pm and I just finished washing my face and creaming it up with Nivea Q10 wrinkle control cream (i'm trying to have perfect skin till age 60+! ;)) I love Oil of Olay Total Effects lotions and creams and especially their nail cuticle brush! It's actually helping my skin/cuticles around my nails stay soft and beautiful! Plus the body lotion smells gorgeous - my mummy loved how I smelled. And the hand cream is so good it really works beautifully to keep my hands nice.

Ok so this has been a really long entry. OH! When I work out, I always listen to the radio and Z100 is my favorite station and I LOVE Eminem's "Lose Yourself in the Music" and Daniel Bedingfield's "I Gotta Get Through This" and (thank you Adrianne for the name of this song) Lasgo's "Something." I wish Avril Lavigne's stupid Sk8rboy song would stop hitting #1 on most requested! I'm SICK of it. I loved her song "complicated" though.

ok I am out. Definitely now. Night all :)

- Nishi

Tuesday, October 15, 2002
09:52 p.m. EST
add cutting beef to the list of things I hate to do, she says as she happily eats the yummy beef curry mummy made :) I can't believe it but remember when I wrote in a previous entry a week or so back about 2 women mentioned in the newspaper, India Abroad - one of whom was named Sudha Kantor? I mentioned them because both of those women were living my dream of having graduated from law school, practiced for a few years, and then ventured into areas of policy and working for the government. Sudha Kantor's brother-in-law just left me a wonderful message on this journal saying that he read that entry and just might be able to help me get in touch with his sister-in-law! I am so touched that he would take the time out to do that! I'm not gong to get my hopes up or anything, but it would be wonderful to speak to Ms. Kantor and get her advice because I really admire her.

I'm having such a nice night. Jogged 3.5 miles tonight and am looking forward to taking Carrie out for her belated birthday dinner tomorrow night. She's one of my oldest and dearest friends and because I was always away at college or law school studying she and I never saw much of each other after high school, but we still stayed very close friends.

Congrats to Sawah!! I'm so happy for you! I wish I could've seen your 12th Night production! ShaRukh, so many of my friends in college did IS! When I saw them at group meetings I'd be so glad that I was an english major instead ;) Diania, you're welcome! and God bless you too!!

I'm going to spend the night reading Madame Bovary! I bought that when Ricky and I went to Tarrytown to see Phillipsburg Manor and Sleepy Hollow and Washington Irving's Sunnyside Farms :) I wish I had bought Legend of Sleepy Hollow but just didn't have enough money on me at the time. I'll see ya'll later :)

- Nishi

Tuesday, October 15, 2002
10:07 a.m.
went to bed toasty warm cause I got to put the heat on and papa's going to start the wood burning stove tonight. We have one downstairs in our basement and it's perfect to sit in front of and talk or read on cold winter nights. But then I woke up this morning burning hot - jeez, ur either too cold or too hot - why can't I just live in perfect climate?

Jam packed day ahead....need to go get an application for my sister to be a substitute teacher at our local high school this winter break, need to cut up a whole block of beef for mummy - need to run my own errands....I really just wanna go back to bed! I didn't go to sleep till well past 3am...anywayz, hope you're all having a great day :)

Miyu-chan! Flannels! That's what I need! Warm pajamy flannels! :) I hope you stay warm *HUG* ShaRukh, where'd you graduate from? what was your major? That's so cool that ur previous job wants you back! Is that really where you wanna work or do you have another ideal career in mind? Diana, I went to the petition and signed it. I can't believe a costume company created such a racist and disgusting costume! Thanks for bringing it to my attention! If anyone else wants to sign this petition visit: Halloween Costume Designed with Anti-Asian Racism in Mind.

- Nishi

Monday, October 14, 2002
10:43 p.m.
I want a calendar that has all the cool holidays for each day for both U.S. and all around the world! For instance, did you know this Wednesday, Oct. 16th is National Boss Day here in the U.S.? Anywayz :) I had a very nice day! After cleaning up the place and stuff, had some lunch and lit some of my candles and put jasmine flowers around the candles! We have a big huge jasmine plant with gorgeous blooms so I collect them to put in my room. Anyway, spent the afternoon reading and then hit the treadmill around 7:30 and worked out good for an hour (jogged 3 miles) and had a great shower and got a call from my friend Carrie! Was her birthday yesterday so I'm taking her out for a belated birthday dinner this Wednesday :) YAAAY :) Re-lit the candles now and made myself a delicious egg sandwhich with some milk. Ya know what's yummy? Chocolate cake nuked in the microwave for a minute - it tastes SOOO good on a cold day.

Audrey, yes I remember you :) Got your email and thank you so much!! Hope we get to chat soon :) Danielle is a riot! When she gets pissed, watch out :) Thanks Danielle :) Callie-chan, I added your new journal to my list of friend's journal :) Don't be in the doldrums ok? *HUG* Sharukh, jelabi!! that's it! some of them taste too sweet but this one at their house was SOOO good! :) By the way - who are you? :) you've left me messages before but no idea who you are.

I downloaded a cool software called TRILLIAN that lets you AIM, ICQ, Yahoo Instant Message and MSN Message all at once! Now I can talk to everyone on all these things at the same time :) It's pretty cool! Not too keen about the looks of it but it works well!

- Nishi

Monday, October 14, 2002
01:41 p.m. EST
ya know the best thing about not having to work yet? I get to do my most favorite thing in the world - sleep in late :) I didn't get up from bed till 12:45! :) Special someone called me last night and I just remember being totally in love and happy and everything being just perfect.....mmmmmm........

I hate living in the cold! This house is colder than it is outside I think! Summer always goes by so quickly! I love every season for its own reasons - fall because of the changing colors on the trees - the woods around my house look gorgeous right now - and halloween and thanksgiving.....winter because of curling up with hot cocoa and watching the snow fall, and building snowmen and having snowball fights and sledding! Spring cause finally thwe barren trees come to life and the world starts to come alive again......but most of all I love summer - because the warmth and sun and life and energy in everything makes me so happy. Summer in itself just makes me happy and not the activities or any of the stuff associated with it.

But right now I'm C O L D ! ! ! anywayz......I need to go wash dishe